Shi Jin looked at Shaoyao's blurred eyes and slowly approached her. For some reason, at this moment, Shi Jin no longer saw those ethereal things in Shaoyao's eyes, and there was no smell of rouge.
, that kind of cleansing feeling, like a clear pool, Shi Jin saw the purity at the first glance. This kind of breath, Shi Jin felt, was the most primitive and purest warmth. That kind of familiarity
And the distant feeling is reflected in Shaoyao's shadow at this moment, and in Shaoyao's soft and smiling eyes.
For Shi Jin now, what he fears most is this feeling. When Shi Jin came out of Shijiazhuang, he had already blocked the tenderness in his heart, so that he would no longer miss home and no longer talk about feelings, so
Shi Jin is always willing to take risks, to venture out, and to face the bleak life. Shi Jin wants to use such scene after scene to numb his feelings about home and numb the most taboo place in his heart. However, sometimes,
, whatever is most fearful in one’s heart will inevitably follow it. Just like those travelers who travel to foreign lands, ordinary things can evoke the most real and intense nostalgia in their hearts.
At this moment, Shi Jin truly understood that some things cannot be avoided by being lively and exciting, nor can they be faked by pretending not to care. No matter how capable he is, after all, everyone can do it.
Have a heart. Because you can't get rid of your own heart, you can't get rid of those feelings that are difficult to face.
What is home, and what is destination... What Shi Jin now owns is Shaohua Mountain, Shijiazhuang, Huayin County and Guanxi Town. However, for Shi Jin, with the expansion of his territory, what was originally in Shijiazhuang
The feeling of a warm home is getting weaker and weaker, as if I have always been on the road, without stopping, there will never be a way back, there will never be a time to rest... For a moment, somewhere in Shi Jin's heart
Being rubbed hard, Shi Jin's heart surged for a moment, a little painful, and a little bitter. Shi Jin looked at the peony, all his emotions were choked in his throat, the bulge was swollen, but he couldn't say a word.
Come.
"What...what's wrong?" Shaoyao asked with embarrassment as Shi Jin's face turned even redder.
"Oh...oh, it's nothing, I..." Shi Jin came out of his deep thoughts at Shaoyao's words. He didn't know what to say for a while. The more he was afraid that he would embarrass Shaoyao by saying nothing, the more he became more and more worried.
There is nothing that can be used to excuse it.
When Shaoyao saw Shi Jin's incoherent words, she felt as if she was carrying a rabbit. She was looking forward to Shi Jin's next words, because she knew that men who spoke so incoherently must have something on their minds.
.After all, this month is still a place of rouge. Although it is not a brothel where prostitutes gather, and it is not as unscrupulous as those romantic women, but playing and drinking with her, it also opened up a lot of knowledge for her, such as those from a rich family.
I have never seen young people before. There are many who are in love with her, and there are also many who want to redeem her with money. The appearance of those young people who are trapped by love is almost the same as the current Shi Jin. They are at a loss and confused.
Baba, words don’t convey the meaning.
Often when young people express their feelings, no matter how wealthy they are, no matter how dazzling their fame is, although Shaoyao is just a little girl, she always has enough initiative and never takes anyone for granted.
How amazing. But to put it more directly, it is to take advantage of this love relationship. Shaoyao enjoys the feeling of being held, protected and hurt as the apple of her eye. This feeling gives her
It is a sense of superiority, an indescribable satisfaction and pleasure.
But at this moment, when Shi Jin was standing in front of Shaoyao, she could not suppress her ecstasy in her heart. The anticipation made her involuntarily reach out and take the black hair hanging down from her temples in her hands, and put on a pair of bright
Her eyes were shy, like a little girl coming out of the house for the first time, looking at her little feet on the ground in panic. In the bottom of her heart, she was happy, but also unspeakably uneasy and uneasy. She felt that she was no longer the
The one who has the upper hand and has the upper hand can no longer easily control the direction and overall situation of his own feelings. He seems to be like a small boat floating on the waves. He has nothing to rely on. He can only pray secretly to bless himself, but what exactly do he want to bless?
, Peony, but I can’t think of it or explain it clearly.
Maybe this is emotion, this is the feeling of love. Why is this happening? Shaoyao doesn't know. What she understands is that her heart is no longer with her. She can no longer avoid it or deceive herself. This feeling is like
The bronze bell that had been ringing rippled in her mind and knocked on her soft heart. Shaoyao knew that she had been captured by Shi Jin and could not escape. She could not escape.
I told myself this again in my heart. Suddenly I felt a little embarrassed. I lowered my eyes lower, staring at the handful of plush on my little toes decorating the embroidered shoes, watching them blow in the night breeze.
Touch it gently and move gently.
Shi Jin coughed, put his hands on his waist that he didn't know where to put, and glanced at the room with a pair of eyes. Suddenly, a flash of lightning reminded him of the bronze mirror, as if Shi Jin was like him.
It was as if he had found a life-saving straw. Shi Jin smiled, trying to cover up his messy heart at the moment, pretending to be relaxed and said: "Oh, have you seen a copper mirror on my body in the house?
?" Shi Jin said and quickly took his hands stiffly from his waist. He gestured with a certain size in front of Shaoyao's surprised expression and said, "Is it that big?"
Shi Jin wanted more and more to cover up his gaffe just now by adding some body language. He was afraid that Shaoyao might mistakenly think of going elsewhere. However, Shi Jin didn't realize that the more he behaved like this, the more unnatural he became. It was typical of trying to hide something.
It seemed that not only did Shaoyao misunderstand his meaning, but it actually made Shaoyao think even more wildly.
Shaoyao smiled, shook her head gently, and said, "I've never seen it before, and you've never given it to anyone..."
When Shi Jin saw Shaoyao's look, he knew that the little girl in front of him was probably really emotional, but his own feelings were the minefield that he least wanted to touch. Whether it was family affection or love, after all, before the officers and soldiers encircled Shijiazhuang
At that time, everything was mutated overnight, and Shi Jin also left all his tenderness in that night. Shi Jin was afraid of recalling and associating, so Shi Jin was also afraid of welcoming and facing it. At the moment, Shi Jin
What he fears most is that stepping into this forbidden area of emotion will not only hurt him, but also hurt others.
And only he knew all the worries in Shi Jin's heart. For Yue Mengwu, who hid this secret everywhere, this was the only secret in Shi Jin's heart.
At this moment, Shi Jin was afraid of the embarrassment of finishing one sentence and not being able to follow it up with another sentence. He was anxious to fill the gap of silence between the two of them, so he said with some hesitation: "Although I didn't leave it to you, but... that side
I kept the mirror inside my clothes, and at that time, you... you didn't put my clothes..." When Shi Jin said this, he suddenly realized that he had made a mistake, and he couldn't help but regret it.
Shaoyao didn't know Shi Jin's inner struggle, and thought that Shi Jin was hinting love for her and flirting with her. Shaoyao couldn't help but think of the scene when she took off Shi Jin's clothes privately, and her cheeks started to get hot.
I was thinking about other things in my mind, so I said casually: "That's... I haven't... I haven't seen it before."
"Oh." Shi Jin responded casually and said, "Maybe I left it in the wing. I'll go look for it." After saying this, Shi Jin took a step forward and entered the wing.
Just when Shi Jin passed by her and entered the wing, Shaoyao suddenly realized that Shi Jin didn't want to use memories to cultivate the atmosphere between the two of them tonight, but was really looking for that bronze mirror.
.
Bronze Mirror... Shaoyao couldn't help but ask softly: "Bronze Mirror, is it really that important to you...?"
While searching the blood-stained wing, Shi Jin simply responded: "Well, it's..."
Before Shi Jin could say, "That's what my brother asked me to give to Aunt Hong before he left," Shaoyao interrupted him: "I know where it is. I remembered it. I've seen it."
This bronze mirror!”
Shi Jin slowly stood up and looked back at Shaoyao seriously. He could hear that there was a strange feeling in Shaoyao's tone. But it didn't seem like he was joking. The whereabouts of the bronze mirror must be
It's between Shaoyao's words.
At this moment, Shaoyao really recalled that at that time, she was still stuffed under the bed by Shi Jin. She watched with her own eyes as Aunt Hong unbuttoned Shi Jin's clothes and hugged Shi Jin horizontally. The bronze mirror
It fell to the ground at the moment when she picked it up. The crisp echo was something Shaoyao could not forget. She watched helplessly as Aunt Hong picked up the bronze mirror, carefully held it in her hands, and looked at her thoughts.
Staring heavily at the bronze mirror in front of me in a daze. At that moment, Aunt Hong seemed to be immersed in the deepest memories, and she seemed to have touched the most unpredictable part of her heart.
What impressed Shaoyao the most was that Aunt Hong, who had always regarded herself as a strong woman, sighed deeply at the end of the mirror and gently touched the smooth surface of the mirror. Her charming look was as gentle as a caress.
With the face of a lover.
And Shaoyao remembered that in the end, Aunt Hong put the bronze mirror that fell out of Shi Jin's arms into her arms and placed it on her heart.
Thinking of this, Shaoyao's heart ached again, and the stinging pain started rolling from the bottom of her heart little by little.
——Is it really that important to you?
--Um.
This dialogue once again echoed in Shaoyao's empty heart at this moment, and she suddenly felt that she already understood.