191. Chapter 190 Why is 190 so indifferent to her?
Xiaoya is finally no longer a lonely orphan, she has you, mother.
Her hands tightly grasped the raw iron flesh, feeling excited, nervous, and more importantly, joyful.
From the moment she knew her mother was still alive in this world, she was full of hope and expectation, looking forward to this day.
Even though she knew her mother was in jail, she was still happy.
A thin woman walked out slowly. Her blue and white striped clothes made her body very thin. She was getting closer and closer. Ning Yazhi stared at her greedily, trying to see her appearance clearly.
Unexpectedly, the tears gurgled out unsatisfactorily, blurring her vision. She wiped away the tears again and again, but the tears still came out again and again, seemingly endless springs.
Until the woman stood in front of her, Ning Yazhi choked up and said, "Mom——" These two greatest words in the world blurted out without any pretense. They were called out in her mouth so naturally and with a tinge of emotion.
The excitement of longing.
She wiped her tears hard, sniffed hard, and stared at the woman in front of her ecstatically.
The woman is very beautiful, her beauty has a gentleness as calm as water, her facial features are very delicate, especially her eyes, which bear the vicissitudes of time, as beautiful as the deep sea.
The woman's extremely calm expression didn't even have any fluctuations in her eyes. Even Ning Yazhi's emotional "Mom" didn't make her have any fluctuations in her emotions.
Ning Yazhi held the iron net and said excitedly: "Mom, I am Ning Yazhi! Do you still remember me?"
"Ning Yazhi." A hint of bitterness appeared on Zhuo Qianshi's gentle face. She lowered her eyes to cover up the huge emotions in her eyes: "What are you doing here?"
Ning Yazhi stared at her closely, her throat choked with excitement, and she could only look at her.
Living without sunshine for a long time made her look strangely pale, but it still did not damage her gentleness. The years had a special liking for her and did not leave any obvious traces on her body.
Sure enough, as Xiao Nuo said, she looks very much like her mother.
"Mom, let me see you!" She looked at her excitedly, her mother knew her name! That's great, that means she is really her mother's daughter.
Her insistence all along was right! She has relatives in this world.
"Mom, I've been looking for you! I miss you so much!" She said affectionately, tears welling up again. It was a huge joy, a joy she had never experienced before.
She has suffered from low self-esteem, loss and loneliness since childhood because she thought she was an orphan. She worked hard to become independent and cheerful, but in fact she just wanted to hide her inner uneasiness.
A faint expression appeared on Zhuo Qianshi's pale face. She avoided Ning Ya's fanatical eyes, looked into the distance, and said lightly: "You shouldn't come to me."
"Why? You are my mother, why can't I find you." Only then did Ning Yazhi realize that her mother's attitude seemed to be very indifferent, and she did not feel the joy of recognition, the same joy as her.
Zhuo Qianshi did not answer, but still looked into the distance indifferently, without even glancing at Ning Yazhi's face.
Ning Yazhi bit her lower lip, with more and more questions in her mind.
Her mother did not deny that she was her mother, but why was she so cold to her? Also, did she not like to visit her by herself?
Does she hate herself?
Was it because he hated himself that he threw her into the orphanage?