He Yufei was practicing cross-legged on the bed, but he couldn't concentrate no matter what. He tried for a long time, but it still didn't work. He sighed in his heart and finally gave up, recalling the scene that troubled him again in his mind.
"If life must be burned to bloom, then it is also the blood of others..."
He remembered that he spoke so slowly and so heavily, and the next moment, it was Jinxuan asking him:
"Other people's blood? Who do they mean? The person who blocked you?"
"Is it someone who's blocking me?"
He Yufei closed his eyes and asked himself in his heart. He did not answer Jinxuan at that time. If she said "yes", then what should Jinxuan, who was once a member of the Xiao family, think about him.
If the answer is "No." How should he continue? He has been thinking about this question from just now until now, but unfortunately he still hasn't found it. He smiled bitterly, it was in vain that he felt good about himself and had gone through the state of extreme desire.
Baptism is clear to see but not necessarily clear to do.
He could feel that the spiritual energy fluctuations coming from Jinxuan's body were also very unnatural. It was obvious that Jinxuan's heart was not calm yet. He wanted to find an answer to Jinxuan, but after thinking a lot, he could only dazzle her and deceive Jin with lies.
Xuan? Then make up for this lie with a more correct lie? He can deceive himself, but he cannot deceive Jin Xuan, who is willing to lay down his life for him.
"Pfft~"
At that moment, the sound of vomiting blood reached He Yufei's ears. He hurriedly opened his eyes and looked at Jinxuan who had made a mistake in her practice and vomited blood. He quickly went over to support her body and said:
"Why are you doing this?"
Jinxuan said:
"Because of your words, anyone else? Including me?"
He Yufei was shocked. He looked at Jinxuan in disbelief:
"How come you have such an idea?"
Jinxuan smiled miserably and said:
"In those days when I was wondering whether I should leave the world of cultivation, do you think I didn't care about everything that happened between you, Ren Xinyu, Cui Yunxi and Yaorao?"
"If I really didn't care, I wouldn't want to be a soul cultivator. If I didn't care, I wouldn't step into the world of cultivation again..."
He Yufei quickly interrupted her and said:
"I know, I know, it's all my fault, it's all my fault."
Jinxuan smiled sadly and said:
"I don't blame you, I just hate myself..."
After Jinxuan finished speaking, she pushed He Yufei away, then wiped the blood around her mouth with the back of her other hand, and prepared to continue practicing.
He Yufei was shocked and quickly used his mental power to block Jin Xuan's practice. He roared in a low voice:
"You will die if you force yourself to practice like this."
Jinxuan said:
"Then just let me die."
He Yufei roared:
"Death, death, you know death. If you really want to die, why do you do this? The most feared thing in everyone's heart is death. I told you that I was wrong, can't you be kind to yourself?"
After Jinxuan heard He Yufei's words, she was silent for a while, and then looked at him steadily:
"You're right. I'm afraid of death. I'm just showing it to you, but if I treat myself well, my heart is already dead to you. Which one do you choose?"
"Which one do you choose?"
The four words were like a mountain of tack on He Yufei's head. The heavy weight made him breathless and made him even more unable to think. He laughed at himself in his heart. Even if Jinxuan came from a cultivation family, even if she could see three wives and four concubines, but in
Is she open to seeing things about herself?
The answer is obviously impossible. Maybe she didn't want to worry about this with herself before. It should be because she didn't have so much energy to worry about herself, or her previous self-awareness was quite successful? But now that it has become a fact, there is no point in thinking so much.
.
What happened today was just a trigger. He Yufei believed that Jin Xuan would explode sooner or later. He had forgotten that Jin Xuan, a proud woman in the past, was already generous enough to tolerate having a few beauties around her. It was ridiculous that he was still
Thought she felt nothing, how could Jinxuan, a proud pearl, endure it?
At this moment, he really felt that he was smart and everyone else was a fool, but suddenly he realized that it was not that others didn't know, but that they were unwilling to say more. It wasn't until this moment that He Yufei understood that sentence:
"If you put yourself in someone else's shoes, it would never be better to experience such a feeling yourself, because what you imagine and what you feel in reality will never be the same."
"Which one do you choose?"
Jinxuan looked at him again and asked.
He Yufei came back to his senses, looked at her, and felt the cold sweat on his face. Which one should he choose? Give up Jinxuan? He couldn't do it, but he didn't want to let go of the other people. Now he felt that Yuyuxiong
The feeling of not having both.
"If Jinxuan doesn't mind, why can't she tolerate the other people?"
Thinking of himself, he secretly cursed himself for being stupid. Is he willing to share Jinxuan with another man? That is definitely impossible. If it were him, he would definitely force Jinxuan to choose, or even leave sadly?
Thinking of this, he suddenly woke up. It was precisely because Jinxuan had nowhere to go that he tolerated him for so long? It was precisely because Jinxuan had nowhere to go that he magnified his standards for other women? Is this the nature of men or women?
Stupid?
"Forget it, since it's so hard to choose, I'll just leave."
Jinxuan watched He Yufei not make a choice for a long time. She said sadly, then got off the bed and walked to the window. The sound of "stab" opening the curtains recalled He Yufei's consciousness again, and the pupils in his eyes shrank.
, shouted:
"etc."
Jinxuan instantly looked at He Yufei with hopeful eyes, but the next moment he heard He Yufei say:
"Can you give me some time to think about it?"
Then he saw the look on Jinxuan's face became sad for a moment and then became expressionless again. She opened the window and said to He Yufei:
"Your oaths are bullshit. As for the soul cultivation techniques you taught me, I don't think I owe you anything. From now on, you have nothing to do with me."
After saying this, Jinxuan jumped into the night. He Yufei jumped off the bed and wanted to chase him, but the words "Which one do you choose?" lingered in his mind. Even if he chased him back, would it be useful?
?
A gust of cold wind blew in, and He Yufei suddenly shed tears and murmured to himself:
"I said I would protect you for the rest of my life, and I didn't break my promise."
At this time, He Yufei's mind was in chaos, but he never thought that if Jinxuan was unhappy, she would not need his protection. She would rather just go with the flow and fend for herself...
Later, Du Jianfang, Ren Xinyu and others knew that Jinxuan had left here, but no one knew why she left. When they asked He Yufei, He Yufei just forced a smile and said: "It's nothing, she will be back in a few days.
"
But he knew in his heart that these few days might really be just a few days, but they might also be a lifetime.
A few days passed, and Ren Xinyu and Cui Yunxi could naturally feel some of the connotations. They both couldn't help but feel happy, but He Yufei seemed to have changed after Jinxuan left. Although he couldn't feel anything about them on the outside, he could not help but feel happy.
They could feel that He Yufei had some estrangement from them. It was wrong to say there was estrangement. It was as if He Yufei's heart had created a shield against them. They could not get into his heart, let alone see through his heart.
How could He Yufei not understand the thoughts of the two women? When he was alone, he would think mockingly to himself:
"If I really choose one of them, the scene of Jinxuan running away will definitely happen again."
Not having contact with other women? How is that possible? He Yufei's sect is inseparable from a few people, so the best choice is not to have further contact with any of them, and just keep the relationship with them as good friends.
But then He Yufei smiled bitterly again, good friends? Good friends of both sexes? It's really difficult to master this distance.
"Fuck, life is so fucked up. I don't know if I have to play with IQ, but I also have to play with emotional intelligence. Is this what the upper class people are thinking about all day long?"
He Yufei suddenly cursed loudly, and then sighed, "When you are in office, you have to be tired. Not only is your heart tired, but your eggs are broken all over the floor, ugh."
Although He Yufei often had the idea of looking for Jinxuan, but when he thought about the vastness of the world, he didn't know where she would go, and he couldn't help but regret not leaving Jinxuan behind. Now he has experienced the feeling of regret.
The feeling is the painful feeling of wanting to go back to the past, but having to live in the present.
The new year has passed and the school has started. As for Bai Mei and others, there is still no news and they have not come back. During this period, he put down other things and went to school. Naturally, it caused a sensation again.
However, this guy was quite calm, and within a few days, things about He Yufei going to school calmed down.
When a little girl sent a love letter, He Yufei became annoyed and cursed in his heart:
"Why so many? Fuck."
Because of the unknown karma caused by Jinxuan's departure, these unlucky little girls' love letters became He Yufei's punching bag. Anyway, He Yufei would not refuse anyone who came.
Some of the laughing girls retreated, but many girls from other schools swarmed in. The rest of the male beasts looked at He Yufei with a look like "Why are you so sexy?"
He Yufei can't afford to be hurt. He and I were thrown away back then. Who knows why these girls still stick to each other? Don't you look at me with that look? You are also a victim, okay?
This is the kind of innocent students who don't love your money or your family when they are students. They dare to love you once they are curious and have feelings for you. They are still the kind who don't hit the wall and never look back, and the kind who hit the wall even more.
The kind that never looks back, or the love here is a little vague, so let’s just call it hazy friendship.
While He Yufei was throwing letters every day, some "activists" in Lu'an No. 7 Middle School felt that He Yufei had robbed them of their reputation, and were contacting "activists" in major Lu'an schools, intending to teach He Yufei an unforgettable lesson.
When He Yufei heard this kid Lu Hai tell him the news in horror, He Yufei suddenly showed a shocked expression, looked at Lu Hai in disbelief and asked:
"These beasts want to teach me a lesson I will never forget?"