After the dust about Hao Jiaojiao settled, Meng Duiwan went to Hongdou's grave. Because it had just snowed and the ground was still slippery, she brought a broom to clean up the snow on the road bit by bit, leaving several Forsythia several times.
Every time I tried to help, I was chased away.
Meng Duiwan said: "Hongdou only stayed with me for a few short years, but he could jump into the river in the cold winter for me. She also lost her life at a young age because of me. I want to accompany her well."
say something."
Forsythia naturally understands Meng's feelings for Wan and Hongdou. Hongdou can risk his life for her, and she can do the same for Hongdou.
It took Meng Duiwan more than half an hour to slowly clear away the snow on the ground. Meng Duiwan got up early today and made a lot of pastries and dishes that Hongdou liked to eat, and also brought a pot of her own brew.
of wine.
Meng Duiwan wiped her tombstone bit by bit with a handkerchief, then arranged all the dishes and cakes, poured a glass of wine, and lit incense.
All the gold ingots were folded one by one by Meng Duiwan late at night. She poured out all the paper money and gold ingots, and then slowly lit them one by one.
"You have been gone for so long, and I have never been able to dream about you. I think you must be afraid that I will miss you and cry again in the middle of the night, but in fact, I really want to see you!" Meng Duiwan
Looking at the paper money that was burning away bit by bit in front of him, he said softly, "Do you know? I avenged you with my own hands."
"I never thought that I would dare to kill someone in my life, but for you I think what should I do! You obviously did nothing wrong, just because you were by my side and suffered so much with me, but
In the end, it actually ended like this!"
"Hongdou, you are really unlucky. I am now the legitimate daughter of the Yongchang Marquis Mansion. I have everything I want. No one can bully us anymore, but you are just unlucky..."
Meng Duixu babbled along, and tears slid down the corners of her eyes, falling to the ground drop by drop.
Hongdou's death was simply a nightmare for her. The person who was still chatting and laughing with her the day before suddenly became someone else's dead soul. She didn't even get to see her for the last time, and she
But he died because of himself.
Just when Meng Duiwan was trembling from crying, a thick cloak gently covered her shoulders. She looked back and saw Su Xubai's slightly pale face: "What are you doing?"
Are you here?"
"Forsythia specially sent someone to my place to find out where Hongdou's tombstone is. I knew you must come here!" Su Xubai looked at Meng Duiwan and said softly, "Hao Jiaojiao, was it you who killed me?
"
Meng Duiwan paused and did not deny it. Instead, he nodded calmly: "Yes, I killed her myself."
Su Xubai looked at Meng Duiwan for a long time. There were some emotions in his eyes that she couldn't understand, which seemed to be fear or worry. After a long while, he said, "Are you scared?"
Meng Duiwan was a little surprised.
Su Xubai sighed softly: "No matter who it is, they will be scared when they kill someone for the first time, let alone you. You are a weak-tempered person. I can't force you to kill someone.
Thought-of."
"Don't you think I'm scary?" Meng Duiwan couldn't help but ask.
"Why is it scary? Is it because you kill people?" Su Xubai raised his eyebrows, "I don't think you did anything wrong. You were just avenging yourself and Hongdou and the others. The capital is originally a demon cave, a man-eating demon cave.
, in fact, if you don’t take action, I will take action, the killing place is a natural and natural place.”
Meng Duiwan always felt that Su Xubai liked the kind of gentle and pretentious women, so she habitually acted like a gentle Jiangnan girl when she was around him, so when he directly said that she killed Hao Jiaojiao, in fact
, she would pay attention to his emotions almost subconsciously. Even if she was Meng Duiwan now, he didn't really want to become cruel in Su Xubai's mind.
"I think the person I am most sorry for is Hongdou!" Meng Duiwan sighed deeply, "When she was around me, she was a lowly person. No matter who she was, she could insult her and blame her. He
It was really hard to stay by my side, but she never complained, she just followed me hard and without complaint. I never thought that she would end up like this!"
Su Xubai wanted to reach out and pull Meng Duiwan into his arms, but he couldn't do so. He could only look at Meng Duiwan, and then comforted her softly: "You have not sorry for anyone, and you have been sorry for them from beginning to end."
It's me, I can't protect anyone, but I still have no hesitation in keeping you by my side, causing you to suffer so much and suffer so much grievance. This is my fault from the beginning to the end."
Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai in front of her. She didn't know why he said these things to her today. She felt a little uneasy for no reason: "Su Xubai, why did you say these things to me?"
"I...I am a person now, a person who can make decisions for myself. Meng Duiwan...can we start over?" Su Xubai looked into Meng Duiwan's eyes and said every word very seriously.
Meng Duiwan subconsciously took a step back. He looked at Su Xubai in front of him with some disbelief: "Su Xubai, do you really know what you are talking about? What's wrong with you?"
"Of course I know!" Su Xubai looked at Meng Duiwan, "I don't care if you are Cheng Chun or Meng Duiwan, you are the one I really like, and I want you to be my wife.
I've always thought like this, but I couldn't do it before. I don't have a wife now, and no one will force me to get married again. Little Achun, can we try to start over?"
"Start over?" Meng Duiwan smiled, "How to start over? Treat everything in the past as if it never happened? Yes, I am not Achun now, I am Meng Duiwan from Yongchang Houfu, I can now
I want to be your wife, not a concubine, but Su Xubai, I don’t want to."
Su Xubai's face changed suddenly, and he felt stiff all over as he stood there, unable to speak for a long time.
"You can't pay for your love. It took me half my life to escape from you. Why should I go back to your place?" Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai and backed away slowly, "Do I have to pay for it again?
Do you want a red bean? Su Xubai, we can never start over, and I don’t want to go to you again, no, I never want to! "
Meng Duiwan was very decisive when she turned around and left. She even ran away. She ran away in a hurry and her cloak fell on the ground. He didn't look back, he just kept running forward.
She had no intention of looking back. If she turned back now, she would see Su Xubai with all the desolation in her eyes. But she didn't, and she didn't want to look back.
She finally got out of that purgatory, and she had to go back to that place because she was crazy.
When Meng Duiwan ran back to the car, Forsythia ran over quickly: "What's wrong, girl?"
"Let's go back, quickly, go back!" Meng Duiwan quickly climbed onto the carriage.
Although Forsythia didn't know what happened, she got on the carriage immediately and left with Meng Duiwan.
After walking far away, Meng Duiwan felt relieved. She held her hand tightly, her eyes were red, and she really didn't want to go back.
Even now when she dreams back at midnight, she still thinks of those humiliating days. Even though she still has some affection for Su Xubai, she clearly understands that friendship is not as important as life.
"What did the girl see there?" Forsythia couldn't help but ask.
Meng Duiwan was silent for a long time, and then said: "Su Xubai!"
Forsythia frowned immediately: "What is she doing there?"
"Say... you want to start over with me..."
"Girl, you didn't agree, did you?" Forsythia grabbed Meng Duiwan's hand, "You must not agree! He is not a good person at all. Girl, you can't agree to anything you say!"
Meng Duiwan quickly shook his head: "No, I ran away immediately!"