"But...but..." Chu Tianjiao was still a little hesitant. To be precise, he was a little scared.
This man who is not even afraid of "gods" actually shows a rare expression of cowardice at this moment, because the woman he loves deeply... He has been a very independent man all his life and never flinches. Only in that...
In front of the woman named Su Xiaoyan, he almost lost all his opinions.
He was not afraid of Su Xiaoyan, but he did not dare to face the love for Su Xiaoyan in his heart. He had already left that woman, so he was not qualified to love her, but he could not erase the woman's place in his heart.
, so he could only carefully hide the love that should not exist from others.
Su Xiaoyan was like a dream to him. From a long distance away, he could still look at that woman's face and recall the dream occasionally, but once he came face to face with that woman, he had no choice.
What he was worried about was not being insulted or scolded, he was worried that the other party would simply ignore him and regard him as an indifferent stranger. In this way, his dream would be shattered and he would not even be qualified to dream in the future.
"Uncle, are you afraid of meeting Aunt Su?" Lu Mingfei asked Chu Tianjiao in a low voice.
"It's not that I'm afraid of seeing her. I've actually seen her secretly many times over the years... Oh no, not in the past seven years, but seven years ago I would secretly see her five or six times almost every week." Chu Tianjiao
He scratched the back of his head and said, "Let me tell you, I don't have to wear this old face anymore. After all, you have all been to my room and you have all seen those photos."
"I'm not afraid of seeing her, but I'm afraid of her seeing me. To be precise, I'm afraid of her reaction after seeing me." Chu Tianjiao sighed.
"How do you think Aunt Su will react when she sees you?" Lu Mingfei asked curiously.
"No... I don't know." Chu Tianjiao shook his head and whispered, "I don't even dare to think about it. I have never thought about meeting her again. Seven years ago, I even planned to get rid of their mother and son's lives.
Slowly disappear. When Chu Zihang grows up, I will leave them completely.
, I will not take the initiative to show up, nor will I let them find me. I will only watch them silently where they can't see me. I no longer need happiness. In fact, their happiness is also my happiness. I am very afraid that I will appear.
In front of her, her original happiness was shattered."
Lu Mingfei opened his mouth, but did not say anything, because Chu Tianjiao's worry was not unreasonable. It was not said whether Su Xiaoyan would have any mood swings when she saw Chu Tianjiao again, but Lu Tianming obviously did not.
Although Lu Tianming may not say anything to maintain a decent image, Su Xiaoyan is willing to meet Chu Tianjiao again, but how can any man in this world be willing to see his wife's ex-husband meet his wife, let alone his stepson?
Come.
Moreover, Chu Tianjiao has already made this choice. As an outsider, it is not easy for Lu Mingfei to interfere with other people's ideas. At this time, any advice Lu Mingfei can give is inappropriate. The best thing to do is to respect Chu Tianjiao's decision.
"Happiness is not something that can be broken easily." Chu Zihang suddenly spoke. He looked at Chu Tianjiao and shook his head and said, "If just meeting your former lover once, your life will be different in the future, then...
The happiness of the mother cannot be regarded as the real happiness, because it is very fragile in the first place and will always be broken one day. Even if it is not broken today, it will be broken tomorrow or the day after tomorrow because of other things. If you want your mother to get
To be truly happy, you shouldn't be afraid to see her."
"This..." Even the eloquent Chu Tianjiao couldn't refute Chu Zihang's words, but his expression still showed hesitation, "To be honest, I'm afraid of other things besides this."
"What I'm afraid of is not that your mother will point at my nose and scold me when we meet. What I'm afraid of is not that your mother will tell me to get lost as soon as we meet. What I'm afraid of is not that she will ask me where I have been all these years and why I left you alone.
What I fear most is that she completely ignores me." Chu Tianjiao took a deep breath and said with dark eyes, "Even if I am in front of her, I can't make her have any mood swings. It's like she doesn't remember me as a person at all. We
It’s as if the previous feelings and memories don’t exist anymore, and that’s what I can’t accept.”
Chu Tianjiao's tone even trembled slightly when he said these words. Seeing the sad expression on Chu Tianjiao's face, Lu Mingfei finally understood at this moment that Chu Tianjiao had just lied to him... He said that he didn't dare at all.
Thinking about Su Xiaoyan's reaction when he met Su Xiaoyan, maybe he was really scared, but
How could he not have thought about it? After all, that was the person he loved deeply before and even to this day. No matter how much he flinched or how scared he was, the reunion with Su Xiaoyan must have played out thousands of times in his mind
He has made the best assumptions about the scenario, and he must also have made the worst assumptions.
For Chu Tianjiao, the worst result is that Su Xiaoyan treats him as a stranger. This is a result that he cannot accept, so he has been avoiding Su Xiaoyan these years and never takes the initiative to show up.
In front of him, because he was escaping... As long as he did not appear in front of Su Xiaoyan, the worst result would never happen. He could continue to live in his memories, guarding the peace and joy of the mother and son and his only
He spent the rest of his life with a little thought.
"Are you afraid that you won't do it?" Chu Zihang suddenly asked Chu Tianjiao.
Chu Tianjiao was stunned for a moment. Subconsciously, he felt that this sentence sounded familiar.
"This is what you said to me when I was a child. I didn't understand it when I was a child, but now I understand." Chu Zihang paused, looked into Chu Tianjiao's eyes, and said softly, "On that rainy night when I was separated from you.
, I understand."
Seeing Chu Zihang's eyes, Chu Tianjiao was suddenly startled.
"After I left the Nibelungen that night, there wasn't a day when I didn't think about it, and there wasn't a day when I didn't regret it, because I was scared at the time, so I lost something important to me." Chu Zihang said seriously.
, whispered to Chu Tianjiao, "I think every night, if I had
If I choose to face rather than run away, will I be more satisfied than I am now even if I die there? At that time, I understood that regret and regret are scarier things than fear. If you face what you are afraid of, the result will only be a moment.
, but regrets and regrets are likely to run through your life."
This chapter is not over yet, please click on the next page to continue reading! Chu Tianjiao’s lips trembled slightly, but he had no way to refute Chu Zihang’s words.
"You can escape for a while, or you can escape for a lifetime, but do you think you really won't regret it?" Chu Zihang asked Chu Tianjiao, "Mom has started a new life many years ago.
But you haven't yet. You have been living in your own memories. I know you love your mother very much, so you consider her and never contact her or appear in front of her. You think this is the best way.
This way she doesn't have to worry, and you don't have to worry about the worst outcome."
"But have you really thought about yourself?"
Chu Zihang asked coldly, and Chu Tianjiao's body trembled twice.
"But even if you really appear in front of your mother, what on earth would she have to worry about? If she still loves you, seeing you should be something she has always wanted to do. If she doesn't love you anymore, why would she be worried about it?
?" Chu Zihang said expressionlessly, "The real trouble is actually
It's you. If you never see your mother again for the rest of your life, will you really not regret it? You only live by a little memory and longing, because you are afraid of the result. Even if the result is not satisfactory, this longing that will never have any result will be
Is it really better than the worst possible outcome?”
Chu Tianjiao's expression was completely stunned. He never expected that Chu Zihang would say such words to him... Such a head-on remark lifted all the worries and fig leaves deep in his heart.
, but Chu Tianjiao did not feel ashamed or embarrassed, but because of Chu Zihang's words, his mood was undergoing a huge change.
"And to take a step back, just because you meet your mother, it doesn't mean that you will get back together. It's just that you meet and you don't have any fundamental conflicts. It doesn't mean that people who were once in love will become old and dead.
I don’t think my mother would think so about enemies who are close friends.” Chu Zihang paused, “Others might mind a little bit, but if it affects his future relationship with his mother just because of this incident, this can only prove that
Their relationship was already fragile."
"I... understand." Chu Tianjiao sighed after being silent for a long time, and said in a compromised tone, "You have really grown up and are more sensible than I thought. You are right, I thought too much.
It's complicated, because my feelings for your mother and my thoughts are all blocked
It's disturbing. It's just a meeting. It shouldn't be a big deal in the first place. So what if your mother treats me as a stranger? We don't have anything to do with each other now, as long as she can live a good life. For me, is it okay?
Is there any worse ending?"
"It won't be that bad." Chu Zihang said softly to Chu Tianjiao, "Although many people say that my mother is heartless, she actually has her own ideas. She is not such an emotionless person. If she really
I don’t care about you at all, and I didn’t scold you every day when I divorced you.”
"You scold me every day..." This is something Chu Tianjiao doesn't know, but it should be expected. In everyone's eyes, he was the one who abandoned Chu Zihang and his son. Such an irresponsible man.
He deserves to be scolded and severely scorned.
But knowing this, Chu Tianjiao was not upset at all. On the contrary, he was even a little happy deep down in his heart, because as Chu Zihang said, Su Xiaoyan scolded him because she cared about him. Who would waste time and care about him?
How about scolding someone you don't care about at all?
Only when the relationship is deep enough can love turn into hate... let alone scolding him every day, how much do you care about him?
In fact, many times men are such cheap creatures, just like boys in middle school. They enjoy bullying the girls they like. Seeing the girls getting angry or even angry because of them, they feel quite satisfied even if they are beaten or scolded...
...They probably think that you can make a person have such a big emotional ups and downs. You are the only one who has such ability. How important you are to her heart!
"There's only one last question." Chu Tianjiao took a deep breath, "I'm mentally prepared, but what stance should I take?"
Chu Tianjiao looked around at the circle of people. They were all friends of Chu Zihang, that is, his juniors. He was the only adult in this circle. He was followed by a group of young and handsome men and women. When walking on the street, he faced
Chu Tianjiao felt a little unnatural in the eyes of passers-by.
"As my father." Chu Zihang replied.
"I know, but as your father, isn't it weirder?" Chu Tianjiao scratched the back of his head, "My biological father went to my stepfather's house to meet his son's girlfriend, as if I have no home myself..."
After saying this, Chu Tianjiao suddenly paused, because he found that he really did not have a place that could be called "home" in this city. The small house where he lived with Su Xiaoyan and Chu Zihang was left to him.
Su Xiaoyan has been sold. The dormitory of more than ten square meters in the heavy industrial park is at best a decent place to live. It is impossible for him to take others to the secret cabin in his basement, right? If Su Xiaoyan sees it,
The things in that room must not be frightened?
"What I mean is, you can go out and book a restaurant or hotel or something, so that we can all have a meal and chat together." Chu Tianjiao said weakly, "Does it have to be at home? The little girl will also feel uncomfortable.
Bar?"
Chu Zihang looked at Chu Tianjiao, he sighed, and took out his mobile phone helplessly, opening a text message chat box for Chu Tianjiao to see.
"I'll bring my father back to talk about my marriage to Xia Mi."
This one was sent by Chu Zihang about two hours ago.
"OK."
This was the reply from the other party, ten minutes after the last text message from Chu Zihang. Chu Zihang’s note to this number was "Lu Tianming".
"Marriage?" Chu Tianjiao suddenly became energetic, "So this meeting is to talk about marriage? Why didn't you tell us about such a big thing earlier! I haven't prepared anything yet!"
"I didn't originally think so, I just wanted to find a reason to take you home." Chu Zihang said helplessly.
In fact, he still has the last half of the sentence to finish... If Chu Tianjiao and Xia Mi really meet this time, then Xia Mi will be equivalent to meeting his parents. Maybe this time, they can really have a chat.
Engagement and wedding?
After all, Lu Mingfei, Eli Yi, Caesar, Nuonuo, Ye Sheng and Jiude Aki have already entered or are about to enter the next stage of their lives. Chu Zihang is also a person with a winning mentality.
He doesn't want to fall too far behind.
"Hey, hey, hey, didn't you send a message to the gate of the community a long time ago? Why are you still here? Are you having a meeting?" From a distance, a person walked here while waving to this side, waving his big
The voice shouted here.
When everyone looked around, the first thing they saw was a happy face with a pair of happy eyebrows drooping downwards.