Cao Xu wanted to rush up and ask Ji Yunwei: How did you bewitch the eldest princess, and why would she be willing to do this for you? Who do you think you are? You are nobody, and you are not worthy at all!
But as soon as these words came out, he would ask himself: Are you worthy?
You once had many opportunities to redeem yourself. During the three years of the Cold War, did the eldest princess give you enough opportunities, but did you cherish them? After being separated for so long, did you break your leg from Beijing to Wuxi? Why can't you go?
Chase?
Brother returns to Beijing, why don't you just kneel down and admit your mistake and beg the eldest princess to forgive you! Even if you really can't, can you beg the eldest princess to give you the child?
Weak at the beginning, wavering in the middle, and selfish in the end!
Have you really reflected on it?
Or are you just making countless excuses for your failures and numbing yourself again and again? You still have a chance!
But now you see it, the facts are right in front of you, and you will never have a chance!
You not only lost the eldest princess, you also lost your son, you lost everything!
Cao Xu, look at what a failure you are!
But did you in the past want to be where you are today?
When you first became the consort and married the emperor's eldest daughter, countless children from aristocratic families flocked to congratulate you. Are you really unhappy?
Don't you feel moved when you see the eldest princess' tenderness and tenderness in the wedding room with flowers and candles?
Didn't you really feel happy when you learned that the eldest princess was pregnant?
But why does it become like this?
Who made you sink into the quagmire step by step, until now you can no longer get out?
Who is it?
Cao Xu asked himself, feeling indescribable pain and anger, he punched the mud one after another.
Do you really not know?
Or do you know it but have no way to blame it?
He was helplessly venting, and in pain he wanted to fall down, sink deeply into the mud, and sleep forever. Suddenly, the voice of the eldest princess came from the roadside: "Cao Xu, what are you doing?"
At this moment, like a lightning strike, he seemed to see himself dripping with blood and see his dirty situation.
After all...he was still seen by them in such an embarrassing state.
The tears disgusted him more than the swamp in front of him. He didn't even dare to raise his head and could only look at it with his peripheral vision. Ji Yunwei was by her side.
But at that moment, Ji Yunwei quickly moved forward. But when leaving, he clearly saw Ji Yunwei gently holding the eldest princess's hand and squeezing it. Was it a hint or something?
Cao Xu smiled bitterly, almost breaking his teeth. He didn't expect that one day, he would actually make people feel so pitiful that they couldn't bear to look at him!
And that person turned out to be the eldest princess’s new love, Ji Yunwei!!
He curled his lips in a self-deprecating tone, swallowed all the pain and regret, looked at the eldest princess truly and said, "Does Your Highness think I came in to commit suicide? Even if so, I shouldn't have chosen to be in such dirty mud, right?"
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The eldest princess frowned and said with a puzzled look: "Then what are you doing in there?"
Cao Xu touched the mud beside him and said nonchalantly: "I just accidentally fell it, and then... the jar broke."
"But I never thought that I would be seen by His Highness and Mr. Ji."
"Don't worry, you two. I didn't follow you. I saw you, so I took a detour on purpose."
The eldest princess said: "You don't need to explain, I didn't misunderstand you. We have just made a circle, and this is the way back. If you are following us, you should be behind us."
"Since you have nothing to do, I'll leave first."
After the eldest princess finished speaking, she was ready to leave.
Cao Xu was in agony, and his unwillingness surged through his veins, making his face look ferocious.
Want to ask?
If you don't ask, will you still have a chance in this life?
But if you ask, will you feel better?
However, even if I have so many thoughts, I know that I won't feel good if I ask.
But Cao Xu still couldn't help shouting: "Your Highness!"
The eldest princess turned around, stopped and said, "What's the matter?"
She seemed to have guessed it, and she was not in a hurry to leave, nor did she look impatient.
But that kind of indifference is like the breeze blowing through the grass, the glow reflected in the lotus pond, and the reeds swaying in the sunset... The beauty is hers, the ordinary is his. She only embellishes this time, not him who warms her years.
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He suddenly felt relieved, but also felt extremely melancholy and regretful. There was a heavy pain in his heart. This feeling gradually numbed him.
Taking a long breath, Cao Xu no longer cared about the moisture on his eyelashes, nor did he think about whether the eldest princess saw his tears.
He asked calmly: "Has Your Highness ever treated me sincerely?"
The eldest princess sneered. This sound made Cao Xu even more ashamed than her real reply!
Because he understood that the question was unnecessary.
He lowered his head and decided not to think about the past anymore, because it had nothing to do with who he was now.
But at this moment, the eldest princess answered him.
She said: "I remember, I made several outfits for you, but you said the material looked like what a woman would wear, and you didn't even want to try it on!"
"I remember, I cooked for you and learned to make a few dishes that you liked, but you said they were not as good as the maid's cooking."
"I remember I wanted to accompany you on a tour of Jiangnan, but you said I would only get in the way."
"I remember when I was just pregnant with An Nian, you asked me what I would do if I gave birth to a daughter."
"I remember……"
"Stop talking, Your Highness!"
"Please!"
"Stop talking!" Cao Xu raised his head, his face full of regret, and pain almost filled his eyes.
But for some reason, the eldest princess only found it ridiculous.
She glanced at Cao Xu for the last time, and said indifferently and freely: "You once said that a woman like me is born to be aloof, how can she love others?"
"I have indeed thought about it, I don't know how to love others."
"But I also thought that if you loved me, I would probably know how to love someone."
"But I think this may be the end of your luck. Since you are not destined to be a prince-in-law, you can mix more in this mud. Maybe you will like it."
After the eldest princess finished speaking, she turned and left.
This time, she no longer hesitated in her steps.
Because the guy not far away stretched his neck so long that he almost looked like a wife-watching stone.
She also smiled at this moment and ran towards her true love.
In the mud, Cao Xu's eyes were full of misery, and his body gradually slipped down.
But just when he was about to sink into the mud, he still dragged his heavy body towards the shore step by step.
The pain continued, but the road ahead was paved with knives. Every step he took was filled with bleeding pain.
But he didn't know why, but he felt that he should live.
Live and take a good look, take a good look at your fate and your own ending.
That way... the eldest princess should be able to calm down, right?
But will she still forgive him?
She should be, right? She is such a generous person!
Cao Xu smiled bitterly, raised his head, and collapsed on the roadside.