When Chu Xiu was mentioned, Chu Yan's eyes moved and he asked: "Isn't it that he doesn't want to see me?"
Different from Chu Ling's situation, Chu Xiu grew up in Huating and had a closer relationship with the head of Huating County. Although there was a misunderstanding between mother and son because of Chu Ling, it was a sign of caring too much, so Chu Yan had
this conclusion.
Chu Ling looked at him with a half-smile, and said bluntly: "Even if he is willing to see you, with your current virtue, are you worthy of seeing him?"
Chu Yan was speechless, subconsciously touched his beard, and his whole body slumped.
When Chu Ling saw his virtuous behavior, he became very angry. He couldn't bear it and said: "During the six months you were hiding in the room, Ah Xiu wandered around the brothel every night, and even fell in love with a fireworks woman. For that woman
, he was thrown out of the brothel, which made his grandmother furious, and locked him in the Buddhist hall for a whole week. You didn't care about all this, but you hid here and got drunk every day, pretending that you were still nervous about this son. How could you be in the world?
Such a shameless father?!"
"Yes, I'm useless, I'm shameless!" Chu Yan suddenly became fierce and hammered his head like crazy, "I'm not worthy of being your father, please leave me alone and let me stay here to fend for myself!"
"Do you think I want to take care of you?" Chu Ling reached out and held his wrist. "It's just that the Spring Equinox is about to give birth, so I may not have time to take care of business. My grandmother is old, and I am busy dealing with government affairs. The huge Chu
Family, you are the only one who can still help us."
"Is she going to give birth on the vernal equinox?" Chu Yan was stunned for a moment, and the time of the vernal equinox pregnancy flashed through his mind. He quickly nodded and murmured to himself: "Yes, yes, it's been half a year. Is it time?"
gave birth……"
Seeing that he was still sober, Chu Ling said coldly: "If you still want to do something for your mother and make up for me and Ah Xiu, you should stand up and take care of this family while you are still able. You
I have been in a state of confusion for most of my life, do I still want to continue to be irresponsible?"
He spoke seriously and his attitude was quite gentle. After Chu Yan listened, he didn't speak for a long time.
Chu Ling thought that he still had no intention of standing up, and his expression was obviously a little disappointed, "Escaping responsibility is a coward's behavior. Although you have always been a coward, I thought you would be a little different after your mother died."
As if the last sentence stimulated him, Chu Yan suddenly raised his eyes and smiled self-deprecatingly, "You are so brave when your son scolds me."
Chu Ling raised his eyebrows and looked at him with an expression that said, "I just scolded you, what can you do to me?"
Chu Yan smiled and suddenly let out a long breath of relief, "You are right, cowards should learn to stand up."
After saying this, he was about to walk out of the room. Chu Ling looked at him and couldn't help but remind him: "You must think clearly. It is much harder to be a responsible man than to be a coward."
Not to mention anything else, the criticism he has to endure after walking out of this door is very unbearable. If Chu Yan is not mentally prepared enough, he may be even more stimulated after coming out than before.
Chu Yan looked at him and smiled happily, "I'm glad that at this time, you still know how to care about my feelings, but it's been half a year, and I've been avoiding it for half a year. If I'm not mentally prepared to face everything,
, then I am really useless as a husband and a father.”
Seeing that he finally figured it out, Chu Ling's eyes darkened, and he reached out and patted his shoulder, "Thank you on behalf of the Spring Equinox."
No matter what, it was fine, he stood up for Shi Chun Equinox, and for this thought alone, he had to thank Shi Chun Equinox.
Mentioning this, Chu Yan's eyes dimmed and he said with emotion: "The thing your mother was most nervous about during her lifetime was this child. I can stand up at this time. I think she will feel a little bit relieved."
Seeing him taking the initiative to mention his mother, Chu Ling hesitated for a moment and couldn't help but ask: "Have you ever loved your mother?"
After half a year of self-imposed exile, he felt that there was no need to ask the question of whether he would regret it later, but whether he had ever fallen in love or not, Chu Ling felt that not only him, but even the Lord of Huating County under Jiuquan must also want to know this answer.
.
Chu Yan was silent for a moment, looked at him with a smile, and asked: "What do you think is love?"
Chu Ling was stunned and said nothing.
Chu Yan put his hands on his back, turned around and looked at his old self in the bronze mirror, and said with a wry smile: "Once upon a time, I thought love was as infinitely tolerant, considerate and gentle as your Aunt Liu, but it wasn't until your mother died that I knew
Love is unforgettable and unforgettable for a lifetime."
He spoke so grandly, but Chu Ling couldn't laugh. "If the person who was killed in the Jinluan Palace that day was Aunt Liu, I'm afraid you would say the same thing, right?"
Chu Yan turned around and looked at him in confusion.
Chu Ling sneered and continued: "You don't understand what love is at all. What you remember deeply is that someone died because of you, not your mother. Real love does not need to be vigorous at all, but in the endless years, you
Think of her when you are happy, miss her when you are sad, remember her when you are angry, this is how you truly love someone."
After saying this, Chu Ling no longer looked at his face, turned around and walked away.
After decades of love-hate entanglement, his mother finally made the wrong payment...
Although Chu Ling didn't come out with him in the end, Chu Yan still chose to walk out of the room. He really didn't understand what love was. Maybe he would spend the rest of his life understanding this word, but before that, he
He must take up the responsibility of a father instead of continuing to hide in the room of the Huating County Lord and be a coward.
Not long after Chu Yan came out, Chu Xiu found Chu Ling and said with emotion: "What on earth did you tell your father? How did he figure it out overnight?"
Chu Ling glanced at him and said coldly: "Have you seen him?"
Chu Xiu nodded and said frankly: "Actually, I have forgiven him a long time ago, but I just can't bear to look for him. It's rare that you took the lead, so I naturally have no reason to continue to blame him."
Although he spoke in a relaxed tone, Chu Ling still heard a hint of bitterness in his tone.
It's not that they don't blame Chu Yan, but after their mother died, they only had this father left.
Chu Xiu was just like him. On the one hand, he couldn't pass his own test, but on the other hand, he had to convince himself to be more generous to avoid regrets in the future.
The two emotions are intertwined, and their inner conflicts are no less than Chu Yan's.
"Actually, he is not the person we should hate." Chu Ling looked at Chu Xiu and said meaningfully.
This was the first time that he took the initiative to discuss this issue with Chu Xiu, so that Chu Xiu was stunned for a moment, and soon became serious, "What do you want to say?"
Chu Ling stood up, went to close the door, and then continued: "It's been half a year. It's not just my father who should wake up, but also you and me. Mother's death can't be settled. The emperor is suspicious and incompetent. We should do something big."
."
In fact, this idea was not just lingering in Chu Ling's mind. In the past six months, although Chu Xiu had been wandering around the brothel every night, he had never thought of rebelling.
When he was at his most painful, he once walked outside the palace in the middle of the night, facing the palace wall, wishing to go in single-handedly to take the emperor's head, but he still endured it, not because he was so generous, but because he was very generous.
I know clearly that I don't have the ability.
But everything is different now. Chu Ling actually has the same idea as him. He is no longer fighting alone and can actually burn the hatred in his heart.
"What do you want to do?" Chu Xiu leaned forward, his eyes bright.
"When your sister-in-law gives birth to the child, I will go to Liuzhou to take office. I will try my best to make some achievements in the officialdom so that the emperor can't suppress me even if he wants to. As for you..." He looked at Chu Xiu and said meaningfully:
"We two brothers cannot take the same road, lest we end up in the same place. I want you to give up your official career and gather righteous people from all walks of life. Just like the rebels in Liuzhou before, you secretly cultivate your own power in the world. When the time is right, we
One black and one white will work together to achieve great things."
"Give up his official career?" Chu Xiu was a little hesitant. In order to coax Ruyan, one of the things he promised her before was that he would be admitted to the top martial arts exam and marry her in glory in the future. But obviously, once he chose to give up his official career and walk in the green forest,
, not only cannot satisfy Ruyan's request, but it may also bring danger to her.
Seeing the troubled look on his face, Chu Ling quickly guessed his concerns, "Why, are you afraid that you won't be able to explain it to your stunning beauty?"
Seeing him using these four words to describe Ruyan, Chu Xiu couldn't help but smile, "Yes, she has been in the capital for so many years, and what she desires most is a bright and upright future, but I have to go against her."
Chu Ling's expression dimmed, and he reached out and patted his shoulder, "It doesn't matter if it's inconvenient for you. This is just an idea of mine. If it doesn't work, we can take the second way."
Chu Xiu did not refuse or agree, "Please let me think about it again, or go and talk to Ruyan. If there is no other way, it will not be too late to cancel this plan."
Seeing his hesitation, Chu Ling knew that this road must not work, but he didn't say anything more, smiled and nodded, "Okay, I respect your opinion."
While the two were discussing, there was a sudden knock on the door outside the house, which startled them both at the same time, "It's not good, sir, the eldest mistress is about to give birth!"
"What?!" Chu Ling and Chu Xiu were shocked at the same time, and they ran out quickly, "Why is the baby about to be born so soon? Isn't it still more than half a month before the due date?"
"I don't know either!" Lang Hao almost cried out of fright, "Li Yan hurriedly sent someone to notify me just now. As soon as I received the news, I rushed to inform the uncle..."
Before he finished speaking, Chu Ling rushed to Shi Chunfen's room like a gust of wind.
When he and Chu Xiu arrived at the door, the old lady and the others had already arrived. Seeing him rushing in regardless, the old lady quickly reached out to stop him, "It is unlucky to give birth to a child, and men cannot go in."
"What's so unlucky!" Chu Ling contradicted his grandmother for the first time, "I only know that she needs me at the Spring Equinox, and I must accompany her!"
"Don't go in and make trouble!" the old lady said angrily: "With your sinister face, if you run in and stare at the side, wouldn't you scare the doctor and Wen Po half to death? You deliberately don't want them to pay full attention.
Will the earth help Equinox deliver the baby?!"
This was to the point. No matter how worried Chu Ling was about the spring equinox, he didn't dare to rush in. He could only turn his head to look at Li Yan and asked angrily: "Why did the eldest mistress suddenly break her amniotic fluid?"
, did you not take good care of her, so the accident happened?!"
"It's unfair! Master!" Li Yan was startled, and quickly took a few steps back, waving her hands and saying: "The eldest young lady did not have any accidents, but she choked while eating glutinous rice balls today, and the child was scared out."
"Bah, bah, bah!" Aunt Qing said angrily from the side: "What scared you? Can you speak?!"
Li Yan shrank her neck, knowing she had made a mistake, but Chu Ling looked at her so fiercely that she couldn't even organize her words.
"Why are you choking?" Chu Ling became more and more anxious, "Are you okay now?"
"It's okay, it's okay..." Li Yan hurriedly said: "For some reason, the eldest young lady likes to eat food made of glutinous rice very much these days. She eats several bowls of glutinous rice balls a day. Maybe she ate in a hurry today, so she
…”
Chu Ling has known this for a long time. He even had a bowl with Shi Chunquin this morning!
The glutinous rice balls were so sweet that I didn’t know why she loved them so much.
No, I probably don’t know why the child in my belly loves to eat so much...
While Li Yan was explaining, Chu Ling and Chu Xiu's nervousness gradually eased. The two of them looked at each other and looked into the house. When they heard the heart-wrenching cries of Spring Equinox coming from inside, their moods that had just calmed down instantly returned.
Lifted it up.
"Did you hear that?" Chu Ling pointed to the room and said anxiously: "She is crying, she is calling me, why is this happening, is something wrong?"
"Don't be stupid." The old lady shook her head funnyly, "Who doesn't cry when giving birth to a baby, and who doesn't feel pain? As a father, can you stop being so nervous?"
"Yes, A Ling." Aunt Liu echoed from the side: "When I gave birth to your two sisters, it was much more painful than now. She stayed in the capital for so long to keep her pregnancy safe during the Spring Equinox, and she had the best in Zhao State by her side.
The doctor and Wen Po are watching, and I think everything will be fine."
"Is it really going to be okay?" Chu Xiu was also a little worried, "She was born prematurely!"
"It's nothing to be born prematurely." Cao Yingchun interjected from the side: "I'm not a seven-year-old child, I'm just half a month early, it's okay."
Seeing that all of them had given birth to children without caring, Chu Ling and Chu Xiu couldn't calm down.
Chu Ling walked around for two steps, unable to listen to the painful cries in the house, so he simply turned around and grabbed Chu Xiu, saying urgently: "Let's go and sign in the yard, lest I can't help but rush in!"
Chu Xiu didn't expect that he would come up with such a method. Although he thought it was a bit ridiculous, he still agreed, "Okay, anyway, I haven't practiced sword practice for a long time!"