Meng Shaoqing walked up to Su Xubai angrily. He originally thought he would see Su Xubai, who was waiting for him. However, he did not expect that when he walked to the yard, he was sitting on a deck chair basking in the sun.
Meng Shaoqing laughed angrily at that time. He looked at Su Xubai sitting on the recliner and said coldly: "What, are you waiting to be chopped down by me here?"
"You are just angry, you don't really want to kill me." Su Xubai looked at Meng Shaoqing and said calmly.
"You're lying like this, I don't even know what to do!" Meng Shaoqing didn't even know what to do for a moment.
"Then why not sit down and have a cup of tea!" Su Xubai said, stood up and poured him a cup of tea, "The Longjing tea in Mingqian is your favorite tea, give it a try!"
Although Meng Shaoqing was a little reluctant, she thought about it and sat down.
Su Xubai made tea and poured a cup for Meng Shaoqing: "I heard that you had a quarrel with my mother at the door?"
"Well, why, do you want to vent your anger on your mother?" Meng Shaoqing raised his eyebrows, and his eyes instantly filled with fighting spirit.
Su Xubai laughed: "I want to apologize to you on behalf of my mother. I don't know about her entering the palace to intercede with the Queen Mother. He only loves his son, so you don't care about it, it doesn't seem to be good."
It's a big reality, but I always feel that you can put this resentment on me instead of on her!"
Meng Shaoqing looked at Su Xubai for a long time, then picked up the cup of tea: "It's been a long time since we've been like this, drinking tea and talking!"
"We haven't gotten along since childhood. Although we have been classmates since childhood, we actually don't have much affection for each other. What happened to your sister again? No, just cutting each other with swords is already pretty good. How can we expect to sit down and drink while looking at this?
"Tea?" Su Xubai smiled, and then looked at Meng Shaoqing, "I will go to the Queen Mother and tell you myself, but I think the Queen Mother is also a sensible person, and she should also understand what you are thinking, but since my mother
I’ve already begged her, and she always wants to talk about it.”
"Have you really never thought about marrying her?" Meng Shaoqing put down the tea cup in his hand and said suddenly.
"I have thought about it, day and night, always thinking about it, but I also know that you will never agree. Even if she still has some feelings for me, I still have the possibility of giving it a try, but now I can't even
She doesn't even want to see me anymore, so it's useless no matter how much I worry about her!" Su Xubai smiled bitterly, "Meng Shaoqing, I have no choice."
Meng Shaoqing was silent, watching the rise and fall of the tea soup in front of him.
"I really like her. I don't care who she is. Whether she is Chengchun or Meng Duiwan, she is her to me. If she is willing, I can resign now and take her back to Jiangnan.
Our little life is just no longer possible!" Su Xubai sighed.
"Wanwan is very important to us. We will never let him make the same mistake again." Meng Shaoqing looked into Su Xubai's eyes and said word by word.
"I also feel that I'm not worthy, so even though I know that people everywhere are proposing marriage to her, I don't do anything, I just stay in this courtyard, and I still have to fight for something that I know is impossible, which makes me feel a little uncomfortable.
Just try your best!" Su Xubai lowered his head and looked at his hands.
Meng Shaoqing followed his gaze and saw that there were scars one after another on his knuckled hands, which looked like he had cut them with a knife.
Meng Shaoqing couldn't help but frown: "What are you doing? You don't think that my sister will forgive you if you stage a cruel trick, do you?"
"Of course I know it won't happen. Even if she does, you won't either. I just want to see her so much. I think about it every day, all the time. I wish I could tie her back and put her in my pocket.
, She is not allowed to go anywhere, I can only stop me in this way!" Su Xubai put his hands into his sleeves.
Meng Shaoqing was silent for a long time, and then stood up: "I came here just to tell you that it's nothing, don't get close to her. Since you think clearly, there is no need for me to beat you, but Su Xubai
, people always have to look forward, and they have to move forward sooner or later, and you have to move forward too."
Su Xubai slowly leaned back on the recliner, with lowered eyebrows: "I don't want to move forward. If possible, I want to keep the memories we had and live like this for the rest of my life. In fact, it's quite good this way."
Meng Shaoqing didn't want to stay here anymore, so he walked straight away. Today, Su Xubai has long lost the arrogance he had when he was a Tanhualang. He even exudes an old-fashioned feeling, and he can feel the arrogance in his bones.
He didn't like the feeling of sadness. He was worried that if he stayed here and looked at him like this, he would become soft-hearted.
Meng Shaoqing even left in a bit of a panic. He came in a hurry and left in a hurry, shouting that he wanted to beat him up, but in the end he ran away in a panic.
Compared to Meng Shaoqing's embarrassment, Xu Ziqing seemed much more intolerable.
Xu Ziqing and Su Xubai have been friends since childhood. They have been studying together and practicing martial arts together since childhood. Meng Shaoqing has become a bit weird since something happened at home. He always misses the place of fireworks on weekdays, rarely
Gradually, Xu Ziqing and Su Xubai will get closer by interacting with them.
Xu Ziqing also knew very well what happened between Su Xubai and Meng Duiwan. Clearly, he was watching this matter happen bit by bit from the perspective of a third person, and because he and Meng Duiwan were facing each other very clearly,
Wan doesn't have much affection, so he may be more biased towards Su Xubai.
He came to visit the injured Su Xubai, and at the same time he also wanted to see if he had been beaten to death by Meng Shaoqing.
But he never thought that he would see a dejected Su Xubai like this. The high-spirited and high-spirited person back then could no longer be seen on him. Even an outsider like Xu Ziqing could not help but feel that
Heartache.
"...Actually, although you were wrong about this matter, you are working hard to make up for it, so why do you continue to torture yourself?" Xu Ziqing sighed.
In his opinion, Su Xubai was indeed wrong. He ruined a girl from an innocent family, but he also tried his best to make up for it. At that time, because of his status, it was absolutely impossible for him to marry her as his wife and accept her.
Being a concubine was already the best solution for the situation at that time.
It's just that Su Xubai didn't expect that so many things would happen one after another, and every time he was very selfish and wanted to keep Meng Duiwan by his side, which made it harder and harder for her to go step by step.
Meng Duiwan was very miserable and pitiful, but at that time, Su Xubai had no better way. The emperor was the one who granted the marriage, and he could not shirk it. He could not risk the lives of his whole family to resist the decree.
He could only lower his head and accept it.
"Torture? I haven't suffered half as much as she has!" Su Xubai said softly, "I almost died several times. I owe her a lot!"
Xu Ziqing sighed.
"Do you know what really makes me feel particularly difficult?" Su Xubai looked up at Xu Ziqing and smiled bitterly, "It's that I can't do anything. It's that I know he said it to me, but I still can't protect him. It's that
I obviously don't want to marry Hao Jiaojiao, but I still have no choice. Do you know how painful these four words "no choice" make people?"
"Then what are you going to do? Is it possible that you will live like this for the rest of your life? Just like a corpse, living without a soul?" Xu Ziqing frowned, "Since the Yongchang Marquis Mansion has begun to give birth again
He said he kissed you, so you should try to let go and move forward step by step!"
Su Xubai lowered his eyes and didn't speak for a long time.
Xu Ziqing looked at Su Xubai in front of him and felt very frustrated: "You insist on tying yourself up somewhere and hesitate to move forward. It is not only you who are suffering, but also your family and everyone who cares about you."
People, Su Xubai, you have to try to let it go!"
"I don't want to let it go." Su Xubai slowly raised his head and looked at Xu Ziqing, "Only this tortured feeling can make me feel that I am still alive and that my heartbeat is still beating."