Chapter 1095 Separation is a regret, reunion is not
"What?" Su Xiaoyan's expression was stunned.
"I said, I love you." Chu Tianjiao looked into Su Xiaoyan's eyes, his expression was more serious and solemn than affectionate, like a devout believer swearing to God, "Actually, these years, I have always
Love you."
Su Xiaoyan's expression was stunned, her body was stunned, and her wide eyes were gleaming with surprise.
She never expected that Chu Tianjiao would suddenly say this, or say it in her home... Love, this word has disappeared from her life for too long, and today she suddenly heard it again, from a word that she had almost forgotten.
came out of the man's mouth.
"You..." Su Xiaoyan said the word "you" and fell silent again. She subconsciously wanted to scold Chu Tianjiao, and even wanted to throw the ashtray on the table into his face.
But when she saw Chu Tianjiao's expression, she was stunned... The expression on this man's face was so sad and sad, as if the three words "I love you" were not a confession, but a kind of farewell.
A complete farewell that will never appear in your life again.
Just like those nightmares Su Xiaoyan had.
Chu Tianjiao's brain told him that he had never done such a crazy thing in his life. Even if he entered the "Island of Death", even if he slashed at the "god" with a knife, in his opinion, it was not as good as the old lover in front of him.
It takes more courage to say "I love you".
Chu Tianjiao admitted that he was really a little impulsive. After Su Xiaoyan told him about her dream about him, his feelings began to get out of control... But he did not regret it, and even wanted to be more impulsive.
He wanted to rush up, hug this woman, kiss her lips until he suffocated, and then whisper in her ear to tell her how much he had missed her all these years... But he couldn't do this, because it would undoubtedly be a disservice to Su.
Xiaoyan’s injury and blasphemy.
So let's just use words, even though words can't express this love at all.
"My, I'm not drunk, nor am I going crazy. I'm very sober and I know what I'm talking about." Chu Tianjiao looked at Su Xiaoyan and said, "I actually saw you secretly a few times after I left... maybe more than
A few times, where you can't see me, because I can't help but look for you, but I'm afraid of ruining your life, I repeatedly tell myself that this is enough, this is enough, your life is very happy now
Happy, much better than when you were with me."
"I never expected to see you again, nor did I expect us to be together again. You are right, I am a bastard, selfish, I made mistakes, but I used excuses and lies to deceive myself and paralyze myself.
, living in a vicious circle of contradictions woven by oneself.”
Chu Tianjiao whispered, "I love you. I couldn't help but fall in love with you the first time I saw you. I still love you to this day. My love for you has never stopped. I'm talking about these years.
Every minute and every second of every day...but my love should never have existed in the first place.”
"What...what do you mean?" Su Xiaoyan was completely confused.
"What I'm talking about is that I fell in love with you. It was a mistake from the beginning, but I don't regret it, but I really shouldn't be with you. Many times, love can be just a matter of one person. I can do it now
, I should have been able to do it before." Chu Tianjiao said slowly, "I couldn't hold it back, so I made a mistake. I won't forgive myself, and you don't have to forgive me. You can continue to hate me and hate me.
But I will still love you all the time, this is the only thing I can't give up."
"Are you... are you under too much psychological pressure?" Su Xiaoyan asked cautiously.
She was indeed a little surprised and a little angry at first, mainly because she was a little scared. Then when Chu Tianjiao suddenly said that he loved her, there were a few moments when she felt that the man in front of her was really lost and crazy.
But she couldn't understand what Chu Tianjiao said later. She couldn't quite understand the meaning of many words... But she could feel Chu Tianjiao's tone. He was both regretful and unrepentant, like a contradictory complex.
He was happy and sad at the same time. He looked at her as if he was looking at the most beautiful thing in the world for him, which was so close in front of him but could not be touched.
Inexplicably, Su Xiaoyan felt a little pitiful about this man... This man whom she had been with day and night for many years and hadn't seen each other for many years was so familiar yet so strange. Su Xiaoyan recognized this man's face, but she didn't know what was going on in his mind.
What on earth was he thinking about? I just felt that he looked very tired, as if he had a lot of things in his heart, and he couldn't breathe under the pressure.
"No, I'm normal. I feel like I've never been so normal." Chu Tianjiao shook his head and said to Su Xiaoyan, "Maybe you can't understand what I said, but I don't want to put any burden on you by saying this.
, loving you is just my own business, all you have to do is live your life well."
"I'm living my life well." Su Xiaoyan paused, and there was a hint of concern in her words to Chu Tianjiao, "Is your life too stressful?"
"It's okay." Chu Tianjiao shook his head. He looked at Su Xiaoyan and suddenly asked, "Can I hug you?"
Su Xiaoyan was stunned for a moment. Her expression changed unconsciously. She didn't know whether to agree or refuse, but her eyes were always looking in the direction of Chu Tianjiao. She was not worried about anything other than this man.
As if he couldn't wait for Su Xiaoyan's answer, Chu Tianjiao had already taken steps. His steps were very fast and his steps were long, as if he couldn't wait to come to this woman. The first moment she responded, he stepped forward.
She hugged him.
Su Xiaoyan didn't say anything, and when she saw Chu Tianjiao approaching her, she didn't escape or step back. Her beautiful eyes twitched twice, not knowing what she was thinking, and finally she nodded lightly.
The strong body leaned forward and gently hugged Su Xiaoyan's slender body into his arms. A pair of big hands stayed on Su Xiaoyan's waist in a measured way. The warm temperature came from the palms of her hands, and her head slowly moved.
Leaning on a broad chest... a familiar chest, the long-forgotten memories were suddenly awakened. The bits and pieces of the experience with this man that had been buried deep in the memory were like fragmented movie clips.
, flashed quickly in Su Xiaoyan’s mind.
This chapter is not finished yet, please click the next page to continue reading the exciting content! This hug is not short, but the hug is actually very shallow. It cannot even be called an ambiguous hug, it is just more polite than between friends.
The sexual embrace should be a little deeper
...But Su Xiaoyan could feel the man's hot feelings, just like the hot temperature on his body. The man's body couldn't help but tremble. It was probably because he was holding back his emotional impulse towards her and didn't want to let himself do something.
What's more transgressive and might hurt her?
From this distance, Su Xiaoyan could even hear the man's wildly beating heartbeat.
"This is probably the last time I will be selfish." Chu Tianjiao whispered in Su Xiaoyan's ear in a voice that she could barely hear, "Thank you."
Until the second hand on the wall jumped a full circle, Chu Tianjiao slowly let go of Su Xiaoyan's body. He took several deep breaths in succession, like a thief who had just stolen something and was almost caught by the owner, trying his best to calm himself down.
mood.
"It's just this once, it won't happen next time." Su Xiaoyan turned her head, smoothed her hair which was not messy, and warned Chu Tianjiao, "How will I explain this if my husband sees it?"
"The tracker's love?" Chu Tianjiao seemed to have returned to the middle-aged man with a playful smile and a smooth tone. "It sounds quite exciting, like stealing the sun."
"You're a big-headed idiot!" Su Xiaoyan snorted fiercely, "How old are you? You don't think you're very humorous, do you?"
"Okay, okay, I was wrong." Chu Tianjiao raised his hands in a gesture of surrender, "Actually, I'm quite grateful to your husband. He took good care of you, and at least he didn't treat you badly. That's why I could bear to leave my shoe prints there just now.
The rush on the guy’s face.”
"Why do you hit people?" Su Xiaoyan glanced at Chu Tianjiao, "Do you care whether people treat me well or not? No matter what, at least they will be better than you treating me."
"Yes, yes, all men in the world are better than me, and I am the worst." Chu Tianjiao said with a typical two-skinned face, "Little girls like bad men, but only mature ladies like good men, right?"
"Who are you calling an old lady?" Su Xiaoyan raised her eyebrows.
"Oh, I didn't mention her by name. The old lady who was scolded should be angry, right?" Chu Tianjiao kept saying something mean. He looked left and right, "Speaking of which, your home is really spacious, with a big villa and
The staff dormitories are just different.”
"Thankfully, I think you have changed a bit." Su Xiaoyan said helplessly, "You are really the same as before."
"Really? Do you still remember what I was like before?" Chu Tianjiao chuckled, "It seems I left a pretty deep impression on you."
"I have almost forgotten everything else. I just remember that you always smell like stewed intestines." Su Xiaoyan pinched her nose.
"By the way, are there braised large intestines in the dishes prepared today?" Chu Tianjiao showed an expectant and humble expression.
"I'll give you some damn braised intestines." Su Xiaoyan rolled her eyes.
…
Chu Tianjiao seemed to have vented all his thoughts and feelings towards his beloved woman over the years in just a few minutes, and then they returned to their normal relationship... although they had never gotten along in this kind of relationship before.
, but anyone who looks at it will not think that these two people are old lovers, but more like childhood sweethearts or old classmates who often quarreled in school.
Thoughts and love are undoubtedly rich, and a few minutes is too short. Of course, it cannot express twenty years of love...but so what? Just like many times a broken mirror cannot be reunited, and only a little bit of the past can be pieced together.
The corners should be enough. There are too many helpless things in this world, and there are too many unsatisfactory things. In the journey of life, you should cherish the people who pass by each other. Separation is a regret, but reunion is definitely not.
About ten minutes later, Lu Mingfei poked his head into the living room from the backyard. He took a few glances at Chu Tianjiao and Su Xiaoyan, who were not too close to each other on the sofa.
"Mingfei, what's wrong?" Su Xiaoyan found Lu Mingfei acting like a thief.
"It's okay, it's just a matter of whether it's right...oh no." Lu Mingfei changed his words, "It's just to see if uncle and auntie are still chatting."
"What's the inconvenience?" Chu Tianjiao waved to Lu Mingfei, "Stop hiding in the yard, you are a bit too deliberate."
"Ahem...Okay." Lu Mingfei nodded to Chu Tianjiao, then turned to everyone in the yard and announced, "Brothers, the alarm has been lifted, the alarm has been lifted, entry into the living room is allowed."
"Are you stupid at the game?" Nuonuo complained, pushing Lu Mingfei into the house.
"Junior sister, what do you know? Junior brother's caution is right. I was right about the person. Xiaolu has the potential to be my successor as the head of the Information Department." Fingel stood by the Mingfei faction this time.
Chu Zihang also walked into the room. His eyes glanced at Su Xiaoyan, and then at Chu Tianjiao... There was already a super eighth wife hidden in this guy's heart, and this time the target was again
They were his biological parents, and Chu Zihang's heart was afraid that he would activate his explosive domineering body Eight Door Dunjia and fly out of his heart.
After so many years, these two people finally appeared in front of him at the same time, and Chu Zihang always felt as if he was in another world.
In fact, not only Chu Zihang, but other people's eyes couldn't help but wander back and forth between Su Xiaoyan and Chu Tianjiao... After all, they were alone and once a married couple, so being alone in a room would inevitably make people have wild thoughts.
Fingel stretched his head, closed his eyes, and twitched his nose at high speed.
"What are you doing?" Nono pushed the guy's shoulder, "Are you rabid?"
"Don't make trouble, junior sister." Fingel shook his head, "I'm smelling the gossip in the air."
At the same time, footsteps were heard on the stairs.
"I smell it! The strongest smell of gossip!" Fingel tilted his head in a certain direction and suddenly opened his eyes, just in time to meet Lu Tianming's gaze as he came down the stairs.
Lu Tianming's steps paused, and Fingel's neck also shrank back.
"If you talk nonsense again, your tongue will be pickled!" Nuonuo warned an unscrupulous paparazzi in a vicious low voice.
"Are you ready to eat?" Su Xiaoyan got up from the sofa and walked to Lu Tianming.
"Aunt Tong and the others should be almost ready." Lu Tianming pointed in the direction of the restaurant, "Let's take a seat too."
The dining room of Chu House is a huge independent space. Apart from the courtyard and the living room, the dining room is probably the largest area in the entire house.
A huge round table that can accommodate at least twenty people is placed in the center of the restaurant. In the center of the round table is a misty landscape tablescape. The dishes prepared by Aunt Tong and Chu Tianjiao's specially hired chefs are lying on the table.
On the exquisite gilded dinner plate, there are more than twice as many kinds of dishes as there are heads of people present.
Although Lu Tianming is a wealthy man, he usually doesn't do it so formally at home, and even formality is a bit too formal... Obviously this is a meal with another meaning, just as Chu Zihang guessed
In that case, before they came, Su Xiaoyan and Lu Tianming might have planned to take advantage of today's opportunity to talk about something important.