"Because I don't have a sense of reality." Qiuqiu said softly: "It all comes too fast and good, it's not like the real thing. You, who have an extraordinary identity, have a high status, and have a love that once promised life and death..."
Not long ago, she was just an ordinary girl and thought she was one of countless ordinary people in the world. Suddenly, her world was completely subverted, and even her worldview was refreshed.
It was too much, so good. She trembled with everything he gave, for fear of losing or breaking it.
This love, and the changes that come with this love, are like a crystal coat, extremely gorgeous and intoxicating, but they are also particularly fragile and unreal. She holds this love, but deep down in her heart
I always feel that this is not my own, but I stolen or borrowed it temporarily. Maybe one day I will return all the principal and interest.
I just feel uneasy.
This love is not only heavy, but suddenly, the most terrible thing is that she can't remember what happened in the past.
She didn't know how they met, how they fell in love, how they got along, how the last thing happened.
Those glory and halos do not belong to her now.
Qiuqiu felt in her heart that either Shi'er had made a mistake, although the possibility was extremely small. Or she lived too wonderfully in her previous life and overdrawed all her luck, intelligence, and courage, so that she
This life has been born in an ordinary and unparalleled place. Standing next to Shi'er, he is a completely strange combination of toads and white swans.
She urgently needed something to prove the reality of all this.
"I think if I could have a child who belongs to us, I would grasp this truth and stand by you less guilty and tie you up tightly."
Yes, tied.
She was so uncertain in her heart, but she was beyond her expectations.
She wanted to be with him, she liked his breath, his eyes, his arms - everything she wanted to have, for a long time, and would never let go of her hands.
But what capital does she have? The two are so disparate and unmatched. If Shi'er really turns around and leaves one day, what can she use to keep him? Is it an unstable and unreliable relationship? Or is it her three-legged cat-level
ability?
A child is the relationship between two people, a witness, or even a bargaining chip.
Qiuqiu can now express his past worries calmly: "I had such a despicable and narrow-minded thoughts at that time... Actually, I wanted a child at that time. It was not because I loved him, but because I needed him."
Shi'er hugged her silently.
"Don't say that, you're not that kind of person. Everyone has selfish thoughts, and I'm no exception."
What selfishness can he have? Qiuqiu shook his head.
"You don't have to slander yourself to comfort me."
"It's not smear, it's true." Shi'er's finger gently rubbed her cheek.
Although he doesn't understand the process of a woman's pregnancy, he has seen it in books. He has also heard that pregnant women will become more plump.
But Qiuqiu's appearance did not change at all. Instead, it seemed to be clearer.
"I have also resented, why did such a fate fall on me? Even when we first met, I was jealous of you, you were so healthy and cheerful. I once thought of letting others do it with malicious intentions.
After the pain of my illness once, they will know how pale and shallow their self-righteous comfort is.”
This is the first time Qiuqiu heard Shi'er reveal his shortcomings.
But she thought this was normal. Patients had to endure pain that others did not understand. It was normal for people to have a bad temper and strange thoughts. There was no way to relieve the pain and pressure in their hearts. They also had to endure the useless comfort of others over and over again.
Of course, the person who came to comfort him must have been kind, but at that time, people might need more peace. He did not need others to mention his pain again and again, forcing him to have to repeat it again and again.
Looking back at the trauma faced, and express gratitude and gratitude to those who comfort him.
It was like a long torture.
This is nothing. Shi'er's psychology and thoughts are completely different from her thoughts.
"It turns out that I didn't think it through, but since I went into seclusion and found out that I had a child, I slowly discovered my original motivation." Qiuqiu continued: "I used to think that this child was not real, but
We all know how terrible the inner demon is. I was wondering at the time if I let the inner demon develop, would I eventually die of madness?"
At first she felt panic and conflicted.
She is afraid of death.
But she couldn't bear to leave this child.
Even if it was the hallucination caused by the inner demon, she still couldn't make up her mind.
"Look, if you just want to have a child to achieve your goal, how could you ignore your own life for him?"
"I don't know..." Qiuqiu was a little confused: "I really don't know."
When did her ideas change? She couldn't even say it herself.
The child gradually occupied all her mind, and she valued him more and cared for him day by day. She could not accept the idea of hurting him or even completely eliminating his existence.
In fact, the change probably happened before retreat.
She replied to her memories at the Ninth Peak.
She no longer felt that their love was a castle in the air without foundation and without origin. She knew that he loved her, and that they had met each other - she remembered everything.
Even death could not separate them, and her anxiety and panic gradually disappeared with the revival of memory.
So according to what she said, she should not have such a big obsession with the child.
Because the child is no longer her only possible guarantee.
I don’t know if it was because the problem she was thinking was too dark and heavy, so my stomach moved.
Shi'er's hand gently pressed against her stomach, and he immediately noticed the movement.
"He moved!"
"Yes." Qiuqiu nodded.
For her, fetal movements were common and she didn't think it was strange. But looking at Shi'er's expression, her eyes were shining. Qiuqiu had never seen him look so happy.
Shi'er also pressed her face on, and then he felt another clearer and more forceful vibration.
"It's moving again!"
Well……
Qiuqiu looked at him with some embarrassment.
She is not like Shi'er, she feels novel and a layman about this.
If she was right, the child just now kicked Shi'er hard.
——This kind of person who puts his face on the door and makes people kick it, and is so excited that he is as if he is so excited that he is a treasure. It is probably difficult to find a second person in the world.
Say it to others. Others will definitely not believe it.
The wise, magical, noble and cold peak master is so stupid, who would believe it?
But... Qiuqiu felt that such a Shi'er was very real.
Finally, he was no longer bound by past events and habits like before, and began to gradually reveal emotional reactions and ups and downs.
The child in his belly kicked and beat him, and it seemed that he was trying hard to turn over.
Qiuqiu could feel his movements and even feel that he was different from the previous ones.
What's wrong with this kid?
Although I was very lively and active in the past, I never had such abnormality as I am today.
Did he also feel his father right in front of him?
It's possible.
Shi'er's spiritual power is surging and thick. For children, such a powerful existence must be able to sense it.
Not to mention that he is still the child's father, this child must have a natural sense of intimacy and attachment to him.
However, is this child’s way of expressing joy by using hand massage and kicking?
Hmm. This expression is really unique.
"I'd love to see him."
Qiuqiu felt a little regretful.
If it is in modern times, some methods can be used to scan out the shape of the child in the belly. It is not possible here.
Shi'er was reminded by her words, and raised her head and said, "Look...you can watch it."
Qiuqiu was puzzled: "What should I think?"
Shi'er smiled and said, "Don't hurry, but you have to wait for the evening."
Wait for the evening?
Qiuqiu looked up at the sky. The sun had set. Is it counting evening or evening now?
"Come on, let's go back first."
There was peace in Fengxian Pavilion. The two of them had no intention of taking care of the other things. They were all focused on each other and on the children.
Qiuqiu couldn't hold back and urged Shi'er several times.
She couldn't wait.
In the past few months, she has thought more than once that it would be great if she could see how her child looks now.
I didn't expect this idea to become a reality.
"Is it not time yet?"
"It's almost done." Shi'er knew Qiuqiu was anxious, so she was simply restless and looked forward to it.
Shi'er raised his hand gently and tapped his fingertips on the table.
The light in the room was completely wiped out in the blink of an eye, and the room became dark.
Shi'er held one of Qiuqiu's hands and gently covered her belly with the other hand.
Qiuqiu's entire attention was focused on Shi'er's hand.
What can Shi'er do?
Just when she was puzzled, Shi'er's hand suddenly had a faint, white light.
Not only was there light, Qiuqiu also felt a particularly comfortable spiritual power, which escaped from Shi'er's palm, as if it had penetrated her clothes and flesh and spread to the child.
The joyful feeling that came from the child made Qiuqiu fully understand how excited and comfortable he was.
Can you feel uncomfortable? Shi'er is so luxurious to do this.
This naughty child in his belly is really conscious of the goods. He is wrapped in such pure and mellow spiritual power. He is like taking a hot spring bath with spiritual power. All the pores on his body are probably opened, so comfortable that they are floating leisurely.
But I don't know why.
Shi'er's palms became brighter and brighter.
In this white light, Qiuqiu's clothes and the outline of his arms all seemed blurred.
And under his palm, in the center of the white light ball, a small golden light flashed gently. (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to vote for recommendations, monthly votes, and your support
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ps: Today I found that everyone voted for a lot of pink votes. Has the doubled at the end of the month already started? I have been living a messy life and have severe sleep deprivation. I didn’t expect it to be the end of the month.
Thank you everyone.
These two days may be because I didn’t sleep well, or it may be because I was prone to allergies in spring and my skin was very uncomfortable.