Yun Wu asked: "Do you mean it was very difficult for her to get pregnant back then?"
The Queen Mother recalled: "It was not only difficult, I couldn't eat or sleep, my stomach hurt all day long, I looked thinner, and even the imperial doctors said I couldn't live for more than a few days.
At that time, everyone said that the fetus would not live to be born, and even if it was born, it would be stillborn. Everyone advised her to abort the fetus to save her own life, but she was unwilling to do so.
You know, it's one corpse and two lives, but I didn't expect that she actually gave birth to the fetus."
The Queen Mother was shocked.
"Why is it so difficult for her to have such a bad pregnancy?" Yun Wu asked.
"Her body is already very weak and cannot carry a child. It is incredible that she can travel all the way to Daxia to seek asylum while pregnant with him."
"Your father loves her so much, why would he let her be alone with her child?" Yun Wu asked Ye Xiang.
Ye Xiang shook his head. There were some things he couldn't say, at least not outside.
“She said that her husband didn’t know she was pregnant, and she sneaked away secretly, saying that if she stayed with her husband again, her husband might die.
Although she was in poor health and had a bad pregnancy, she was really beautiful. Even after all these years, Ai Jia still thinks of her and thinks she is so beautiful, so beautiful that she is not human, but like a fairy."
She raised her head and looked at Ye Xiang: "You and she are so similar, both beautiful, but she is very kind and gentle, and her smile is particularly sweet.
At that time, the imperial doctors were reluctant to let such a beautiful person die like this, so they tried their best to give her a decoction that could preserve the fetus, but when they thought she couldn't hold on any longer, she suddenly got better and stubbornly wanted to leave the palace."
Yun Wu pulled Ye Pai and said, "You should learn more from your mother and smile more."
Ye Shang couldn't laugh. Hearing that his mother had given birth to him with such hardship made him feel uncomfortable.
Yun Wu squeezed his hand and said: "My mother worked so hard to give birth to you not to make you blame yourself. It was her choice to firmly give birth to you and it has nothing to do with you.
Since your mother worked so hard to give birth to you, you should live a good life and be happy, so that she doesn’t have to work so hard."
Ye Shang said nothing, but held Yun Wu's hand tightly.
In fact, he couldn't understand why he had to sacrifice himself to give birth to him, and why he was so stupid.
The Queen Mother seemed tired of talking, and sighed: "It all happened a few years ago. At that time, Qingqing was also in the palace, and she could accompany me, an old lady, to relieve her boredom.
Now the Ai family are so old that they can hardly move, and they don’t know where they are."
Ye Shang said coldly: "Mother... has passed away long ago."
The Queen Mother seemed to have expected something: "It's not easy for her body to survive until she gives birth to you. It's too difficult for her to survive.
It's all man-made evil. If there hadn't been that avalanche..."
Yun Wu's eyes widened: "Queen Mother, what do you mean by this? Isn't that avalanche a natural disaster?"
The Queen Mother came to her senses in a daze: "Ah, the Ai family is a little sleepy. They are talking nonsense and don't know what they are talking about. You all can stay in the palace and have lunch. The Ai family asked them to make delicious food."
After speaking, the Queen Mother stood up with the support of her maid: "The Ai family is tired and has gone to rest. You can go and play by yourself."
Yun Wu still wanted to ask, but the Queen Mother's attitude clearly meant that she didn't want to talk anymore. She looked at Ye Xiang, who shook his head.
She whispered: "Find a way for me to get close to the Queen Mother, so that I can ask."
He Lianfeng was speechless: "That woman is really amazing. Even after being gone for so many years, even the emperor's grandmother still remembers her."
I remember that Qingqing accompanied her in the palace to relieve her boredom.
What's the use of remembering? If I can't just leave and abandon you all, why should I remember!
"Maybe she is really a good person. Have you ever thought that a good person with a kind heart cannot survive in the harem." Yun Wu put in good words for Qing Qing.
For no other reason than to take in Ye Xiang's mother for her, treat her well and empathize with her, this woman must not be a bad person.
For her to abandon everything and leave so cruelly, there must be reasons why she has no choice but to do so.
To be honest, a kind-hearted person and a silly woman who only wants to be with one person for the rest of her life are not worthy of being a queen, nor are they worthy of marrying an emperor.
The harem is not a place for them to stay. In ancient times, unless she, the queen, could have children every year and make the royal family flourish, who would let you be the emperor alone?
The emperor... the person who ascends that position cannot do whatever he wants.
In her eyes, the emperor was never a good position, unless he wanted to be a fool and be despised by others.
After all, Emperor Xuanzong of the Tang Dynasty had so many political achievements, but later he just wanted to pamper a woman, which made the people miserable.
He had only one woman in his harem and made such a fuss, let alone the emperor who only had one woman.
He Lianfeng's mother must have seen through the cruelty of leaving her, or maybe this was the only way to save her own life.
Even if she really left for the so-called freedom, there is nothing wrong with her. After giving birth to a son, would she have to suffer and be restrained for the rest of her life and have no freedom at all?
Of course, she could also choose to take He Lianfeng away, but if a prince took him away, it would change his wealth and destiny, so how could she let it go.
He Lianfeng snorted: "Don't say that you are kind-hearted. A kind-hearted person will not abandon his husband and son."
Only ruthless people can do it.
"You may be right. She is not kind-hearted, and she is also selfish. You can hate her or deny her, but she really doesn't owe you anything. She at least left you the identity of a prince.
If you have to find fault, everyone in the world who gives birth to a child but does not raise it is guilty. Ye Xiang's mother is guilty, and so is my mother."
"What's the matter? Your mother died because she had no choice but to be free and happy for herself."
Yun Wu smiled: "What's the difference? They both leave the children without their mother, and they both let the children grow up hard on their own.
The only difference is the resentment in the child's heart. If you don't resent it, you are actually the same as me and Brother Shan."
He Lianfeng frowned. He wanted to refute, but felt unable to do so.
He knew the life experiences of Yun Wu and Ye Xiang, and they were indeed not much different from him.
To a child, it is the same without a mother. What really differs is the degree of resentment the child feels towards his mother.
Even if he understands better, he still can't accept that woman, and he resents her selfishness in his heart. Maybe resentment can make him live better.
He suddenly discovered that he was actually just like his father. One relied on memories to live his life, and the other relied on resenting her to relieve the pain and torture his father had inflicted over the years.
He Lianfeng laughed self-deprecatingly: "Maybe, if she is no longer alive, maybe I won't resent her."
Ye Xiang patted his shoulder, then pulled Yun Wu away first.
He Lianfeng waved his hands, what's so great, isn't it because he was abandoned by his mother and has been without a mother since he was a child? There are so many people without mothers, and he is not the only one.