Because Xing Zheng said he would pick her up after get off work, he also sent Lin Mei to the bank in the morning. She did not drive, so she had to wait for him in front of the bank. He usually arrived early when he said he would pick her up. There was no one there today, and Lin Mei felt vaguely that something was not right, so she took out her mobile phone and called him, but no one answered. She was even more sure that her feeling was correct.
Instead of calling him any more, Lin Mei contacted Zhuang Wan, "Do you know where Xing Zheng went?"
Zhuang Wan hesitated, and after a long time, he told her, "Mr. Xing took a call in the afternoon and left. It seems he went home."
Needless to say, Lin Mei immediately understood that Xing Zheng had known the news of Xie Jinjia's return in advance and went to find her without hesitation. This was not unusual, even though Xie Jinjia had said before that she did not want to see him.
, he still couldn't let go, even if he was disgusted, he would rush to her as soon as possible.
Lin Mei didn't know how to describe such a mood. Most people couldn't be 100% rational in their relationships. Even though she had done a lot of psychological construction for herself, she still hoped that she would be the top priority in his heart.
The one chosen.
If he remained silent and put her aside for other people or things, she would be uncontrollably disappointed and sad. Even if that person was Xie Qujia, she would still feel uncomfortable. To say she was jealous seemed a bit exaggerated, but that was not the case.
What is the imbalance that arises in the heart other than jealousy?
After talking to Zhuangwan on the phone, Lin Mei contacted Xing Zheng again, but still no one answered.
The colleagues at the bank had already left one after another, leaving her waiting here alone. The cold winter wind made Lin Mei shiver. She knew she couldn't wait for him today, so she wanted to call a car to leave.
At this moment, an off-road vehicle stopped in front of her, the window was lowered, and Lin Mei saw Xu Ying's face, "Why are you standing here alone? Is it cold?"
When a person is mentally fragile, he will have the urge to cry when he hears a word of concern. Lin Mei's eyes turned sour and turned red. Xu Ying saw that she was not in a good state, so he invited her into the car first.
There was plenty of warm air in the car. After getting in, her body felt much warmer. Xu Ying asked her, "Do you have time to have a meal together?"
Lin Mei said "Hmm", she has been let go, how come she doesn't have time.
"Is the pub okay?" Xu Ying asked again.
Lin Mei had no objection. Xu Ying drove to the izakaya. The two of them went to a separate box on the second floor. Lin Mei sat down cross-legged. There was a floor heater in the house. She was sweating when she came in. She took off her coat and put it aside.
When I sat down, I unconsciously picked up my phone and looked at it. There was no message, let alone a call.
Xu Ying was so smart that he had already guessed a thing or two. After ordering the dishes, he asked her, "Did you and Xing Zheng quarrel?"
"There was no quarrel," Lin Mei denied, "Maybe it was my unilateral pretentiousness."
She mocked herself, and Xu Ying's expression became more serious, "What happened, can you tell me?"
Although Xu Ying was young, he was extremely mature when talking about problems. Lin Mei had already established a sense of trust in him before. Now that he was depressed, he told him about Xie Qujia. Xu Ying was a good listener.
, when Lin Mei spoke, he listened quietly and attentively. He felt her swallowing midway, so he thoughtfully took out a tissue and handed it to her.
After Lin Mei finished speaking, he said to her, "This is not your problem, and you are not being hypocritical."
"Isn't it?" Lin Mei lowered his head, "I don't know what I am worrying about. Sometimes I feel it is unnecessary. I clearly know how difficult it has been for him these years."
It is understandable that a person who has never been loved by his biological mother longs for her love and attention. For someone like her who grew up in love with loving parents and a sound family, she cannot completely share her love with him.
Love, the maternal love that she had at her fingertips, was what he had spent nearly thirty years seeking, but he could not get it.
Two forces pulled her. One side said that she should be angry when he left her alone, but the other side said that since she loved him, she should understand him. He was so persistent and needed attention.
"Isn't this normal?" Xu Yingtong said to Lin Mei. "If you like someone, you want to be the most important person in his heart. No matter what happens, he will be ranked first. This is human nature. Why should you do this?
Condemn yourself?”
"He obviously could explain to you, but he didn't say anything. This is his problem. You don't have to take the blame on yourself because of his wrong decision." Xu Ying analyzed calmly. Although the words were unpleasant, they were
Very accurate.
Although Lin Mei has a deep affection for Xing Zheng, he is not blind to it. Xu Ying's words are very objective. It is because Xing Zheng did something inappropriate. "I just think it has been difficult for him these years."
"I think it's difficult for you too." Xu Ying poured juice for her, "Actually, you don't have to be so sensible. Tell him clearly about your feelings and don't hold it back."
Lin Mei drank the juice and fell into silence. Xu Ying saw worry in her eyes, "What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that he will think you are unreasonable, ignorant, and inconsiderate?"
Lin Mei couldn't refute, Xu Ying was always so to the point, and he said, "If he really thinks this way, then I don't think he deserves to be with you."
"You have sacrificed a lot to be with him. If you are deprived of the right to express your emotions, with all due respect, you have no need to be with him."
When Xu Ying makes rational analysis, he has a maturity and stability that belies his age. He was like this in the past. Now that he was called back to manage the company, and after a year or two in the shopping mall, the level was even worse.
"You need to listen to your inner voice now. Tell him what you want most. If he can't do it, you can negotiate." Xu Ying said.
During this meal, Lin Mei was being explained by Xu Yingkai, and her originally depressed mood improved a lot. When she came out of the izakaya, Lin Mei's cell phone rang. It was a call from Xing Zheng, but she was not in the mood to answer it.
Xu Ying saw it and said to her, "If you don't want to pick it up, just don't pick it up. Are you going to watch a movie?"
Lin Mei said "Yeah", she turned her phone to silent, put it in her bag, and went to watch a movie with Xu Ying.
After the movie was over, it was late at night and Lin Mei felt sleepy, so Xu Ying sent her home. On the way, Lin Mei took out her mobile phone and saw dozens of missed calls, all from Xing Zheng.
At that moment, she had a strong impulse to call him back, but she held it back in an instant.
Near early in the morning, Xu Ying parked the car downstairs in the apartment and got out of the car with Lin Mei. It was cold and Lin Mei was wearing thin clothes. A gust of wind passed by and she shivered from the cold. Xu Ying saw her and took the car.
The jacket she was wearing was draped over her body, which made her feel much warmer.
"Thank you." Lin Mei thanked Xu Ying.
"Get some rest early. I won't go up. I'll contact you tomorrow." After putting on Lin Mei's clothes, Xu Ying was about to leave. As soon as he turned around, he saw Xing Zheng opposite. This chapter has been completed!