Chapter 462 Amuro Toru: Bourbon is an undercover agent
——"Bai Ye, what do you think of undercover agents?"
——"Only those with outstanding abilities will be sent as undercover agents, especially those who come from intelligence agencies from various countries and have received professional training... If they don't cause me too much damage, I really don't mind being colleagues with them.
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"Boom!!"
The conversation with Spiatus during the hot spring trip was still in his ears, and Jing Baiye punched the iron railing at the head of the bed.
His palm was visibly red and swollen, but he didn't stop, and then he punched it hard again.
"Boom!!!"
【Host!】
【Host!!】
【Host! Calm down!!!】
【Jingbaiye!!!】
The system kept shouting his name in his mind, but Jing Baiye, who was always friendly and polite to the system, did not respond to it at all.
Jing Baiye looked at his red palms and couldn't understand the feeling that was pressing in his heart at this moment.
Puzzled? Angry? Hatred? Or...something else?
The first three emotions were present in his first life, and he had many emotions in his first life.
If his home is inexplicably destroyed, he will feel angry; if he stays in that small tent to rest, he will feel happy; facing the world and people outside the training camp, he will feel confused and curious; after the death of his teacher, hatred will be ignited
It broke his heart, and it was this intense emotion that supported him, and he completed his revenge for his teacher in desperate circumstances...
But "many" does not mean "all", there are still some feelings, Jing Baiye doesn't know about them.
——"This is the Great Master of the Stars."
——"When encountering danger, he doesn't think about escaping first, but risks his own life to protect the people next to him - he is so great! Just like the police and agents in the movie!!"
——"Please, Angstra, please go and defuse the other bombs...please...go and save the other people present..."
And in France a year ago, he happily opened the door of his new home and shouted his partner's code name. However, the moment the door opened, what he saw was a large black mass with a gun pointed at him, and a pair of eyes full of pain.
blue eyes...
"Boom!!!"
This time Jing Baiye hit it crookedly, and the nail of her ring finger hit the iron railing, and the entire piece was ripped off. The tip of that finger was a bloody mess.
But he doesn't feel any pain.
It doesn't hurt at all.
He has no sense of physical pain. This important feeling was destroyed when he was tortured for his crimes in his previous life. Now, even if he slaps his hand directly into a pile of flesh, he will not feel it.
There will be every bit of pain.
He didn't feel pain at all and didn't understand his feelings at this time.
Jing Baiye once told Spiatus that he did not hate undercover agents, nor did he object to working with undercover agents.
This is the truth. He is not good at lying and there is no need to lie. The answer he gave to Spiatus at that time was indeed what he was thinking.
There are many undercover agents in the organization. If the adoptive mother's boyfriend, Tsubouchi or XYZ Cocktail are still alive and Spiatus asks him to go on a mission with them, he can treat them as ordinary colleagues and follow the process as he pleases. Absolutely not
They will be treated differently.
This is what he said himself.
But the words he had spoken in the past were like the knife that cut out his flesh and cut his bones when he was executed in his previous life, falling on him again.
"Boom!!"
Another punch and the bed shook a few times.
Why lie to me?
That day, he brought the injured Scotland back to the hotel from the snowfield, changed his clothes, carefully checked whether there were any other wounds, put him on the bed and covered him with the quilt, and then... sat next to him and started to be in a daze.
It's not that he didn't notice many things, it's just that he didn't want to think too much about them.
Rather than thinking about the long-term future, Jing Baiye has always cared more about the happiness in front of him. Even if this happiness is false and only lasts for a week, a day, or even an hour, he is willing to work hard to maintain it.
Apello sent the antidote, and with a rare thought, he divided it into several doses and injected them into Scotland.
He wanted Scotland to remember this pain and let him know that as a member of the organization, he should give up the justice that belongs to the police - if Gin or other members had seen that scene, they would have shot him.
, even those around him who he wants to protect will not let go. Not only can he not save people, but he will also kill them.
"Boom!!!"
The iron bars shook violently.
Why did you lie to me and use such a clumsy lie so that I can’t even deceive myself and others?
Not detoxifying at once was only the first step, the second step was testing. After returning from the reservoir, he got a new mission, so he took advantage of this opportunity and asked Dai Jili to use the same chemical bomb in the mission.
...Although the bomb did not explode, the mission executor guessed his true intention and removed the poison from the bomb to kill the target.
He did this to see if he would do anything inappropriate again as a member of the organization.
The organization will not casually get rid of disabled members with code names, but will keep them well to show the BOSS's love for loyal people - but the premise is that the members are injured in order to complete the organization's tasks. Otherwise, one has a physical defect
A member of the codename... Even a logistician who can stay in a safe zone, how can he survive in the organization after his vision is damaged?
But he still did it, and despite his repeated reminders, Scotland still chose to send the last antidote.
Even before that, they used various excuses to trick him out, just to prevent him from hindering their actions.
"Boom!!!"
The punch was so hard that blood dripped from the top of the iron fence.
When Jing Baiye saw the blood, he finally put down his hand. He stared blankly at the blood dripping down.
He thought of Scotland's discomfort in sleeping in bed that morning and the two lines of blood and tears flowing out of the corners of his eyes; in the video call just now, those empty eyes that seemed to be covered with a layer of gray fog and the forehead that was so painful that cold sweat broke out...
…
...And the first night they went to New Taipei's Ze Village, he leaned against his bed, stroking his head one after another, and his gentle eyes always accompanied him until he fell asleep.
——"As a minor member, the organization will find a guardian member to take care of me. I remember I told you about this... I think you are quite suitable. Are you willing to serve?"
More intense emotions instantly filled Jing Baiye's entire heart. He raised his hand high, but this time he couldn't hit it. He knew that even if he hit it, he wouldn't be able to vent this emotion.
There was only one question left in his mind.
Why...don't you confess to me?
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"..."
Toru Amuro looked at Angstra's trembling back and his hand that he raised but then lowered, standing there motionless.
He knew that Angostela didn't hit her this time not because he thought about stopping the self-abuse, but because he realized that even if he continued to self-abuse, he would not be able to relieve the pain in his heart.
"Why...don't you tell me..."
He heard a low murmur in the air.
"…………"
Toru Amuro seemed to have been drained of all his strength. He didn't even have the courage to step forward and hug Angstra.
He felt regretful.
Is it really Jiang Gu Ling who hinders him from telling his true identity every time?
...No, in addition to the police dog who regards his undercover status as his bottom line, there is also himself who considers himself a loyal dog.
——Not only was he afraid that Angstra would be harmed by the undercover, he was also afraid that if the undercover identity was exposed, he would lose all of Angstra's love.
Dissociative disorder, who would have thought he had this disease?
Even if you know that the two personalities are in the same body, can your junior boss tell them apart?
So every time he couldn't tell, every time he saw that his junior boss's attitude towards him had not changed, he would not only hate the police dog, but also feel a despicable... secret joy in his heart.
Now Toru Amuro regrets it. Those secret joys in the past have now doubled into the pain that tortures his heart.
He should have died earlier, yes, just like suffocating his body at that time, he chose to die early instead of coveting the love of his junior boss and desperately wanting to stay in the world longer.
He didn't even solve the biggest crisis surrounding his junior boss, so how could he have the nerve to consider himself a loyal dog?
I should be satisfied if I live for you and die for you. I shouldn't want more.
"Angstra."
Toru Amuro softly shouted this code name that he had recited thousands of times in his heart. The moment his junior boss turned around, he knelt down on one knee. In this posture, he, who was taller, looked up at the only person he existed in the world.