Not long after we went out, the wind and snow became heavier and heavier.
It's not too late yet, there are no traces of people on the road, and not a single car can be seen.
In the dark wilderness, only the howling of the wind and snow was left, covering up all the footsteps.
The sinking feeling of stepping on deep snow also makes people gradually numb.
Step on, lift up, repeat over and over again.
After walking for a while, Morimi raised his umbrella and turned around to make sure Naruse was still with him.
The two of them had been walking in silence for a while. After he said he wanted to take her home, he remained silent.
His shoulders and head were all white, and even the snow showed that he was worried.
She came closer and said, "Naruse."
He didn't hear it.
"Naruse!"
"..."
He finally raised his gaze and said, "Yeah."
Mori Jian held the umbrella sideways and turned to look at him, "Come in."
Patting the snow on his body, he lowered his head and got under the umbrella, took the umbrella over and tilted it towards her.
A little isolated from the wind and snow, the voices when speaking to each other became clearer.
"You seem to be absent-minded."
"Your home is too far away."
"It's what you want to give."
"Yeah."
"..."
Morimi turned to look at him and had to be more direct: "What happened?"
Naruse was silent for a moment, "Absolutely."
"If you send me home because you want to find someone to talk to about this matter, then it's best to speak early. My home is not far away," Morimi said.
"..."
He finally smiled, not sure if it was considered an admission.
He raised his umbrella and looked ahead, seeing nothing in the wind and snow.
But he still remembered that they had just turned around from the intersection not long ago.
"Isn't it still far away?"
Morimi looked at him without saying anything.
Naruse pursed his lips and said, "Haixing said he would not come to my house again tomorrow."
She was startled for a moment, and the scene when she waited for her in the morning suddenly appeared in her mind.
"Has she given up?"
"Yeah."
"What I said is..."
"——That's what I said."
Have you really given up?
Morimi opened his mouth, and after a while he asked: "What happened today?"
"It's the same as the past few days." Naruse said, slightly concealing part of the actual situation. "She wanted to stay overnight, but I didn't agree. She took a shower and went back."
Morimi frowned, "That's it?"
"On the way to send her back, she said she would never come again."
"A little more detail."
"...She cried for a while."
Morimi suddenly raised her gaze and stared at his face, "Did Naruse bully her again?"
"If rejection is considered bullying."
She pursed her lower lip and had nothing to say.
The two of them continued walking forward.
"Are you sure that what Haixing said about giving up was not an angry comment?"
Recalling the determination that appeared on her face, Naruse shook his head, "Not this time."
"This time...how many times did you reject her?"
"Subjectively, I have always refused."
Morimi turned to look at him and looked forward.
Something probably happened between the two of them a long time ago...
"I didn't expect the starfish to be so persistent."
"I also think she should have given up long ago."
After all, from the past to now, he has only hurt her more, he thought.
Morimi slowly exhaled.
"Haixing can be very stubborn sometimes... hasn't she always been like this?"
She is always stubborn when she shouldn't be.
Naruse just nodded, and Morimi also pondered silently.
The wind and snow suddenly became more violent.
Naruse held the umbrella tightly and turned to the side where the wind was blowing, using the umbrella and his body to resist it.
"Naruse has always rejected Haixing because of Naoko." Morimi said suddenly.
He glanced at her and said, "Yeah."
She lowered her eyes, hesitated to speak, and finally said:
"In this case, if Naruse chooses to date Naoko, all the problems... Haixing's problem will be solved, right?"
I still said it...
Morimi waited for his response, and he was silent for more than half a minute.
"This is my monk's choice."
"What?"
He did not explain, but asked: "How does Morimi understand the so-called love or like?"
She was startled for a moment.
"The so-called love is an emotion that will naturally arise after being together for a long time...I'm not sure."
"I think love or liking is a consumable product."
"Eh..."
He looked at the darkness ahead.
"Just like perfume, once it is opened, it will continue to evaporate...sooner or later, there will be no trace left."
Most of what he saw and heard was like this.
"..."
Morimi turned to look at him, frowning.
Only now did she realize that he actually had such a negative attitude towards such positive emotions.
Perfume that keeps evaporating and becomes less and less?
It's obvious that Shangzi likes him so much that it overflows...
She suddenly thought that it had been six months since he returned to Shangzi.
And what did he experience during his four years in Tokyo?
...Only what she knows are two failed family reorganizations.
I also know a little bit about his experience of hanging out with bad guys in middle school.
The two walked forward in silence.
After a while, Morimi slowly took a breath.
"Love will be consumed, this is inevitable...but in addition to consumption, love will also accumulate."
Naruse looked at her.
"When accumulation is greater than consumption, love will increase." She continued.
"Really?"
"Isn't that right?" Morimi looked at him and asked.
"That's right... but accumulation is just a simple thing, and a small thing will consume love, such as picking the wrong color of a gift." Naruse couldn't help but think of some past episodes, "Destruction is always easier than construction, maybe
Just in a moment..."
She couldn't help it, "Can't you think of something better?"
"I have tried my best to think for the best."
Morimi stared at him: "Then you are probably sick."
"Maybe."
"Let's go to Soya Hospital tomorrow."
"Isn't there only internal medicine and orthopedics there?"
"..."
She stared at him for a while and sighed.
"I have never thought that this is the reason why you and Shangzi have not been in contact."
Naruse said nothing.
"Shangzi, do you understand what you think?"
"Yeah."
"How do you know?" She was sure he hadn't asked.
"Because she is Naoko." Naruse said.
"..."
Morimi took a deep breath.
"So, do you plan to keep the current situation with Shangzi?"
"Shangzi and I still have a lot of time."
"This is just your selfish idea."
"That's my monk's business, and it won't involve other people. If someone accidentally gets involved, I will advise her to leave...just like a starfish."
"..."
She was speechless and quickly turned away.
During the second half of the journey, Morimi remained silent.
Naruse remained silent until he sent her home.
"Arrived."
"Thank you."
"I'm going back."
Morimi stood at the door, "I shouldn't have asked you to send me back. No, I shouldn't have talked about this kind of topic with you in the first place."
Naruse didn't want to speak and nodded.
She looked at him for a while.
"Is there anything between you and Haixing that you haven't told me yet?"
"Yes."
"Can you tell me?"
"Can't."
Morimi paused, "Then can you and Haixing still be friends in the future?"
Naruse shook his head, "I don't know either."
"If we really break up our relationship, I will stand by Haixing. Anyway, you just have Shangzi."
Naruse twitched the corner of his mouth and forced a smile.
"Whatever you want."
Morimi will say no more.
"Take the umbrella back, good night."
"Good night."
After leaving Morimi's house, Naruse walked alone in the snow, and it took more than twenty minutes to get home.
"Come back."
Shangzi took the umbrella from his hand, shook the snow off it, and put it aside.
He had sent her a message before sending Mori back home.
The two sat back on the sofa and continued watching TV.
At a certain moment, Shangzi turned to look at him: "What's wrong?"
He seems to have something to say.
"It's okay..."
He denied it at first, then shook his head.
"No, I just want to ask, does Shangzi feel uneasy...sometimes."
"..."
She was startled for a moment and smiled to reassure him.
"No, as long as Chunhai is still with me."
"...Is this okay?"
"That's good."
He nodded slowly.
"I will."
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