Morrissey at this time should be the same as me at that time.
Pat respected his teacher very much and was very grateful to him. But at that time, he felt that he had to offend the teacher a little. Not for anything else, not even for Morrissey, just for the sake of the one he had when he was a child.
dream.
He wanted to do it once. He had dreamed of the little bug appearing next to him countless times.
That is the most beautiful thing in this world.
That was something he had always wanted to see but never saw.
He wanted to play it once. Even if it was just once, it would let him know that that thing really existed. He had never encountered it before, but he was just unlucky.
Morrissey should have a little more luck than him.
Because he is Morrissey's eldest brother.
If the big brother who has always been trusted can't even do what a little insect can do, then why do you still want to be this big brother?
If he himself couldn't do what that little bug did, what was he longing for when he was a child, standing in the darkness, with so many hopes and dreams, so many longings day and night?
Do you long for an existence that you don’t even believe exists?
So he said to Morrissey: "Don't worry, I am your big brother. I will take care of your affairs."
Thinking about it later, I was really too naive at that time.
It’s not that he naively took over this matter, but he naively thought that he was really important. Even if the teacher was not very happy with his behavior, he would help mediate it for the sake of being his “proud disciple”.
Right? Few words
After that, just apologize to the teacher properly.
But in the end, I didn't expect that the teacher would not even see him in person, and directly announced: "Pat is rebellious and is not the choice of my disciple. He will be kicked out." At that time, when I heard the news, I was really like this.
Heard a thunderbolt from the blue.
How could this happen?
Is it true that the teacher's "valuation" of him all along is false? Is the teacher's often said "you are my most proud disciple" false?
He doesn't believe it
But the facts soon convinced him.
When his limbs were broken and his face was trampled and pinned to the ground, he finally realized that these ten years of "genius" had finally passed again. The man who had been with him even after he was expelled from his cousin
The teacher whom he had pinned his hopes on completely abandoned him in the end, without any support at all. It was as if the master-disciple relationship had never happened before for more than ten years.
Is the teacher too cold or is he a failure as a disciple?
For many years, Pat pondered this question. Of course, there was no answer.
After that incident, Morrish finally chose to leave in order not to further implicate himself.
And he couldn't stay in that mercenary group any longer, so he chose to return to his family. At this time, perhaps, only his family could bring some warmth.
But he was still too naive.
The father he once "understood" looked at him as if he were looking at a stranger: "Why are you coming back? Don't you know that your return may bring great disaster to the family? It's ugly.
I won’t say anything else. You should leave now and don’t come back again. From now on, you will treat yourself as if you don’t have this home.”
Haha, it’s really funny when I think of what he looked like at that time.
It's ridiculous. If he tries to understand others, who will understand him? Those who are connected by blood do not necessarily mean they are relatives. Or should he "understand" his father generously again?
However, whether he understood it or not, his father would not give him this chance. Whether he understood it or not, that family had nothing to do with him from then on.
The world has turned dark again.
What is different from Shi is that the darkness of Shi has an end, and his life has a relatively peaceful and acceptable arrangement. At that time, he was a grass chicken, and even a grass chicken still had his own life.
But now, he is just a goshawk with broken wings.
When a goshawk breaks its wings, it is no longer a goshawk. But he is no longer a goshawk and cannot go back to the goshawks. No grass hens will accept him. Only then did he realize that the goshawk with broken wings is
He is actually a being that even a bastard would laugh at.
They even laughed harder than those goshawks. In a daze, he actually thought that they were arrogant existences than those goshawks.
From the gloom of more than ten years, to the pride of more than ten years, to the gloom of more than ten years, the ups and downs, many things that happened during this period were really interesting, but it was a pity that he could only recall them.
He even thought many times about turning back time and going back to the moment when Morrissey said goodbye to him.
If given the chance, would he make the same choice when faced with that situation again? Would he trade the bleakness of the rest of his life for the opportunity to fulfill his childhood dream?
He doesn't know, really doesn't know.
However, he thought that if Morrissey still stood in front of him and called him "big brother", at that moment, he would probably turn into that little insect.
Although you may regret it later.
But let him regret it, he still has to do what needs to be done. - He can betray his life, but how can he betray his dream?
Isn't it just because we have been in the cold and gray for so long that we yearn for warmth and light?
So, how could you, after getting warmth and light, turn yourself into cold and gloomy? If you really do that, I'm afraid even you will feel disgusted with yourself, right? Few words
So, eight years ago, Pat finally figured it out. After thinking through the ins and outs, Pat said to himself: "I regret it. But if it happens again, I will still choose to regret it."
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The past, the past...
After meeting His Highness Fang Tian, Pat finally stopped suppressing himself and finally learned to let go. From beginning to end, from childhood to later, bit by bit, he looked at his own story as if he were looking at other people's stories.
past.
But he still couldn't do what His Highness Fang Tian said:
"One way, you will be completely destroyed from body to heart in the pain that penetrates your heart and bones day after day. The other kind is that in the unbearable suffering, your body and you will be destroyed.
With my heart, I put your thoughts, thoughts, and postures into a furnace, beat them and exercise them. The body, mind, and postures are all integrated into one, forming a sharp sword that can pierce everything."
He doesn't know what to do.
So, he could only trudge forward in the past, unable to see where he could settle down, where he could not see where he could carry his dreams. So, he could only continue to be silent...
But on this day, in what His Highness Fang Tian wrote, he suddenly saw endless light.
Following that disciple, step by step, I walked a long way until the disciple finally said the last words, "I have a bright pearl, which has been locked up by the dust for a long time. Now the light is born when the dust is gone, shining through all the mountains and rivers."
Duo.”
Pat suddenly grinned, and unconsciously, tears fell down his face.
Chapter 261 Self-nature is bright
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