Xu Lizhong secretly observed Secretary Lu's face and saw that he was staring at the tomb in the grass. His expression was sad, his eyes were moist, and his burly body seemed to be trembling slightly. Knowing that he was very emotional at the moment, he said something Without saying a word, he led him around some thorns and thatch, along a vague path, and arrived in front of the tombstone.
Then, Xu Lizhong put down the bag he was carrying, and took out a scented candle, a lighter, three apples, three oranges, three pears, three small plates, three small wine glasses, a bottle of wine, and an envelope of five thousand Loud firecrackers.
When he touched the woolen coat, Xu Lizhong hesitated, raised his head and asked, "Chief, can you take this coat out?"
Secretary Lu glanced at the woolen coat, nodded and said: "Take it out, and put the firecrackers in it. Don't set them off, don't disturb her dreams... She loved purity when she was alive, and didn't like things that were too lively. place,"
At this point, the tears in his eyes finally couldn't be controlled, and they fell down in large drops, and his voice was a little choked.
Xu Lizhong also felt sour in his heart, and his eyes began to become moist.
After placing everything neatly, Xu Lizhong knew that Secretary Lu was going to hold an extremely secret memorial ceremony. Even if he was as close as himself, it might not be appropriate to watch from the side, so he stood sensibly. He got up, patted the dust on his hands, and said: "Chief, I will go downstairs to inspect first to see if anyone has come up the mountain. When you are done here, just call me and I will come up immediately."
Although Secretary Lu had great trust in Xu Lizhong and knew that even if he knew the inside story, he would never leak it out. However, he estimated that he would be very painful and sad later, and he did not want Xu Lizhong to see him. Fragile and soft side; at the same time, he also knew that Xu Lizhong was an extremely cautious person and did not easily inquire into other people's privacy. Therefore, if he did not let him go, he might still feel uneasy in his heart.
Therefore, he nodded and said: "You can go and inspect it. In addition, you can tell the police comrades below: If there are villagers who want to go up the mountain, you just need to persuade them nicely and ask them to wait." Don't scare them, let alone use violence. Just go ahead."
After Xu Lizhong left this small flat and disappeared on the mountain road below, Secretary Lu bent down, rearranged the small plates containing apples, pears, and oranges, lit the incense candle with a lighter, and put three small wine glasses Fill it with red wine.
Then, amid the wisps of blue smoke, he suddenly knelt down on the cement foundation in front of the tombstone, kowtowed three times respectfully, and murmured in a low and sad voice: "Zhao Han, my lover, my wife , I'm here, I'm here to see you... Except for my parents, I have never kneeled down to anyone in my life, but facing your undead, I must kneel down and kowtow to you to apologize... Zhao Han, I am a sinner. I have ruined your life's happiness and your life's future... You think about everything and plan everything for me, but you don't think about yourself... How do you want me to bear you? This great love, how do you want me to repay you, this affection that is higher than the sky and deeper than the sea... Zhao Han, my love, your soul is not far away, have you seen me, heard my words Well, the sinner Lu Yuan came to see you and came to apologize to you... Today is December 2nd, it is your birthday, I brought you a birthday gift that was more than twenty years late. You know it well, so you must accept this gift. It is the middle of winter now, and it must be very cold over there. I hope this gift can protect you from the wind and rain over there, and bring you a touch of warmth and comfort. …”
When he said this, he was choked with sobs, covering his cheeks with his hands, and tears of grief rolled down...
After kneeling and shedding tears silently for a few minutes, Secretary Lu straightened up with difficulty, took out a tissue to wipe away his tears, and then bent down to look carefully at the granite tombstone.
This tombstone has a rounded top and an oval eaves on the bottom to protect it from wind and rain.
Under the eaves of the stele is a porcelain posthumous photo. Zhao Han may have carefully selected the photo and asked Ye Ming to post it after her death. Zhao Han in the photo still looks like she did when she was twenty years old, with a refreshing hairstyle. She has a ponytail hairstyle, a sweet smile on her face, and her eyes are clear and bright, as if she is looking lovingly at Lu Zhiyao who is lying in front of the tombstone...
When he saw this photo, Lu Zhiyao felt a pain in his heart again: This photo was the first single photo that Zhao Han gave him when they were in college. It was also the photo that Zhao Han was most satisfied with. , obviously, she wants to leave the most beautiful image of herself on her tombstone, hoping that the lover she has always missed in her heart can come here to see her one day, and can recall the beautiful times they once spent together... …
When Secretary Lu moved his eyes to the epitaph under the photo, his eyes suddenly widened and his heart started beating wildly again.
I saw a few lines of poetry engraved on the smooth granite from right to left: "The mountains are high and the roads are far away, and my thoughts are long; after this body dies, I will be buried in Donggang; the deer calls, don't be sad, don't be hurt; the soul is there." You know, you will always be connected to the north."
This poem must have been written by Zhao Han when she knew she was about to die. It is both her epitaph and a desperate love letter she wrote to Lu Zhiyao in the distance at the last moment of her life. In this poem In it, not only was the name "Luyuan" embedded, but she also told him: She has been missing him all her life. Although "the mountains are high and the roads are far away", this longing has never been interrupted; after her death, she must Bury her in Donggang, so that she can always look to the north under the Nine Springs...
What made Secretary Lu even more devastated was that even when she was about to die, she was still comforting him, asking him to "don't be sad or hurt" after learning about her death. She also told him affectionately: If After her death, her soul knows that she will be tied to him forever...
This simple and straightforward poem was like a tender dagger, piercing deeply into Secretary Lu's already sore heart, causing him to burst into tears again in an instant, and he couldn't help but hug him The cold granite tombstone stretched out his lips and kissed Zhao Han's photo on the porcelain. He choked and said: "Han, you are so kind and considerate... You want me not to be sad or hurt." , but I can't do it... I am a party member and a materialist, but, you know, now I really want a person's soul to exist after death, and I really want us to be able to survive after death and be able to recognize each other. If there really is a soul, Zhao Han, you must wait for me over there. I can't marry you or be husband and wife with you in this life, so we will meet in the next life..."