This question has puzzled Xing Sha for nearly thirty years since the day Xing Zheng was born. She was also ten months pregnant, and she was cared for by him in every possible way during the pregnancy. Why could her attitude towards Xing Yan and Xing Zheng be so different?
Is there such a big gap?
Xie Jinjia always thought that her dislike of Xing Zheng had no reason, just like her love for Xing Yan also had no reason. Until now, thinking about what happened back then, she finally knew the reason.
When Xie Fanjia was pregnant with Zhao Jianghe, it was considered an accidental pregnancy. Although she and Liu Qinye were nominally "husband and wife", they never received an ID card. Her ID card was lost during the displacement, and she could not get a replacement without it.
, it is impossible for the two to have a legal relationship.
Liu Qinye was very insecure and always asked her if she wanted to leave him and go back to Nanjiang. Xie Qujia never thought that in order to tie her up, Liu Qinye deliberately made her pregnant.
She didn’t know when he had done it. Her period was postponed for a month, and she was retching and feeling sick. She went to the hospital for a checkup, and only then did she know that she was pregnant!
At that time, she was still young and not ready to be a mother, so she discussed with Liu Qinye that she wanted to abort the child. Liu Qinye had gone to great lengths to get her to have a child. How could he let her abort it? Not only did he refuse
, and "supervised" her around the clock. Every grain of rice she put in her mouth was personally selected by him.
Xie Jinjia was not very familiar with pregnancy, and she was not willing to get pregnant. She had to be monitored all day long, so her mood was not much better. If she was in a bad mood, the pregnancy reaction would be more severe. In the first three months,
, she vomited almost every day, to the point where her internal organs would be vomited out.
Ordinary people, no matter how severe the reaction is, will be relieved after three months, but this is not the case for her. After three months, she is still vomiting every day, and what she eats will be vomited out soon after.
When Liu Qinye saw her vomiting, he would force her to continue eating, and even threatened her that if there was any problem with the child in her belly, he would not let her go.
In the early stages of pregnancy, Liu Qinye pretended to be considerate, but in the later stages, his true colors were revealed. Xie Qujia suffered from pregnancy reactions and Liu Qinye's double torture every day. Those were years that she did not want to recall in her life.
After the child was born, Liu Qinye was very excited, but Xie Qujia was indifferent. She knew clearly that the child was just a tool for Liu Qinye to tie her up.
It is said that no mother in the world would not love her children, but Xie Qujia did not have many feelings for Zhao Jianghe back then. However, he had been sensible and coaxing since he was a child. When he was more than one year old, he would hold her in his arms.
The legs call "Mom".
Although Xie Qujia was still not warm enough to him, she could not hate him as much as before. Later, she and Zhao Jianghe no longer got along, so she was taken back by Xing Sha.
Xing Sha performed hypnosis for her, so naturally it was impossible to know what she had experienced back then.
After Xie Qujia finished recalling these, Xing Sha vaguely had the answer in his heart, "Did the time when you were pregnant with Azheng remind you of that time?"
Memories can be temporarily hypnotized so that they are not recalled, but the shadows that remain in the subconscious will not be easily taken away. Before becoming pregnant with Xing Zheng, Xing Sha had no idea that Xie Qujia's pregnancy reaction would be so severe.
When she was pregnant with Xing Yan, there was almost no abnormality. Except for lethargy and increased appetite, there was nothing wrong with her. If he had known that she was in such pain, Xing Sha would not have let her get pregnant with her second child.
After Xing Yan was born, Xing Sha had the idea of having a second child. Although the couple had not discussed it, Xing Sha did not take any measures and Xie Qujia did not mind.
When Xing Yan was a little over two years old, Xie Qujia became pregnant with Xing Zheng again. In the early stages of pregnancy, her pregnancy reactions were very serious. She would often vomit at night and lose her temper. Whenever she felt uncomfortable, she would say she didn't want to have children.
, when Xing Shaquan was angry, he could only patiently persuade her. When she didn't listen, he would feed her in person and watch her eat the food before he was willing to give up.
During that time, Xing Sha didn't even go to the company, but took care of Xie Qujia every step of the way. Others said that he was a very competent husband, so Xing Sha took it for granted. Now that he knew the truth, he understood that he
What you did back then was so ridiculous.
During Xie Fanjia's pregnancy, Xing Sha's behaviors were exactly the same as those of Liu Qinye back then, which left an everlasting shadow in her heart. However, Xie Fanjia loved Xing Sha, and she couldn't hate Xing Sha, so she
As it should be, all the hatred in the subconscious was transferred to the life in the belly.
If he hadn't come, her marriage to Xing Sha would have been very happy, and having a son from Xing Yan would be enough.
The transfer of hatred was very successful. After Xing Zheng was born, she didn't want to take another look at him. He was named after Xing Sha. She didn't even want to breastfeed, so she ended up feeding him with milk powder.
This was especially true when he was growing up. She almost never gave him a chance to communicate. Xing Zheng and Zhao Jianghe had different personalities. He had always been taciturn, and it was impossible for him to take the initiative to please her and please her like Zhao Jianghe did when he was a child.
, therefore, the relationship between mother and son became worse and worse. Due to the abnormal car accident that year, it completely broke out, and finally evolved into what it is today.
Xie Jinjia couldn't explain how she felt now. She felt guilty. However, she and Xing Zheng had never had any communication on a family level, and they had never lived together. It was too vain to talk about love.
Even if they are blood relatives, without life as a bond, the relationship is suspended. She cannot instantly feel the same maternal love for him as she did for Xing Yan just because she thinks of the past.
Lin Mei woke up from her dream again, covered in cold sweat. She sat up in shock and touched the glass on the bedside. The glass broke into several pieces, which was particularly jarring in the quiet room.
She stared intently, but there was no one around her. The feeling of fear and emptiness in her heart was infinitely magnified, as if something behind her was about to swallow her up. She covered her ears, tears fell, and she gradually began to sob.
When Xing Zheng returned to the ward, he saw this scene. Before he could step forward, Lin Mei had rolled down from the hospital bed. When she saw him, she was very excited, "Why did you come here? I'm afraid."
She fell to the ground, and her forehead hit the corner of the hospital bed. Red marks suddenly appeared on her fair skin, which swelled up. Xing Zheng picked her up and gently rubbed her forehead.
The few stab wounds on her face have just scabbed over, and now there are new wounds on her forehead. Her beautiful face has been damaged to the point where almost no part of it is intact.
His chest felt sore, and his hot fingers touched her face, and happened to touch one of the scars. The originally quiet person in his arms suddenly became excited and struggled violently, "Don't touch me, don't touch me at all!"
"Does it hurt you?" Xing Zheng stopped, "I'll carry you to bed, be good."
"No need, please let me go." She still refused to obey and broke free. Her feet lost weight and she almost fell down again. This chapter has been completed!