"You don't know how!" Meng smiled at Yeluqisu and said, "You are not such a person!"
Su Xubai was silent for a long time, then looked up at Meng Duiwan: "Back then...I'm sorry!"
"Master Su has said I'm sorry many times!" Meng Duiwan looked down at his hands, "I heard what Mrs. Su said just now..."
"My mother didn't mean that..."
"I know!" Meng Duiwan raised his head and looked at Su Xubai, "Whether that's what you meant or not, it doesn't matter. In fact, I think Madam Su is right. At that time, you were just a minor official. You and Hao
Our marriage is a marriage granted by His Majesty himself. Even if I was already Meng Duiwan at that time, we have no way to disobey the imperial edict."
Su Xubai lowered his eyes: "But if I hadn't kept you with me, you wouldn't have suffered so much, and nothing would have happened to Hongdou."
"Actually, what I really can't let go of is Hongdou. I feel that if I forgive you one day, it would be too unfair to Hongdou. Hongdou was only a teenager, but because you didn't make arrangements, she died in that place.
Yuye, I always feel that if I forgive you so easily, then I would be so sorry for her!" Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai in front of her, "Su Xubai, I don't want to forgive you so easily!"
Su Xubai was silent and did not speak.
"I don't want to live my whole life holding the guilt about Hongdou!" Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai, "So, from now on, you can live a good life, marry a woman you like, and live the rest of your life well.
Don’t risk your life for me like you did today!”
"I don't want to." Su Xubai suddenly took Meng Duiwan's hand, "I don't want to live the rest of my life with anyone else. I just want to live the rest of my life with you, even if we spend the rest of our lives torturing each other.
I am also willing, Meng Duiwan, you are no longer Chengchun, why can't you use your identity as Meng Duiwan to give me a chance?"
Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai in front of him and opened his mouth, unable to speak.
"You said you felt Hongdou's death was unjust, and you felt you didn't want to feel guilty because of her all your life. But now that you have avenged her, and Hao Jiaojiao's body was exposed in the wilderness, isn't that enough for you to wash away your guilt for him?
?" Su Xubai held Meng Duiwan's hand tightly.
"I can't do it!" Meng Duiwan shook off Su Xubai's hand, her eyes slightly red, "As long as I see you, the image of Hongdou's death is in my mind. You will never imagine that rainy night.
What on earth did we go through? I can never forgive myself. She is really innocent. She did nothing wrong, but she took risks again and again because of me. From jumping into the river to being hunted down, he clearly did nothing.
, obviously I didn’t get anything, but I experienced everything..."
"Meng Duiwan!"
"I can't do it. She is like my sister. She has been by my side when I was most desperate. The person Hao Jiaojiao wanted to kill was me, but it was her who died in the end. My life
, it was in exchange for her life, I really can't forgive myself." Meng Duiwan stood up and backed away, "Su Xubai, I came to visit you, I just feel that you were hurt because of me, that's all!
"
Su Xubai looked at Meng Duiwan not far away and let out a long sigh: "I know!"
Meng Duiwan looked at Su Xubai for a long time, then took a deep breath: "Then I'm leaving!"
"Are you still going to climb over the wall and get out?" Su Xubai looked at Meng Duiwan and asked softly.
"Well, the carriage is parked there. After I get out from there, I can go back to my house directly." Meng said softly to Wan.
"Then you go back. But, Meng Duiwan, you are no longer the Chengchun you were back then. Then, I will treat you the same way I treated Meng Duiwan. The person I risked my life to help is the current Marquis of Yongchang.
She is the legitimate daughter of the palace, not the Chengchun she was back then!" Su Xubai looked into Meng Duiwan's eyes and said firmly every word.
Meng Duiwan was silent for a long time, then turned and left: "Chengchun has died a long time ago. He died in the icy and snowy river that year!"
Meng Duiwan really climbed out of the wall. Halfway through the wall, she saw Isatis standing on the wall looking at her. She was a little embarrassed. Half of her body was hanging on the wall. She didn't know for a moment what to do.
If you jump down, you should still turn back.
"Do you want me to bring you a ladder?" Shilan asked when she saw that Meng Duiwan had not been down for a long time.
Meng Duiwan's face turned red instantly: "No, no, no!"
"Girl, be careful and don't fall down." Isatis said calmly.
Meng Duiwan only felt that his face was getting hotter and hotter.
"By the way, Miss Meng, I often clean Hongdou's graveyard. You can just go and visit during the holidays. You don't need to find someone to take care of it at ordinary times!" Jian Lan looked at Meng Duiwan and said softly.
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Thinking of Hongdou, Meng Duiwan's expression changed slightly. There had always been differences between Isatis and Hongdou, but every time Hongdou chose herself instead of Isatis without hesitation.
Every time when she dreamed back at midnight, she was thinking that if she hadn't been so stubborn and just stayed by Su Xubai's side obediently, never going anywhere or running anywhere, maybe Hongdou would have left Su Xubai earlier.
Now that they are married, Shia Lan is not a slave, but also a serious military household. If Hong Dou can marry him, she will have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of her life.
It's just that she has never been willing to stay by Su Xubai's side, but her silly Hongdou always followed her without hesitation. Even though she suffered so much and suffered so much, she refused to leave even if she said nothing.
She lost her own life.
"I'm sorry, Isatis..." Meng Duiwan couldn't help but blush when he thought of this.
Silan paused, and then said: "What can Ms. Meng do to apologize to me? Hongdou once told me that she was sold as a slave by her family since she was a child. She has always worked as a cow or a horse. Later, she was sold from below.
The rough girl came to the Fifth Master's side. Although it was not so hard and she didn't have to worry about food and clothing, she was still just a girl. The girl was different. From the beginning to the end, the girl did not treat her as a servant, but as a servant.
She loves her like a sister, Hongdou said that the days spent with the girl were the happiest days she had ever lived in her life."
Meng Duiwan looked at Isatis for a long time, then wiped his tears and said, "Take good care of your father. I hope no third person will know about my visit!"
Woad naturally responded: "Girl, when you go back, be careful on the road!"
"Thank you!" Meng Duiwan let go of his hand and jumped off the city wall.