The last scene Xie Xun saw before he fell into coma was Qin Rushuang opening the tent curtain and Jujue's back.
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Qin Rushuang quickly returned to his tent.
In the camp, Shen Xiaoyang was guarding the child who was sleeping peacefully, while Mu Duo stood aside, with streams of blood dripping from the index finger of his right hand.
Seeing Qin Rushuang back, Mu Duo raised his head suddenly, "Sister, you are back, I..."
Qin Rushuang said nothing, walked quickly to him, held his right hand, and carefully observed his injured index finger.
After only looking at it for a moment, Qin Rushuang frowned, and the worry on her face turned into vague anger.
Mu Duo carefully looked at Qin Rushuang's expression and saw that his expression changed and he took his hand back, "Senior Sister, I..."
Qingzhi looked on at the side confused and said to Qin Rushuang: "Miss! Quickly bandage Muduo and check if there are any injuries to the muscles and bones."
Qin Rushuang frowned and said to Mu Duo, "Why are you still standing there? Wrap your fingers yourself. Do you think you have too much blood?"
Seeing that her tone was bad, Mu Duo became more cautious and said, "Senior sister, don't be angry. I know I was wrong and I shouldn't have tricked you back."
He lowered his eyes and looked at the hem of his clothes, not daring to look directly into Qin Rushuang's eyes, and said softly, "I thought you didn't care about Xie Xun anymore, little senior sister. It seems I was overthinking it."
Qin Rushuang still frowned, looked at Mu Duo who looked like he had done something wrong, sighed and said, "I'm not angry because you tricked me back."
"I'm angry because you hurt yourself in order to get me back. You should know how important your hands are and how much hope the master has placed on you. You should not make fun of your body no matter what."
Qingzhi on the side finally understood what was going on. Could it be that Mu Duo was playing a trick to trick the young lady back?
When Mu Duo heard Qin Rushuang's words, he raised his head suddenly: "If you don't care about him, then why did you rush to his camp in a hurry when you heard the news that he used Broken Bone Grass?"
Qin Rushuang looked at Mu Duo helplessly, "Don't ask so many questions yet. I'll tell you after I bandage your finger."
After hearing this, Mu Duo randomly found a piece of gauze and wrapped his injured finger.
"It's just a minor injury. Little senior sister, what do you mean by what you just said? You will lead the troops to go on an expedition tomorrow, and you still have to go see him, don't you..."
"Of course not." Qin Rushuang shook her head and said, "I took a look at the sky outside. It's not raining hard enough. I'm afraid the dispatch of troops will have to be postponed to the day after tomorrow."
She paused and said to Qingzhi and Shen Xiaoyang, "You two should go out first. I have something to say to Mu Duo alone."
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After Qingzhi and Shen Xiaoyang left, Qin Rushuang opened her mouth, but she didn't know where to start.
Mu Duo's expression was a little anxious.
"Senior sister, I really don't understand what you are thinking. I don't know what happened to you in the palace in the past, but I don't think it's a comfortable life. Just say that you were injured like that, and you were still in confinement. Then I ran all the way to the southwest, and I felt that even if I let Xie Xun die ten thousand times, it would not be a pity, but why do you still care about him so much now?"
"Sister, please don't rush to explain. What I said is what I saw with my own eyes. I thought you would hate him. I thought you two would be at each other's swords when they met, but your behavior made me feel... "
"You seem...not to hate him that much..."
"You did not rebuke him verbally, nor did you confront him. You even let him hold the baby..."
"Don't you... really hate him?"
Qin Rushuang looked at Mu Duo, who was eager for knowledge, with a complicated expression on his face.
In the end, thousands of words turned into just one sentence.
"I hated him before, but I don't hate him anymore."
"why?"
Qin Rushuang was in a daze, looking at a certain place, her eyes far away, as if she could see a more distant past through that place.
"Do you know what happened between me and my concubine in the palace?"
"Know a thing or two."
"You may not believe it, but when I learned that Xie Xun was going to bring my concubine into the palace as a concubine when I was pregnant, I really hated him in my heart."
"That's why I went to the palace to ask for a third wife for him, and brought my concubine into the palace as a concubine."
"I really hated him at that time. I didn't want to see him live well, nor did I want to see my concubine live well. I wanted to turn the palace's back palace upside down."
"But... Mu Duo, do you know? There is hatred because there is love..."
"I hate him, but my heart is moved by his occasional pity. I hate him, but my heart softens by his occasional changes in attitude."
"I wandered repeatedly between love and hate. I was anxious inside, but I didn't know who to talk to."
"I warned myself thousands of times to stay away from him and stop having any expectations for him, but I couldn't help but be distracted by his every move."
"Until I experienced the fire in the other courtyard, escaped death, and gave birth to the baby with great difficulty..."
"After that, my feelings for him were no longer so complicated. I no longer had love for him. I thought there would be hatred."
"But until the moment I saw him, I suddenly didn't hate him that much."
"I don't care about him anymore, so everything about him has nothing to do with me. I don't love him anymore, so I won't hate him."
"But if I ask myself, I am also very selfish. I don't want to see him well, but what I hope more is... to be far away from him."
"Because of him, the first half of my life was extremely rough, and in the second half of my life, I don't want to have such a person in my world anymore."
"I know what you and your brother are worried about. Don't worry. Whether he lives or dies, it has nothing to do with me."
"If he were alive, I would be happy that Daqi has such a general who leads troops like a god."
"Even if he dies, I won't shed a single tear."
"So... I'm afraid you won't be able to see the scene where I met him with swords."
Mu Duo remained silent, listening to Qin Rushuang say these words that had been hidden in her heart for a long time.
When he heard Qin Rushuang say that she was relieved and didn't care about Xie Xun anymore, he didn't feel happy, but felt pity and distress in his heart.
It's how easy it is to love someone, and how easy it is to hate someone.
But how many times has Qin Rushuang experienced disappointment, how many times of pain, how many times of tossing and turning late at night, heartbreaking...
How can you be so completely disappointed with someone, completely give up on someone, and not even want to give charity even if you have the emotion of "hate"?
Behind this seeming relief and relief, how much torture Qin Rushuang suffered...
"I understand, little senior sister. I don't want to see how you treat him, I'm just afraid that you will make the same mistake again. Since little senior sister said that you have no feelings for him anymore, then I will not do these useless things again in the future.
It’s over.”
Hearing what Mu Duo said, Qin Rushuang knew that Mu Duo had listened to what she just said, and she breathed a sigh of relief.
