Chapter 33 She Wants to Be a Real Family with Gu Feishen
Zuo Li felt like she had had a confusing dream, with various fragments mixed together, and she couldn't remember anything clearly.
Only the last "bang" of the gunshot was the clearest.
"ah!"
She screamed and opened her eyes suddenly, and was immediately dazzled by the bright light.
"Little stepmother, you wake up!"
Zuo Lixu squinted his eyes and found Gu Suiyang sitting on the chair next to the bed. Seeing that she was awake, he came over directly.
"Suiyang, are you okay..." Zuo Li said a few words before his mouth felt dry, "Water."
Gu Suiyang quickly brought the water prepared on the bedside table to Zuo Li.
His movements were unfamiliar, and one look at him showed that he had never served anyone like this before.
"I'm fine, it was all my stepmother who saved me. Thank you..."
The last two words are inaudible.
Zuo Li came back to life after drinking warm water.
She sat back, looking at the right side of Gu Suiyang's face and frowning, "After I passed out, were you beaten by someone?"
Gu Suiyang turned sideways slightly, facing Zuo Li with the left side of his face, his eyes wandering: "I'm fine."
Then, he immediately changed the topic, sat down on the chair again, and looked at Zuo Li seriously: "Little stepmother, you saved me this time. I decided not to embarrass you again in the future. Even if I can't treat you as my mother,
But you are now my savior, Gu Suiyang.
Although I, Gu Suiyang, am young, I repay my kindness, so you don’t have to worry about what I will do to you in the future."
Zuo Li's eyes showed a strange light, and he stared at Gu Suiyang with a half-smile,
"When have I ever been afraid that you would cause me trouble?"
When Gu Suiyang heard this, he was stunned for a moment, and then stood up, a little embarrassed. The silver earrings in his ears shone silver under the refraction of the light.
"That's me, I don't bully women, otherwise you wouldn't have a good life! Anyway, you should be happy, I won't go against you!"
"Master?" Zuo Li smiled and raised his eyebrows.
Gu Suiyang's expression froze, he was quite trying to pretend to be a good person, but was ashamed of being discovered as a gangster.
He snorted and sat down again: "I won't call you master in front of you from now on."
Gu Suiyang thought to himself, Zuo Li saved him, so she was naturally different from others, so it would be no harm if he respected her a little.
Zuo Li was also a little happy. Does this count as one-fifth of the success?
Four small boos, plus Gu Feichen's big boos, now it seems that it is not an insurmountable "task".
She chatted with Gu Suiyang for a few more words and asked her about what happened after she fell into coma. Although Gu Suiyang was vague in some places, he also guessed where the injuries on his face came from.
She frowned slightly, a little confused as to whether she should advise Gu Feichen not to just do anything to the child.
"Little stepmother."
Zuo Li said "Ah?" and looked towards Gu Suiyang, only to find that he was squatting beside the bed, with a pair of round eyes that looked very similar to Gu Feichen's, staring at her like this, quite pitifully.
The appearance of Xi.
The young man who had been sitting there with a strong sense of presence before was now looking at someone like this, which actually made people think of a large dog that was docile and well-behaved in front of its owner.
Zuo Li stretched out his hand to pluck his hair: "What's wrong?"
Gu Suiyang resisted the urge to dodge, lowered his eyes, his thick and long eyelashes were trembling slightly at this time, and his thin lips pursed lightly under his highly curved nose,
"I'm sick."
Zuo Li was stunned for a moment, and his face became serious.
Before she opened her mouth, Gu Suiyang was already talking to himself: "I don't know when, I started to get excited when I see blood. I can't control the violence factor in my body. I always want to beat people. If I can see blood, I will get even more excited."
impulse."
He raised his eyes and looked at Zuo Li, with deep confusion in his eyes: "Little stepmother, I know this is not normal, but I can't control it."
He seems to have become accustomed to solving problems by himself.
This makes my heart happy.
Anyway, he is very skilled. There are not many people in this world that he is afraid of based on his skills alone.
As for fighting with other weapons, he is not afraid.
It's just that compared to those more lethal weapons, he prefers the refreshing feeling of punching to the flesh.
He has never caused any harm to anyone, nor has he ever taken action against good people.
However, this ridiculous persistence does not prove that he is not sick.
On the contrary, everyone, including himself, is worried that one day these bottom lines will disappear completely as he gets sicker and worse.
He has no friends.
Whether in the past or in the future.
In the capital, a crowd of people would gather around him because of his "power".
But none of them were friends, and he could see fear and rejection in their eyes.
"Little stepmother, you will never regret saving me. If I had died under that bullet, maybe I would have removed a harm from the world.
Dad said that if I don’t change, he will send me to the border. I think that’s fine, I don’t want to tarnish the name Gu.”
He raised his lips at Zuo Li. This smile contained his characteristic ruffianism, but it also seemed to be filled with sadness that could not be overcome.
Zuo Li's heart felt so weak, her nose even felt sore, and she had the urge to cry.
There were tears in the young man's eyes, but he gritted his teeth to prevent them from falling.
What is the most painful thing in the world?
That is seeing yourself step by step towards the abyss, but being unable to change it.
The body is sick and there is a possibility of recovery.
But my heart is sick, and it is very difficult to recover.
Especially, this was only the 1980s, and this was still a country that was in the process of taking off.
Zuo Li took a deep breath to suppress the sadness in her heart, but tears fell out first.
She really didn't know why she was so sad, but she just couldn't help it.
If the boy doesn't cry, then she should cry for him.
Zuo Li plucked his hair vigorously, crumpling it into a ball of chicken coop, and said in a more solemn tone: "It's a disease, then treat it. How old are you, but you think you can't get better?"
"But……"
"It's nothing!" Zuo Li's voice was firm and unyielding.
There was water in her eyes, but she was full of power when she stared at him: "Whether you recognize me as your mother or not, since I have become your stepmother, you are my cub.
Even if others don't care about you and no one believes that you can get better, I won't give up. So, Gu Suiyang, you can't give up either. You can't be worse than a woman like me."
Gu Suiyang looked at her blankly, a strange emotion surging in his heart.
Perhaps it was his misunderstanding, but he always felt that at this moment, Zuo Li's whole body was glowing with the brilliance of maternal love.
His lips trembled, he took Zuo Li's hand and put his face into her palm.
Most of the confusion in his eyes was gone, but some was still there.
Because he was thinking that if his mother was still here, she would be like Zuo Li and believed that he would get better.
Mother.
At this moment, he suddenly understood the paranoia of his second brother Gu Jixing.
Is it because he firmly believes that his mother will come back because she loves each of their children just like Zuo Li?
After Gu Suiyang left, Zuo Li felt very heavy.
Gu Suiyang's situation cannot be solved with a few words of encouragement.
It requires professional psychological treatment, as well as the understanding and companionship of family members.
And if Gu Feichen is still that strong, I'm afraid it won't work.
Zuo Li couldn't sit still when he thought of this.
She left the room, stood at the railing on the second floor, and asked the servant who was busy in the living room: "Where is sir?"
The servant replied respectfully: "Sir, he is in the study."
Zuo Li immediately responded and walked quickly to the study regardless of his newly awakened image.
"Knock knock"
Knocking on the study door, Zuo Li whispered: "Mr. Gu, it's me."
It was quiet inside for a while, then the sound of footsteps was heard, followed by the rustling of the door opening, and the door was opened from the inside.
There were no lights on inside and the curtains were closed. It was pitch dark. Gu Feichen, who was standing at the door, had no intention of letting Zuo Li in.
Zuo Li was a little disappointed. After all, a place like the study was Gu Feichen's private space.
He did not allow her to set foot there, which meant that he always insisted on the Chu-He-Han boundary between them.
"What's the matter?"
His voice was so hoarse that Zuo Li was stunned for a moment.
Immediately afterwards, she smelled an extremely strong smell of smoke.
——He was smoking in the study.
"Sorry." Gu Feichen said, walked out of the study, closed the door, and explained, "It smells bad in there, so let's talk here."
He restrained and politely took two steps to the side, a little further away from Zuo Li.
But even at this distance, Zuo Li could still smell the smoke on his body.
One can imagine how fierce he was before.
Zuo Li tightened her hands and suddenly plucked up the courage to look into Gu Feichen's eyes and asked, "Mr. Gu, are you in a bad mood? It's because of Suiyang's incident, right?"
Gu Feishen's eyes suddenly became a little deeper, his gaze focused on her face, but he didn't answer.
Zuo Li controlled his gaze that wanted to look away due to nervousness, and continued: "You can tell me that we are husband and wife, and I can help you. I am also Suiyang's stepmother, and I will also help him."
So, are you willing to open your heart to me and help Suiyang with me?
Zuo Li didn't say these words, but she knew that Gu Feichen understood what she meant.
After Zuo Li finished speaking, he looked at Gu Feichen, waiting for his answer, just like a criminal in court, waiting for the judge's decision.
She thought that she still wanted to cross the Chu-He-Han boundary between them.
She wanted to really become a family with Gu Feichen.