I don’t know when I started to feel the time when I started to write. Time flies, youth is fleeting, and I also feel sad about fate. Feng Tang Yi Lao, Li Guang is hard to seal. I don’t know when I started, slowly I feel that I can’t help myself.
This sentence has personal experience.
I graduated from a similar university in 2015 and joined a similar state-owned construction enterprise. However, when I first started working, both the working environment and the content of the work were completely different from what I expected. What I imagined about joining the job
It should look like sitting in a clean and tidy tall office building, sipping coffee and typing on the keyboard, looking at the wild clouds outside the window from time to time, and basking in the warm sun. But in reality, the office building of the unit is in a building
In the dilapidated three-story building, the dormitory is a canopy bed for eight people. The most terrifying thing is that there is only one toilet on the third floor, so I even have to take a taxi to the Internet cafe in the morning to use the toilet.
Looking at the old quality officers and safety officers in the project department, do you think I will be like this in the future? Of course, the more important thing is money. During the internship period, I received 3444.4 per month after deducting five insurances and one housing fund. This money
I have been paid for a year, and my income is very regular. The funny thing is that my salary is very irregular. If it is fast, it will be paid every two to three months. If it is slow, it will be paid once every three or four months. I have been out of work for the last two months of my salary for three months.
I just got it. What's outrageous is that after a year, I got a regular salary increase of only 300 yuan. I asked my former classmates and they all got a lot of salary increase. 300 yuan is really pitiful. In addition, I knew that my cousin with poor grades at home had found a job.
, I could still earn more than 5,000 yuan a month, which became the last straw that broke the camel's back. So, I said no to the world for the first time, and I resigned after working for one year.
After I left my job, I wanted to find a high-paying job, but I studied administration in college. Even though the college was passable, the major was so rubbish that no big companies would offer high salaries to people with this major.
Salary. Adhering to the goal of high salary, I immediately made a major decision and joined the mighty army of transcoding.
Fortunately, my mind is still sharp, and I struggled to learn, but I finally squeezed into this industry with the help of my resume. My income has increased a bit, but I underestimated this industry, and I also underestimated myself. It has doubled exponentially.
The workload, the exponential increase in work pressure, and the heavy pressure made the salary of several thousand a month suddenly become unsatisfactory.
During this time, the family had financial problems. In fact, this hole had been buried seven or eight years ago, but it only came out during that period. I thought I could help the family save some money, and also realize my own house saving.
I wanted to find a wife, so I basically lived in a dilapidated, old house without heating for the past few years while working as a programmer. In this way, I have been floating in the world of programmers for nearly five years, and of course I have saved a little.
It is true that the longer I work in this industry, I find that I really don’t like this industry and can’t devote the energy to study it. Due to my status, it is difficult for me to enter a real big factory, and the salary cannot reach such a terrifying level. In addition, on weekdays,
There is really no point in working overtime day and night. Forget about hair loss, the main thing is to stay until the age of 35 and basically become G. Under the law of siege, I start to miss the iron rice bowl. At least I can still make a living in my fifties and sixties.
To be fair, I don’t yearn for the busy traffic and bustling lights of big cities. I am originally a very home-loving person. For me, a county town is enough to support my dreams, life, and even my life. It’s just that life forces me to wander around and want to do something.
Money, if my father could buy me a house in the county, or just buy a car worth more than 100,000 yuan, I would most likely not leave that eight-person room.
In 2020, the new crown epidemic began to wreak havoc in the land of China. The biggest inconvenience it brought to me was traveling. An epidemic made it even more difficult for a person who was originally wandering and could only go home during seven-day holidays such as National Day and Spring Festival to go home. This is also
This means that it is more difficult for me to see my grandma. As I grow older, I realize more and more that I am just an ordinary member of this crowd of living beings. The more gray hair and deep wrinkles I see in my grandma, the more I
I really want to go back to my grandma.
With the support of my dream, I planned to start writing novels, hoping to become famous and rich overnight. Unfortunately, under the high pressure of work, my writing was intermittent.
I stopped at 60,000 to 70,000 words.
In 2021, I got married. In fact, I didn’t want to get married because I felt unworthy. At that time, I only had enough money to make a down payment in Xi’an, and I could only look at houses in the suburbs. I really didn’t want to bear the burden of half a lifetime.
My family doesn’t have any skills that need to be inherited by future generations, and I don’t feel that it is necessary to continue my poor bloodline, but it is really not worth the painstaking words of my grandma. So these are not important. What is important is that I got married.
In other words, I am writing code in Xi'an and have a daughter-in-law in my hometown thousands of miles away.
Since then, with the double buffs of my grandma and daughter-in-law, my determination to return home has become stronger and stronger.
In 2022, another state-owned enterprise coincides with the opening of campus recruitment. An old friend of mine worked in a newly opened project department of this company. This project department is an hour and a half drive from my hometown. At that moment, I felt like I was grasping the last life-saving straw, and I died.
I acted like a horse doctor, wrote a letter of recommendation, sent my resume, made phone calls, and rushed to the project department. It seems inappropriate to say that there is no end to the road, so I will say a compromise, which is called never forgetting.
There was a response, and I finally passed the interview with the company and came to this project department, which is less than an hour and a half away from home.
I resigned from the software company at the end of June and packed up all the money I had accumulated over the past five years and mailed it home. The postage cost almost a thousand dollars. After I reported to the project department in early July, I looked at the brand new project department and then watched the leader directly decide for me.
As office director, I feel that my life is alive again, full of sunshine and rain.
In the second half of 2022, I feel that I have had the best time in the past seven years. I bought a house in my hometown with full payment and no mortgage. The new working environment is good, the work pressure is low, the work tasks are not heavy, and I can still earn a monthly salary.
Returning home in a month is really not a word that can be described as pleasant. Of course, the only drawback is the sharp drop in salary, so I picked up the pen again and wanted to finish the novel I planned three years ago. Anyway,
Since I have so much time, let's see if I can increase my income.
I just started working, I chose the 17K platform and started writing in August. I wrote almost 340,000 words until the end of December. But unfortunately, all formal signing applications failed. Only one-click direct signing was approved. I suddenly got excited.
I signed it. Only after I signed did I realize that this thing is extremely pitfalls. There is no guarantee and all kinds of rubbish. I communicated with the editor who never paid attention to you. I have not made a penny from the platform. I wanted to spend some money to terminate the contract but was rejected.
This directly caused my enthusiasm for writing to be greatly reduced.
Thousands of words condensed into four words, I am Shabi. Anyway, I have time. If I can’t make money, I can’t make money. I can finish writing the story that I have already conceived in my heart and give myself an explanation. It will be considered as if I have spent more than ten years in vain.
Years of online writing career.
But things will never go in the direction you want. There will always be various obstacles along the way, and of course there are sweet obstacles. In early January 2023, my wife gave birth to a baby girl, who was very cute. The moment I saw my baby, I
I cried for a long time, unable to suppress my inner emotions at all. Although I had wiped out all my five years of savings to buy a house, I just wanted to give the whole world to her, to my little cutie. Apart from the joy of the birth of my child, I also wanted to give her the whole world.
The reason behind it is dedication, so my wife gave birth to a baby and stopped updating for more than a month.
I thought about writing it when I returned to my workplace after the new year. After all, the past few months were the best proof. But I still simplified the problem. A few days after the new year, the project department was called to Xi'an to help with the annual meeting.
Things came and went for half a month and disappeared. After I returned to the project department again, various tasks, assessments, and problems came to me like a tide, compressing my time to not much left. The complex personnel of state-owned enterprises
The relationship made me tired of dealing with it, and I deeply felt that the position of office director was difficult. The law of siege even came to my mind, and I ran away with the bucket.
I don’t know if I can finish writing this book, how long it will take to write, and I don’t know where my future is. I can only take one step and take a look... (PS: I’m tired of typing and don’t want to write anymore, so I wrote this in my notes.