I must be crazy, that's why I yelled at him by name and surname, that's why I told him what was in my heart regardless.
But, what does it matter?
He doesn't love me, not even a little bit. He told me to get out and he never wants me again! Then why can't I yell at him? Why can't I be angry for the last time? It's just the most painful breakup. That’s all.
I smiled at him: "Zi Yiran, you are just like me, you will never know what it feels like to be in love!"
Because I have completely understood that your love for her will never stop, and my love for you will never stop either. The two of us can never love each other!
I left without looking back. I even forgot that I had just transformed into a human form and chopped down the Qionghua tree angrily. When I had a quarrel with him, I didn't even wear a single piece of clothing.
Qionghua Valley is always warm as spring, but it is already winter in this world. When we leave Qionghua Valley, the cold wind is biting.
I couldn't help but hug my body tightly, and then I transformed into a piece of clothing and put it on myself. I stood outside the Qionghua Valley, beside the green bamboo forest, letting the cold wind blow my clothes, my hair, and my tears. It rains.
After standing for a while, I started to walk forward aimlessly. I didn't know where I could go, but I didn't dare to look back. I was afraid that if I looked back, I would run back, but running back, So what can I do? He already dislikes me, and there is no more possibility between me and him.
I don’t know how long I walked, but I finally couldn’t hold it back, spit out a mouthful of blood, and fainted in the woods.
I woke up from the heavy rain. The big raindrops hit my face, which caused some pain. Then I remembered that this time, my thunder disaster was really coming.
I transformed from a little fox into a human being, and I was about to experience a thunderstorm, but my heart was broken. I lay on my back and let the raindrops soak my clothes. I couldn't escape, and I didn't want to escape.
Lightning tore through the sky, and rolling thunder came from afar. I seemed to see the God of Thunder swinging a sledgehammer in the sky, and the mother of lightning lit up her light mirror. Then, I closed my eyes.
I'm not afraid anymore.
I think, I am a person without memory. What am I living for? I don’t know, and I won’t know anymore, because if my life ends tonight, I may be able to keep a trace of my soul and reincarnate. I was reborn, but it was no longer me, or, just like that, it disappeared into ashes.
Or, there is too much pain and suffering. Wouldn't it be a relief to die? I thought so.
But unfortunately, I did not die. Someone saved me, with a familiar warm embrace. Just like he did when he was angry several times before, he dragged my hand and dodged the thunder that was about to hit me.
The thunderstorm that day was really terrifying. It blasted a deep pit where I just lay, and mud and raindrops splashed on me and him.
I stared blankly at the huge pit, thinking, if he hadn't pulled me just now, I would have died, and it would have been very painful when I died.
His finger poked my forehead, and his voice was louder than when he told me to get out: "Are you crazy! Don't you know how to get away? Do you know that you will die if you do that? You will die!"
He held me tightly in his arms, so tight that I felt like he was trying to embed me into his body.
My body hurt. I frowned and protested: "Zi Yiran, let me go."