This process is extremely painful, just like a surgeon performing a full day of high-intensity surgery.
But he believes that he can definitely do it!
Countless years have passed like this, and some special memories can't help but come to mind.
When he was sixteen years old, he was kicked out by his landlord because the last rent paid by a kindhearted person had been used up. He had to go to school and find a place to live to support himself. He relied on his eloquence and the presence of a fiddler every day.
He was studying skills and working part-time at a coffee shop in Changchun. He was obviously just a student who had just entered high school, but he shouldered a burden that was unimaginable for his peers.
Although my grades are always first in the grade, I have to leave early every day after eating the cheapest lunch at school and go back to the coffee shop to work.
I finished my homework in the small rental car and it was already twelve o'clock in the middle of the night when I finished it.
Lying on the railing of the small balcony, looking at the moon hanging high in the sky, the bright white moonlight covered his face like a hazy gauze, just like the protagonist at a feast, making him surprisingly peaceful.
Sometimes he couldn't help but wonder, what's the point of living so hard in this world?
Running back and forth for a living every day, working tirelessly for a meal, but there is no one he cares about in this huge world. His parents died before he knew anything. What else can he say? Bad luck and a miserable life.
?
No, he is worse than that.
The worst case scenario is that he can find a feng shui treasured place and hang himself to death? It would be an honor to share the same death method as Chongzhen.
This idea is like something sent from heaven. Once it appears, it is like a brand that is difficult to erase. Every time I encounter setbacks, I will think of it and finally get up in embarrassment. This idea becomes more and more profound.
Until one day, when he was on his way home after finishing his work in a coffee shop and buying groceries, he saw a girl holding a drawing board by the big light in the square. He stood aside and took a quick look and understood that she was
She is doing portraits, sketches, oil paintings, Q-Boards, magic modifications for passers-by... She does it all and charges 30 Soft Girl Coins for each order.
Jiang Qi quietly came up behind her and saw her painting. It was so lifelike... It was as if her soul had been added to it. It was not as rigid as other paintings, and the modifications were just right. He was simply a born painter.
After finishing a painting, receiving the money, and having some free time, Jiang Qi noticed her appearance.
She was a girl with a slim figure and fair skin. Her green eyes were filled with strange strength. She had a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes, and her well-raised eyebrows gave her a sense of charm, but combined with her whole face
Looking at the face, I can't see any artificiality or green tea feeling.
At first glance, it looks like a cosplayer cosplaying Seraphine.
Oval face, small lips, high nose bridge, long and straight black hair, cute dimples when she smiles... everything is so natural and beautiful.
In order to see her more fully, Jiang Qi unknowingly came not far away from her. There were no guests now. The girl also noticed the young man who was carrying a bag full of vegetables in one hand and with tired eyes on his face.
, the originally handsome face has been somewhat obscured by life, but it is a little more mature.
He looks about the same age as her.
She tilted her head, left the cover of the drawing board, and smiled sweetly at him, "Hello, classmate~"
Her smile was so naive and innocent that it immediately stunned him.
Jiang Qi also noticed his gaffe, quickly straightened out his stiff expression, forced an ugly smile, and responded, now he really looks like a high school student who is too young to be young.
But what he didn't know was that at this time, he looked like a normal high school student.
Before the guests came, the two of them were under the cover of the drawing board. The girl sat on a small stool and Jiang Qi sat on the edge of the flower bed very close to each other. They chatted with each other, talking about their interests and studies.
, talk about life, talk about life...
After some conversation, Jiang Qi also learned the girl’s name: Shi Xuan.
"In the past, when great achievements were made in the world, Shen Bi belonged to his son; when he valued China, he held the calendar, and when he maintained balance, he supported Xuan."
This name means precious...
Taking Shi as the surname, the common people of Shangtang...
Her situation is actually "similar but similar" to Jiang Qi's.
Her father was seriously ill, and all the family's savings were spent on medical treatment. Life was very tight, so she came out to "set up a stall" in order to share the family's expenses. Jiang Qi also knew that the "funds" required for art students were very high...
The more they got to know each other, the more Jiang Qi marveled at this girl's diligence and courage, while Shi Xuan was also amazed at Jiang Qi's persistence and hard work in life, and the more the two chatted, the more they became more and more excited.
Jiang Qi told her the idea of committing suicide that had been lingering in his mind for a long time. Although he and Shi Xuan almost met by chance, he didn't know why, but he wanted to tell her, or he just wanted to find someone to talk to.
Shi Xuan looked at her phone, stood up, and while cleaning up the stall, she told Jiang Qi, "You said you only thought of committing suicide when there was no one you cared about in the world, so why not find one?"
"Where can I find it... I have no relatives or friends, and no one who cares about me." Jiang Qi smiled helplessly.
"But you care about yourself. Live hard, study hard, and work hard. Isn't it because you care about yourself that you do it? Why can't that person be yourself? Next, live for yourself.
Jiang Qi!"
Under the dim light of the light, her back seemed to be imprinted on Jiang Qi's heart, becoming a bright light.
Sometimes, that gentle voice still echoes in his ears, dispelling his thoughts of committing suicide, and truly makes him an egoist, truly living for himself.
In the end, he could not forget this person.
His parents gave him life, and God could not change his mind, but it was this girl who gave him new life...
Because of this, he was able to overcome obstacles and try hard to make things work if he couldn't do them! No matter how difficult things were, people like him were afraid of him.
He will seize any opportunity to improve, because he is a person who has seen the darkest days.
Everything was because of that girl, who made him know what it felt like to work hard for himself to live!
"Come on! Isn't it the spine? Today, even the lumbar disc herniation will be corrected for you!" Jiang Qi roared in his heart.
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At this time, in the team's channel.
[Yitang: @祁, we sneaked into the database of the lighthouse and found that the emotions of living things are actually one of the main causes of fluctuations in the quality of life. When human emotions fluctuate violently, fear, happiness, happiness, and anger will all become attractions.