It was only then that the prince finally realized what Zhao Mingxi had meant before he touched the pillar.
"You actually have the nerve to ask me if I have ever considered you my wife. I never thought that my princess would be someone else.
Even though I am often interested in different women and often attracted by the beauty of others, but..."
He smiled bitterly, "But those people can only be concubines. You can just give them any status. You can do whatever you want. They are just playthings."
"You are so proud, why would you care about them? They are my people, but how could they not be yours?"
The prince felt that his eyes were sore, so he rubbed his eyes and said, "I haven't cried for a long time. If I cry too much, people will laugh at me and say that I, the prince, are too weak.
Only you! Only you, Zhao Mingxi, you are the person who has seen me cry the most. You said you would not laugh at me, so I never feel embarrassed in front of you.
Why are you so impulsive all of a sudden? So many times, so many times, we have all escaped death, and we are all safe and sound. Life is precious. This is what you said. Now you don't do it yourself.
How about counting it? Is your life suddenly worthless?
Or now, even in your eyes, I have become unbearable? You also think that I am a helpless man who is played around in the palm of a woman's hands, right? "
He suddenly burst into tears as he spoke.
"Zhao Mingxi, my mother chose you for me. When we got married, you made it clear that you would take good care of me and never leave me.
Now it's you who broke the contract, and you actually took your own life. Have you forgotten everything you said at that time, and don't you care about it all?"
The sky was gradually getting dark, and the prince sat there alone for an unknown length of time. He only felt that his body was getting colder and colder.
It seems as if this sky will never be clear, and that person, lying inside, will never open his eyes and look at himself again.
"Zhao Mingxi, you are my queen. I have promised you this a long time ago. Now it is you who make it impossible for me to fulfill my promise. From now on..."
He seemed to want to say something cruel, but after a long pause, all he could say was a long sigh, "Who will accompany me to see this wonderful country in the future?
Why?
Why do you and your mother treat me like this?
I am the only one left in this huge palace, so you all just let it go and don't care about me at all.
Then what do I get all this for? How difficult it is to govern a country! Who should I ask? Who should I believe?"
He finally burst into tears. "You are irresponsible to me. What should I do in the future?
I know that everyone thinks that I am stupid and that this prince is worthless. I know it all in my heart.
I also know that they are not wrong. Without you, I would no longer be the prince, and I would have been dragged into the water by the third child. You should have accompanied me in all this, but you let me go now.
Who are you looking for?"
The sky got darker and darker. Finally all the light disappeared.
Only the light from the snow outside came through, giving it a slightly hazy white color.
The few palace servants waiting outside the door did not dare to come in, but only dared to worry secretly on the side. His Highness's body would probably be unable to bear it if he sat down like this again.
At this moment, a small figure appeared.
"Oh, Princess Chang, you are here. Go and persuade His Highness! Your Highness will really not be able to stand it if he keeps doing this."
The princess here is not Princess Huimin.
But it is the princess who seems to have been forgotten in this East Palace for a long time.
She is the daughter of Zhao Mingxi and the eldest daughter of the prince.
She used to be very favored, but unfortunately, under the pressure of not having an eldest son in the Eastern Palace, and the competition between the princes, these favors gradually disappeared.
As the princess grew up, she also understood the helplessness in her father's eyes.
Her mother taught her not to wander around when she had nothing to do. As a daughter, she should learn to be chaste, quiet and virtuous, and not to be a nuisance in front of her father.
Princess Chang was very obedient and would not even appear in front of the prince under normal circumstances.
In the past one or two years, the number of times we have met can be counted on one hand.
But this does not mean that she is not loved by others. She is a child held in the palm of her mother's hand.
It's just that my father rarely comes to my mother's palace, so I don't know that he is often by my mother's side.
Princess Chang looks more mature than her peers, although she is only eight years old now.
After hearing the palace attendant's words, she just nodded slightly, and then walked into the mourning hall step by step with small steps.
"Father."
This strange yet familiar voice brought the prince back to his senses.
Only then did he notice a small voice, which turned out to be his daughter whom he had not seen for a long time.
"Jun'an, why are you here?"
He only heard his own voice, which was too hoarse to speak.
He hesitated for a moment and stretched out his hands towards the little figure.
Princess Chang only hesitated for a moment, then walked over and snuggled into her father's arms obediently.
This embrace is already somewhat unfamiliar.
"Father, I heard that you have been here for a long time."
Her voice was childlike, but also revealed a maturity that was not in line with her age.
Hearing this, the prince felt sad in his heart.
"Where have you been during this time? Why hasn't father seen you for a long time?"
Princess Chang lowered her eyelashes slightly and did not answer immediately, as if she was thinking about how to answer this topic.
"My mother said that Jun'an has grown up and can no longer play around like before. She needs to learn from grandma, so she doesn't go out much on weekdays."
Even such comforting words are full of maturity and caution that are not belonging to this age.
The prince felt more and more distressed.
Only then did I realize that the girl's hands were very cold.
"Why do you wear so little? Is it because the nanny who serves you is not considerate?"
"No." Princess Chang shook her head gently. "Mom was carefully selected by my mother. She has always done her best. It's just that I was in a hurry and forgot to add a cloak."
After she said this, the prince realized that she was indeed not wearing a cloak. He couldn't help but scolded her: "How come you, a child, are so careless? This is called not being taken care of."
Princess Chang fell silent again, pursed her lips before speaking again: "Mommy knows that I am impatient, so I don't care."
The prince looked at her and then noticed that his daughter had grown a lot compared to the last time he saw her, and her features and eyes looked very much like her mother's.
Especially the way he pursed his lips, as if he was thinking about something, almost exactly the same as Zhao Mingxi.
His heart couldn't help but sting a little. He subconsciously asked: "Jun'an, do you blame your father?"
The princess did not speak.
In fact, she knew what he should say. Her mother had already taught her when she came here just now.
But she found that he couldn't speak.
There was resentment in her heart, very deep resentment.
If it weren't for the father, how could the mother be lying in such a cold coffin?
It was clear that things were fine a few days ago, but they still sat together and talked about the future. Her mother showed her the little clothes she had sewn for her brother.
Obviously everyone said that my mother was pregnant with a younger brother.
She didn't understand why her father didn't believe it.
She knows her father doesn't like her because she is a girl.
But this is not my mother's fault. My mother once said that my father did not really blame her.
So why does the father not believe that the mother is unwilling to support her this time?
The princess is not sure what happened at the New Year's Eve banquet.
But she knew that her father had been deceived, and what he knew even more was that her mother must have been deceived as well.
She wanted to know more, but even though she was the princess, she didn't have any rights. What's more, she was only an eight-year-old girl.
So she still said, "Weird."
The prince was stunned for a moment, with a look of astonishment on his face, but then he tightened his arms and held the girl in his arms.
Tears fell into the girl's neck one by one. The prince choked and said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
Princess Chang did not cry, she just asked softly: "Father, do you believe mother? Do you believe me?"
The prince did not speak, not because he could not answer, but because he could not speak.