"Do you know our current situation? We have no way out." Levi looked at Ren attentively.
"You are right, but I don't want to force her, give her some time." Ren's eyes were as calm as water, without any ripples.
"The arrow is on the string, and there is no extra time for her to adjust her mentality now."
"Really? Then you can try to see if you can walk past me."
"You are indulging her weakness."
"Maybe you're taking advantage of her kindness!"
The tension was tense, and Ellen Mikasa left them wondering what to do for a moment. Hanji smoothed things over: "There's no need for this, let's sit down and talk."
The captain and Ren were unmoved and stared at each other. Levi said calmly: "We have to execute the plan tomorrow morning and we are in a hurry. If she can't do these things, we won't be able to wake up as usual in the future.
coming."
"So you're going to be a little rough and help her solidify her mind?" Renn raised his right hand, invisible holy fighting spirit clinging to his palm: "I'm sorry, although this is not worth boasting about, but you really can't beat me in close combat.
I."
There was a sudden silence in the hall, only the flame of the oil lamp was trembling. It was unusual, but a refreshing smile appeared on Levi's sparse face. He put his hand on Ren's shoulder: "You kid, you are so arrogant.
, but maybe you are right, I wish I had done the same thing.
In this case, it's up to you to make the choice, I always don't know how to make the right choice."
After hearing this, Ren put down his hand. Before he could speak, Historia's expression became firm. Regardless of Ymir's anxious face and eyes, she said, "I'll do it. Next, I'll play the role of the queen. No problem."
Ymir covered her eyes with her left palm. She felt weak and had a headache! Ren was silent and no one said a word.
Ignoring everyone's reaction, Ymir pulled the goddess out of the door and walked quickly to the wilderness outside the house.
This stronghold is a wooden house located next to a cliff. There is a yellow mud road leading to the city, and there is also a watchtower made of stone. The location is very good, so you can escape if there is any disturbance.
The moonlight is like water, the stars are dotted, and the chirping of crickets in the green grass comes and goes, mixed with the singing of other insects, like a symphony.
Ymir said angrily: "Why, you want to be a bad good person again?! Do you like selfless dedication so much?
Why are you so stupid? You just do whatever others ask you to do. Why?!"
"No, I'm not..." the goddess explained hurriedly.
Interrupting her directly, Ymir became emotional: "Fool! Do you think you can become the queen of infinite glory? If you are unlucky, you will die!
Moreover, so what if you ascend the throne, do you think you can hold power? You are just a puppet! Just a tool at the mercy of others! "
She rarely gets angry at goddesses, but this time is different. Ymir recalled the experience of being used by some people to act as a "goddess" to be worshiped by believers. It seemed that she had unlimited glory... What was the result?
Historia lowered her head slightly and choked with sobs: "Ymir, why do you care about me so much? Are you sympathizing with me? I don't deserve what you do."
"No, I said, I'm just doing it for myself."
Ymir's eyes were moist, and she gently stroked the goddess' blond hair with her hand, her tone as gentle as water: "Can we be selfish? Come with me, I still have some strength, at least I can take you away.
The world outside is very big, and there may be room for us."
The goddess pushed her hand away, with tears in her eyes, and shouted: "No matter how big the outside world is, what does it have to do with me! There are no friends of mine there, so I don't know anything about freedom, expulsion of giants, or the truth of the world.
Do not care!
I am the worst bad boy! What will happen to this terrible world, do I care? It’s better to destroy it like this!”
Ymir fell silent, and the goddess whispered: "Ymir, thank you, thank you for always taking care of such a stupid me.
Even if the world is about to be destroyed, I still hope to spend the last time with you, Ren, Sasha, Allen and everyone, just like we have done along the way, until the end of life."
Staring at her fair face under the moonlight, Ymir whispered: "Even if you risk everything for this, even if you embark on a road with no return?"
"Yes, you have always been taking care of me in the past, taking care of me who is so awkward. Now, I hope that I can do my best for my friends, even if this is just my wishful thinking." Historia smiled.
, she looked so gentle under the moonlight.
Ymir held her little hand: "What a hopeless stupid woman."
"Yes, there is another ignorant man here who has failed completely." Ren said calmly.
Ymir turned to look at him and said sarcastically: "Why, are you afraid that if I take her away, your plan will fail?"
"If you had taken her away just now, I might have stopped you." Renn sat on the grass and stared at the bright moon in the night sky in trance.
"Thank you for standing up and helping me just now." The goddess said softly.
Renn laughed at himself: "You don't need to thank a hypocritical villain like me. I thought the soldier commander was right just now.
Although I stood up to stop him, I didn't think so in my heart. I hope from the bottom of my heart that you can stand up for everyone and become the queen.
There is no need for you to thank a shameless person like me, I don’t deserve it.”
The goddess heard this and sat next to him, while Ymir stood behind her.
Historia hugged her knees with both hands: "If you think so, then why did you get up and why did you almost fight with the soldier captain?"
Ren put his hand on his forehead: "The feeling of powerlessness fills my heart. I am just incompetent and furious. I failed to stab Arnie decisively at first, and then I failed to kill Reiner and Hoover. Now I need you to be the queen."
, I can’t stop it either.
I came to serve as a soldier with full confidence, but it seemed like I couldn't accomplish anything. Our current situation is still difficult, and I couldn't change anything.
So I really want to know, what on earth am I doing?"
The goddess tilted her head and turned to stare at him: "Have I ever told you that you are also very awkward?"
Ren was stunned. He remembered what Ani seemed to have said. Historia smiled and said: "When a person lives in this world, must he make any great contributions to mankind? He must make a few great things."
Will something big happen to change the direction of history and improve the situation of humans inside the wall?
Why do you think that? Is it a sense of mission or have you been given some kind of responsibility?"
His body trembled slightly, Ren grabbed his hair with his hands and laughed a few times in a low voice: "Yes, I am too conceited, and my inherent cognition constrains me. Although I deny it with my mouth, subconsciously I still think that I am great.
It can change a certain established trajectory and make everything better.
But I have forgotten that the power I possess is not strong enough, and my wisdom is no more than human. I am not the protagonist in heroic epics or brave novels. Being swept up by the tide of the times, I am not that great."
"Yeah, so I thought it was ridiculous when you denied yourself just now."
A young boy's voice came. Ren turned around and saw that Eren, Mikasa, Amin, Sasha, and Connie had all come out. The one who spoke just now was Jean Po.
Allen took the lead, walked up to Ren, grabbed his collar and pulled him up: "I heard everything you said. I didn't realize it before. I think you are seriously ill! You have to deny that you have been working so hard
Is there any point in fighting?”
Ren was silent for a moment, and Allen let go, then punched him in the chest and said loudly: "Although you keep saying that you are not special, it seems to me that you are still not fully awake.
Do you think you are the savior? Don’t take everything on yourself. You are not that great yet. Who stipulates that you have to save the world? You are just Ren Ackerman, a 15-year-old boy!
The road to freedom is difficult and tortuous, and now is not the time to despair!"
It was quite a slap in the face. Renne had said similar words to Allen not long ago, but tonight he returned it unchanged.
He lowered his head and smiled and said: "Thank you for the reminder. You are right. People are always like this. When they educate and criticize others, they speak plausibly, but they do not reflect on themselves."
Allen looked up at the night sky, his smile was a little nostalgic: "No, I should be the one to thank you, thank you for your support and help to me all the time.
Although I often shouted to kill all the giants, I didn't have any psychological burden when I used the power of the giants. I was extremely confident and felt that I could do something big.
The result seems to be that it keeps failing and accomplishing nothing. If you hadn't taken me back from Reiner and Hoover last time, how many more people would have died in order to take back this waste like me?
It was actually me who failed completely."
Mikasa, Armin, Connie, Sasha and others watched all this quietly.
"Haha, what's wrong with you two today? Are you complaining to each other? Historia is stronger than you." Rang Bao stabbed: "Do you know that I am very envious of the special power you have!"
"Let's go back, we have to continue planning tomorrow." The goddess said with a smile.
Riding on the clear breeze and bright moon, everyone returned together.
In the wilderness, Jean, who was walking behind the team, snorted: "Ren, don't look down on yourself. If I had your strength, I would wake up laughing in my dreams."
Ren smiled playfully: "Master Rang, don't you realize that you are great?"
"What?" Rang Bao was confused.
"Mikasa and I actually have special blood powers, and the other people whose training results are ahead of you, Reiner, Berthold, Arnie, and Allen, they all have the power of giants, so normal people
Among them, you will be the strongest."
At first glance, it seemed a little bit...ah, Rang snorted coldly and said disdainfully: "Do you think I'm still as easy to deceive as before? Why sweat more now and bleed less in the future?"
It’s a pity that I was so frightened by your fallacies back then.”
"Haha!" Sasha and Connie couldn't help laughing.
"Hey, what are you two idiots laughing at!" Rang Bao was furious.
Renn laughed dumbly. Everyone has grown up and is not so easy to fool.
Putting aside the arrogance and prejudice caused by his own experience and identity, he felt the cool breeze blowing from the distance caressing his body. Like a green grass in this field, he regarded himself as a member of this world.
I would like to contribute this small amount of effort to the place where he lives now and the friends he has.
He now believes that countless insignificant changes may one day create a different scene.