Xuan Yi's words made Xian Ziqian startled. He seemed to be determined to know the answer, so he would ask directly what he wanted to know. Why did she leave him?!
"Since you intend to do it, you don't have to hide the reason." Xuan Yi was still drinking quietly, but at this time, his eyes were focused on Xian Ziqian, "Your personality is not that of a woman who is good at making appearances.
It’s not Xian Zi Ai, you have your own limits, so I hope you don’t have to hide it, I just want to know a reason why you want to leave.”
Xian Ziqian didn't answer the question immediately, but she knew that even if she didn't answer the question today, Xuan Yi would ask it tomorrow. If she didn't answer it tomorrow, she would face the same question the day after tomorrow. She wouldn't be able to hide it for long. If she didn't tell
, Xuanyi will have various guesses, maybe he will guess the truth, maybe not.
However, she must not tell him that she left because she was pregnant with his flesh and blood, but when she gave birth to the child, she would forget everything.
"There's no reason. Maybe it's because I'm used to living alone." Xian Ziqian sighed softly.
No matter whether he hates her or blames him, she can't let him fall in love again. If she falls in love with him, she will forget it after losing her memory. Without her memory, she will not suffer. Even if she is accompanied by dreams occasionally, she will still be there after dawn.
Will accept her life after amnesia, Xuan Yi can't, he can't forget it, if he really likes her, it may take some time to forget, since she can't give him a lifelong promise, why let him fall in love with her.
Xuan Yi said calmly: "I want a reason, not so-called comfort."
Xian Ziqian frowned slightly. It would take a long time before the child in her belly was born. She could not avoid meeting Xuan Yi during such a long time. She could not avoid this problem.
"You won't tell me that you really fall in love with me, right?" Xian Ziqian suppressed the ups and downs in her heart, with a hint of ridicule on her face, and said half-jokingly, "From the beginning, there was a transaction between us.
, you give me a decent life, and I give you a child who can solve problems. There should be no so-called love in this, right?"
Her expression was too relaxed. She was used to suppressing her feelings in her heart. Ever since she was a child, she was used to hiding all her love and hatred. She was always a stupid girl.
Xuan Yi looked at Xian Ziqian, as if he wanted to find out the truth from her teasing and smile, then drank the wine in the glass and said slowly: "Yes, I have fallen in love with you."
His answer made Xian Ziqian dumbfounded for a moment. She knew that he might fall in love with her, but she never thought about love. Her mouth opened slightly, as if she was at a loss.
"But you don't love me, at least you don't love me as much as I love you." Xuan Yi breathed out softly, with a calm and gentle smile on his face, as if he was talking about a very ordinary thing, without any hint of anything.
Emotion, "Maybe we all had a purpose in the beginning. There was no emotion between us, only transactions. Unfortunately, I didn't follow the rules later. I started to like you, and then fell in love with you."
"I, too, like you." There was obvious hesitation in Xian Ziqian's voice. She was not hesitating the answer, but hesitating whether to say it. During the hesitation, she used the word "like" instead of the word Xuan Yi said.
like.
Xuan Yi shook his head lightly and said slowly: "You once told me that you and Xian Ziyi are sisters after all, so there must be similarities. You said, I have to be wary of you, because
You will also have Xian Zi Ai's scheming and planning. Yes, now I believe that you do have the same thing. Even in terms of scheming and planning, you are not inferior to Xian Zi Ai. It's just that what Xian Zi Ai does has nothing to do with me. But, what do you do?
I can accept whatever you do, including if you don’t want to stay with me forever.”
Xian Ziqian bit her lip and looked at Xuan Yi, her mind in confusion.
"I'm older than you, and I've met and dated more women than you think." Xuan Yi calmly poured himself another glass of wine and said in a still gentle tone, "Xuan Jinmo, the most popular woman in Prince Xuan's Mansion,
The predecessors have always had a close relationship with brothels. Some brothels in Wumeng Kingdom and Daxing Dynasty are the properties of Prince Xuan's Palace. In addition to making profits, they are also to better protect the relevant people and things. The descendants of Prince Xuan's Palace, regardless of gender.
, since birth, there will be girls from brothels secretly serving as teachers, and the affairs between men and women have been known since childhood."
Xian Ziqian still said nothing, but held her hands together slightly nervously.
Xuan Yi did not intend to listen to Xian Ziqian's words, and continued to speak softly: "The men in Prince Xuan's Mansion are not only good at affairs, but also good at planning, especially as the eldest son. So, at the beginning, I had my
Plan, you were not part of the original plan. The reason why I gave up your sister and chose you with the Queen Mother’s gift of marriage is because I found that being with you is a very happy thing. I don’t have to think about it and just take it.
Just treat you as a simple child. You are scheming, but your nature is pure. You are as cute as a little fox that has not yet become a spirit. To use your sister Xian Zi Ai, I don’t have to sacrifice myself.
With a love affair between a man and a woman, I can make your sister completely devoted to me, and she can complete the task better. As for you, I use myself as a bargaining chip, because I am a bargaining chip, and I don't want to lose."
Speaking of which, Xuan Yi stopped, glanced at the wind and rain outside the window, and said softly: "At first, I just regarded you as a little girl who didn't resent you. When I first met you, I was annoyed with you. There was no reason. Think about it now.
, it’s not without reason, it’s just that from the first moment I met you, I didn’t want the matter between me and your sister to fall into your eyes. I didn’t want you to appear around me and your sister, so I started to humiliate you and make you
Stay away from me and your sister, but from that time on, you lived in my heart, and you were never willing to drive me away. Even the humiliation turned into deliberate provocation, just for you to look at me one more time.
Even if it’s just annoying.”
Xian Ziqian felt that her breathing was not smooth, and she was in a daze, unable to speak a word.
"You told me that you were leaving after I fell in love with you." Xuan Yi suddenly looked at Xian Ziqian, who had been looking stunned, and asked in a calm tone, "Do you think I will agree?
I know that you have never liked me very much. Although there may be some small affection occasionally, it is just the answer from your body. Even when you make love with me, you are avoidant and alienated.
I held my breath to be vaguely aware of it."
Xian Zijian's face turned red. He knew what she meant. When she hugged him and fell asleep, there was some inexplicable resistance in her body, as if she was just accepting her fate because he was her husband-in-law.