If they are evil people, he can draw a knife and hack them to death, but when facing those kind people, he will always be a little at a loss and not know how to get along with them.
He doesn't like to recall the past, not just because he was young and in high school at that time.
Speaking of innocence and childishness, it actually doesn't matter, because everyone has been through this, and people will not completely deny their former selves when they grow up.
But Ren neither likes "Karen Reinhardt" nor "Ren Ackerman" in the giant world.
It's not that he hates the past, it's that he hates that he was too weak and ignorant in the past.
At that time, no matter how hard he tried, even if he risked his life, he could not protect what he wanted to protect.
At dawn, the first ray of sunlight shines from the distant east.
In front of the quaint mountain gate of Liudong Temple, the mottled golden morning sun scattered on the bluestone steps, dispelling some of the chill.
Saber's beautiful eyes like blue waves stared at him, listened to his complaints, pondered for a moment and then asked:
"So, you've actually seen me before?"
"Saber, this is actually not important, because you don't know me, and one-sided acquaintance is meaningless."
Ren shook his head slightly. The initial part of "Wu Ming's" memory has been blurred, but he still has the impression of Saber.
Those memories exist in the most precious place in the young man's heart, as evidenced by the eternally distant golden sword.
But that knight king is not the one in front of him, and he is not the real Wu Ming. It is meaningless for the two of them to talk about acquaintance.
Saber stared at him and saw nothing unusual on his face. She stopped continuing the topic and asked instead:
"You said you have met someone very similar to me?"
"Yes, she is the illegitimate daughter of the royal family, a little girl with blond hair and beautiful eyes like sapphires. Like you, she grew up on a farm.
But life on the farm was not friendly to her.
Abandoned by her mother and having no friends to play with, she worked hard on the farm every day, hoping to forget that she was alone in the world...
That day, she told me that she wanted to protect the smiles of her children and try her best to let everyone live a happy life.
So, she was so scared that her body was trembling, she was just a village girl, a new soldier, and had never learned how to govern the country... In the end, she stood up like a fool and became the so-called queen."
Ren narrated softly and slowly closed his eyes.
He always deliberately forgets the past and seals the memories of the past in his heart.
At that time, Christa stood up to be the queen, and he tried to stop her, but after all, he did not have the strength and courage to help her.
"She is brave and kind. If I were an ordinary... girl, I might not have the courage to protect people." Saber said with a soft voice.
She didn't know who Wuming was talking about specifically, and which place the story was about, but she could learn something about the girl she had never met from his narration.
She instinctively felt that he was not talking nonsense.
For the first time in these days, Saber noticed the emotional fluctuations in Wuming's heart, and she asked softly:
"Wu Ming, you feel guilty for not helping her?"
"Guilt?"
Ren recited along, slowly opened his eyes, and stared at the clear blue sky for a while.
At that time, Historia chose to inherit the throne and shoulder the responsibility in order for the children in the underground streets to come to the surface, for the stability of the security within the wall, and for everyone to live an ordinary and happy life...
And he just pretended to stop it.
Not to mention being a hero, he even hoped in his heart that she would consider the overall situation and take the initiative to stand up.
Since then, he has wavered.
He realized that he was not a hero, not even a hero, he was just an ordinary person with some power.
If only he could be stronger, smarter and more mature at that time, maybe he wouldn't have to watch everyone struggle and watch many people pass away.
Subconsciously clenching his fists, Ren slowly stood up: "Saber, didn't you ask me why you gave up your dream of becoming a hero?"
Saber raised her head and stared at him, her white hair very eye-catching.
His face was very calm, with no hint of emotion or anger at all, but she had the illusion that he was covered in bruises.
Just like she was kneeling on the hill of Camlan.
Ren looked at her expressionlessly, without a trace of ripples in his voice:
“I discovered that I don’t have the ability to make everyone live a happy life.
So I have to be selfish and live my life, just like most ordinary people in this world."
He said no more and walked into Liudong Temple.
Looking at his back, Arturia was in a daze. At this moment, she wanted to call him out and tell him that he shouldn't give up.
But──
'I don't have the ability to make everyone live a happy life.'
These words echoed in Saber's heart, ripples appeared in her green eyes, and the feeling in her heart was even more difficult to understand.
She has been working hard to protect everyone's ordinary and warm life every day, but in the end she failed.
Does she have the ability to let everyone live a happy life?
Saber stood up slowly, her eyes blank.
After failing, people finally couldn't bear it anymore. The villagers, nobles, knights... everyone couldn't hold on any longer. Only she thought it was okay.
She has lost faith in herself and only the Holy Grail is left.
"Holy Grail, tonight?" Saber whispered softly, suppressing the fatigue in her heart and longing for a "miracle."
………
Inside Fuyuki City Church.
The old priest Kotomine Riko was staring blankly at the cold corpse of Tokiomi Tokiomi, the dark red blood stains were dazzling.
However, he felt his eyes go dark for a while, and almost fainted to the ground, but was supported by Kotomine Kirei behind him.
The old priest looked in disbelief and asked with trembling lips:
"Kirei, why did Tokiomi die?"
"The Magician Killer took advantage of the King of Heroes' absence to sneak into Tohsaka's house and assassinate the teacher using despicable means..."
Father Mapo looked serious, opened his eyes and told lies, and unceremoniously poured a basin of dirty water on Father Kiritsugu.
"Tokiomi, how could you be so careless..." The old priest couldn't help but burst into tears as he grabbed Tokiomi's cold hand.
Tokiomi:…………
Kotomine Rimasa was extremely grieved. He was good friends with Tokiomi's father and had been friends with Tokiomi himself for many years.
Two generations, decades of friendship.
"Tokiomi, why did you die? Now, the Holy Grail will fall into the hands of those ambitious people..."
The old priest burst into tears and looked very sad.
Silently watching his father sobbing, Father Mapo's stiff face twitched slightly.
He gritted his teeth and tried to maintain a slightly sad expression, but in his heart...
Hahahaha, ahhahahahaha, hahahahaha!
No, it made me laugh to death.
Father Mapo suppressed his laughter and nearly had a stomach cramp. His father must have never imagined that he was the one who killed Tokiomi.
