"Actually, I think what you said is very reasonable."
I leaned against the door frame, stretched out my hand, and helped Shen Shi straighten the hair that was stuck to her lips: "I know that my current behavior is a bit irrational, but people are emotional animals after all, and it is impossible to be absolutely rational.
Yes, as you said, I can totally not take risks now and let her fend for herself.
But have you ever thought that if I really do this, maybe one day in the future, when I have cleared the obstacles in front of me, achieved my life goals, and started to enjoy life, maybe I will forget everything about today, But if it suddenly pops up in my mind, will it make me feel stuck in my throat, will it stick like a needle across my heart, keeping me up all night, filled with self-blame, guilt and regret?
Maybe you don’t understand, this is the real inner demon, a knot that won’t kill you, but can make you restless for the rest of your life. Then again, I know what I’m doing now is not rational. But it will at least give me a clear conscience for the rest of my life, and that’s enough.”
I don't know if Shen Shi can understand it.
But it seems that women's brain circuits are different. She did not continue to struggle with this topic, but asked me: "Is that woman in a relationship with you? Otherwise, she wouldn't even risk her life for you. .”
"No, that's my college classmate."
"You still went to college?"
Shen Shi showed surprise at first, but was quickly denied by herself: "Oh, yes, you said you were from the Normal University.
But Gu Yan, I just heard from your friend that you have lived for many, many years. I guess there must be a lot of similar things happening in these years. However, a college classmate made you so top-notch. If I really had you. It’s so serious, wouldn’t it be that you can’t suppress your inner demons a long time ago?”
"What you are asking is really not nutritious at all."
Afraid that Zhuo Yi would get impatient while waiting, I told Shen Shi as I walked out: "We have talked to this extent, don't you understand? We are college classmates, but we are definitely not ordinary college classmates.
I'm not a bad person. Even if someone I meet by chance dies because of me, the most I can do is pay homage to him during the holidays. If I can mobilize people to take risks for her, it must be because she has paid more for me. , otherwise you think I’m just sitting here to impress myself?”
My legs are longer than hers, and my steps are long, so Shen Shi had to jog to catch up with me.
I heard her panting and asking: "Okay, I understand, but I'm still a little curious. Can you tell me whether you and your college classmate are in a relationship?"
"Does it have anything to do with you?"
"It has nothing to do with me, but I am curious and want to know what the mental processes of legendary characters like you are like."
At the last second before leaving the hotel, Shen Shi hurriedly stopped in front of me: "Anyway, your life or death is uncertain now, and whether we can meet in the future is unknown, so please satisfy my curiosity. "
I really wanted to give her a thumbs up for her nagging: "Can you speak?"
"I have low emotional intelligence. Otherwise, how could I be single till now?"
Maybe because she got to know me all day and night, Shen Shi's characteristic fierceness of a Northeastern girl emerged again: "Tell me, you can't lose a piece of meat, why are you so fake?" Woolen cloth?"
‘Beep, beep’
The horn of the car at the door honked twice, and then Zhuo Yi, who was sitting behind, rolled down the window: "You haven't chatted enough yet, Gu Yan, hurry up and get in the car."
"Right away, one minute."
I stretched out a finger towards Zhuo Yi, and then Zhuo Yi rolled his eyes and rolled up the car window again.
As a result, Chen Shi was happy at this time: "Is this minute used to answer my questions?"
"Okay, I will be merciful and satisfy your curiosity."
I stared at Shen Shi helplessly, and I organized the words in my mind: "You're probably half right, I have a slight crush on her, but I can't talk about love.
But she is the kind of person with a love brain. From the day she first met me, she has already imagined the scene of us being buried together after death. Can you understand what I am describing?"
"I understand, I understand."
Shen Shi nodded quickly a few times, but there was a look in her eyes that said, "I know you are being tough": "All men are duplicitous animals, and they have to risk their lives to save others. , you still say you don’t like it, isn’t it hypocritical?”
"There's no duplicity. I really just have a good impression of her, but it hasn't reached the level of love yet."
"It's okay, no need to explain to me, I believe whatever you say."
Shen Shi pursed her lips and smiled: "I still have a good impression of Peng Yuyan, but if Peng Yuyan is kidnapped, I will definitely not use money to ransom him, so you just have to know whether you like him or not."
I really didn't expect Shen Shi to learn to be a guest.
After she said these words, she turned away and left without giving me a chance to defend herself. I had so much energy that I couldn't put it to use. I couldn't drag her back to explain. Isn't that a cover-up?
Besides, there was no point in talking to her about it, so I put the matter behind me, turned around and walked in the direction of Zhuo Yi's car.
But at this time, Shen Shi, who was walking to the stairs, suddenly shouted: "Gu Yan, please remember, we have agreed that I will stay with you these days, so if you die outside, then forget it You broke your promise, even if you go to the underworld, the inner demon will still come out to torture you, so you have to come back, do you hear me?"
I turned my head and saw Shen Shi leaning on the armrest and giving me a thumbs up.
Her gesture immediately amused me, and I gave her the middle finger as if it was a joke, then bent down and got into the car.
As soon as her butt touched the seat, she heard Zhuo Yi grinning and asking: "Are you two dating here?"
I deliberately made her angry: "Yes, this little girl is quite interesting. I plan to accept her when I come back."
"You're just bragging about your skills these days, but you'll be done with it once you get to the real level."
Knowing that I was talking nonsense, Zhuo Yi stopped talking: "When you didn't come out just now, Daniel called me twice and said that he seemed to have discovered Yu Chi."
"Where was it found?"
"Just where they settled, Yu Chi came out of a room with two demon guards and got into the car. They haven't come back yet."
Zhuo Yi shook his cell phone: "He urged us to hurry up so that we could sneak in to find Zhang Qi while Yu Chi went out, so if you lingered for a while just now, I would go down and kill you. "