I have insomnia and can’t sleep. Sometimes I want to put down the rhythm of renewal and cultivate my body, but I can’t trust you. To be honest, you have made me successful, given me a paradise, and protected me. Some people scold me for supporting me.
Me, the one I care about the most here is you. I am a very emotional person. Although I have only had private drinks with a few readers who are close to me, I really care about you brothers. I have been writing this for four years.
I have written 20 million words, and I am almost tired of writing. Some brothers asked me why I don’t publish more. It’s not that I don’t want to publish more. It’s because my inspiration is not as good as before. Inspiration is consumed faster than it rises. Now I write five
I try my best. I used to do it easily, but now I have written too much. Twenty million words is the amount of updates that an author can complete in ten years. To be honest, I don’t know how to update in this state.
How long can it last? If one day in October I can no longer write five updates a day, I hope brothers will not blame me and think that I am weak. It is actually quite hard to work in our industry. It is not a technical job. What I write is different every day.
It's so nerve-wracking.
It’s too nerve-wracking, and it doesn’t mean that the work we do is so sophisticated, but what we write is always different every day. I used to repair cars, and the car was just these parts, the pressure box, engine, tires, and circuits. If you control them, you can last a lifetime.
Even if the car is updated, the update speed is not as fast as our learning speed.
Different authors write different things every day. A successful author can update every few days. Because others are not short of money, I am different. I don’t have a house or a car. I lack everything, so I work hard every day.
Five updates, persisting for more than four years, although now there is still nothing.
I can't stand it anymore. My ability to maintain five updates is now my limit. It's not that I'm miserable, it's because I write too much. I used to only need forty minutes to write a chapter, but now it takes me more than an hour to think.
, Why, because I can’t keep repeating the things and routines I wrote before. I have to update myself and change myself. The difficulty is here. Things in terms of ideas and inspiration are not so easy to think about.
I'm only twenty-four, and now I'm losing my hair and sleeping all night. I don't know what I'll be like in the future. Anyway, I'll try my best to write. If I can do five updates, I'll do it. If one day I can't do five updates, it will definitely be because I'm in a state of perseverance.
I can’t stand it any longer. I’d like to say hello to my brothers in advance. Because of sitting for a long time and staying up late and suffering from insomnia, the golden elixir in my kidneys has begun to condense again??, my protagonist has been resisting fate, and so am I. My life has been quite miserable, with ups and downs.
, jail time, everything at a young age, I have experienced it all, but I am not convinced that my life has been so mediocre, so I work hard.
But sometimes I have to accept fate, this bastard. To be honest, novels were my dream before, and later became my career. What makes me persevere is your company and following.
After working hard for so many years, I still haven't been able to complete the dream I had when I wrote my first book. I invite all the brothers who like me to gather together. If I can pay for the fare, let's have a drink together, like Luo Yu's Summit Party.
Like Mu Feng's Tianfeng, like Xiang Chen's Yanhuang.
Those of you in the early days may remember this wish I said, but most of you may have forgotten it, but I still remember it, because I have never been able to realize this wish. Now that I am older, when I was bragging about this bragging competition, today's brothers
Either they have forgotten me, or they have their own families and are running around, but I still remember it. Unfortunately, I have not been able to complete the cattle batch that year. I really want to drink old wine with you two people who accompany me, and listen to your opinions.
Stories will accompany you to laugh and scold, and accompany you to complain about life.
So far, I am still a loser in my own mind, but I hope you will be more successful than me and have a better mentality than me. I hope you have not lived this life in vain. Being mediocre is nothing. Ninety-eight percent of people in the world are mediocre. I hope
As long as my 2% brothers are happy, everyone's wishes may not come true. I hope you have a good attitude and spend this life happily.
I feel that wealth and fame are not the most important thing in life. Happiness, oneself, and family are. Although I feel that, I have not been able to cultivate my heart, so I cannot avoid being secular.
——The flow of October
(I’ve laid out so much just to say that I’ve had insomnia and the update may be late tomorrow, haha.)