The air in the room is warm, and the winter snow scene makes the inside and outside of the room bright! Amidst the sound of He reading, Jin'er will always think of that late autumn incident.
It was a night when fireflies no longer appeared. The flames would shine through the cover of the lantern into a patch of orange-red in the courtyard, setting off the garden rocks in the courtyard. That late autumn scenery, to Jin'er, always seemed like
There was a smoke screen of ambiguity. Sister Yunzhu's illness was a surprise to both her and Ning Yi.
During this period, Ning Yi was probably the first person to react. Soon after, things were separated from Yunzhu one by one. In fact, most of them were about Zhu Ji. Regarding these things, Yunzhu, who was weak at the time, still felt a little guilty.
But Ning Yi, who was by the bedside, smiled bitterly and took on the responsibility.
"Remember what I said to you in front of the small building. I couldn't hold the sand and threw it away. Actually... I originally hoped that you would find it fun to open a store. It was indeed possible.
After the incident with the Su family, it was actually my fault that I wanted to use Zhuji as a carrier to expand my business. I started making the same mistake again..."
In Ning Yi's wry smile, Jin'er and Yunzhu didn't understand what he was referring to about the same mistake. But when Ning Yi realized the problem, the means to solve it may not be surprising.
After taking care of Zhu Ji, he went to see Yue Hu, the most famous luthier in the capital, and accompanied Yunzhu on the visit. The reason for the visit was not to communicate with each other, but just to listen to someone else's music. This was regarded as relaxing.
During my work, I occasionally came over to chat with Yunzhu and gave her
Reading the story in the book. In this way, Yunzhu gradually relaxed. Ning Yi, on the other hand, went to learn a lot about the music and rhythm of the piano. Occasionally, he could ask Yunzhu a question, even though it was ridiculously childish.
, but it can always make people relax.
The heart disease comes like a mountain and goes away like a continuous spring rain. Autumn turns to winter, and then heavy snow falls in Bianliang City, and Yunzhu gradually improves. But the relationship with Jin'er is put on hold in days like this.
Came down.
Before going to Shandong, the two of them agreed that when Ning Yi came back, they would give Jin'er an explanation. Unfortunately, after returning, Yunzhu fell ill, and the two took care of her, and they also joked and joked when they were alone. But
Regarding these things, Jin'er knew that he seemed a little guilty, and one day when the two of them were chatting in the corridor, she even heard him say that he was a little "incompetent."
"Sometimes, I feel that many things are very good. After I feel that they are very good, I want them all. Whether it's Yunzhu or you, I didn't think I was a playboy before, but maybe I don't think so now. These are the only things I don't want.
I know how to solve it. I promised you before, but now I can’t do it for a while..."
Ning Yi was sitting under the orange-lit railing, and what he said seemed a bit like an apology. Jin'er stood up and kicked him on the back. The two of them didn't talk about it much after that. For Jin'er
Ning Yi was actually a little surprised by Yunzhu's silence. Fortunately, after that incident, Jin'er did not express any rejection towards him. When getting along with Yunzhu, she still followed him, or sometimes talked to him.
Bickering and fighting.
In November, Ning Yi took some free time to visit the musician, who then visited some craftsmen. In early December, he came over and gave Yunzhu a guqin. The qin was handmade, with high-quality materials but rough workmanship.
It seems that it is just to stretch some fine strings on a piece of wood. Although it has some paintings on it, it is quite beautiful. But in the eyes of people like Yunzhu Jin'er - maybe in the eyes of anyone, this piano is
It's a very poor handiwork.
On the other hand, this piano, whose tune was not accurate, made Yunzhu laugh and cry for a long time.
But when Ning Yi left that evening, Jin'er who followed him kicked him. When Ning Yi turned around in confusion, he saw her lowering her head.
"Ning Yi, I am very stupid and don't understand what you are thinking. But Sister Yunzhu and I both came from brothels. Being a concubine or being raised outside is normal and we should be happy.
If men are good to us, it is an extra thing. If it is just so-so, it can be considered a destination. You say you think many things are good, and you want them.
, Aren’t all men like this? When you see a woman you like, you take her into your home. I don’t know what you think, but how to live is also our business. Sister Yunzhu will get sick, and many people will get sick, but
The disease will eventually get better. Sister Yunzhu and I don't think it's your fault, so don't always think so much."
Ning Yi was slightly stunned by these words. When he reached out to touch Jin'er's head, Jin'er took a step closer and hugged him. Ning Yi could feel the fragrance and softness of her body, and her breasts were pressed against his.
Ning Yi hugged her.
"I know you can't listen to me, right?"
Jin'er spoke in his arms with no resentment in her tone. Ning Yi smiled. Even though she seemed heartless on weekdays, the woman in front of her also had a smart and exquisite heart. When she
If you use that tenderness on yourself, you won't be able to hide much about your thoughts and temperament from her.
"I... what I can understand is that I feel that I am responsible..."
"Yes." Jin'er nodded softly and hugged him, "Actually, Sister Yunzhu and I both know that, and we are both very happy. Although I wanted to cry a little bit that night when you said those words to me.
...I just think it would be uncomfortable for you to do this."
"Men just have to be cruel to themselves, but I remember everything you said."
"That's good……"
Over this period of time, Ning Yi has been remembering the feeling of that evening, the body of the woman in his arms, and the words he said. Even though he is still a little bit unable to let go of his inability to solve the problem, his mood is much more relaxed after all.
On this day, I read and chatted with Yunzhu and Jin'er, and listened to Yunzhu playing a piece of music on the guqin he made. Although the quality of the piano was extremely poor, the sound was still beautiful under Yunzhu's fingertips. Yunzhu
She laughed and said that she was going to write a book on how to play a good sound with a bad piano. Although she said this, she was very precious about the bad piano in her hand.!
Afterwards, Ning Yi took a ham home, and when he arrived at the yard that was now regarded as the "Ning family", Su Wenyu was chatting with Tan'er and others about what happened during this period. After dinner, Ning Yi and Su Wenyu
We chatted for a while about the camp in Shandong. When we returned to the courtyard where we lived, the lights were bright, and Tan'er hugged Ning Xi and looked at the snowman piled up in the yard from the window.
Ning Yi returned to the room and teased his wife and children for a while. Su Tan'er hugged Ning Yi and sat on him, whispering: "What did you do in Shandong to make Wen Yu like that...
"
"What's wrong?"
"After he came back, he wanted to hug Xi'er. He seemed very gentle, but it scared Xi'er to tears. Wen Yu was a little embarrassed. I could see that he was different from before. I haven't seen him many times.
What can happen in a few months to make a rich man like this... If he was sent to prison, it might change his temperament, but it's not like this..."
"It's hard to say." Ning Yi shook his head, "It's not that it can't be said, but it's not interesting. It probably won't happen in the future. That's... something that can subvert people's outlook on life..."
"Forget it, lest the child hear it." Tan'er pursed her lips, leaned her cheek against Ning Xi's face and smiled. Ning Yi was also teasing him, making the child giggle and shake his body.
.
"Anyway, after having different experiences, I finally started to mature, right?"
"That's right."
When the couple talked about this in a warm room, in the bustling Right Prime Minister's Mansion in Bianliang City, in the brightly lit study room, Qin Siyuan was also asking Wang Shanyue alone about various things in Shandong. In the courtyard outside
The sound of children running was heard, and Wang Shanyue hesitated slightly when talking about the camp.
"... Actually, it's hard to say this. Ning Liheng was very solemn about this. I once went to visit and saw the situation of Su Wenyu in the Su family. I thought... it was really weird..."
The candle flickered, and Wang Shanyue stood there and talked about the detailed process.
“…···At the beginning, it seemed that they were just asked to obey the orders from above, with simple training all day long, and at night they were asked to talk about some bad things they had done before, and a few monks were asked to tell stories and talk about karma, but
The story is actually very simple and not very deep... The whole process is actually that simple. It's just that on the one hand, the camp is very strict, and on the other hand, Ning Liheng regards these people's confession as a reward...
…”
"... Whoever speaks the most sincerely, who speaks best and makes the most sense, he will let him live a better life and manage others... In the beginning, he personally supervised them,
Select those who confessed. At that time, maybe someone deliberately pretended to confess, deliberately pretended to tell a story
But as time passed, things slowly changed. Life in that camp was very boring, and it felt like life might pass very slowly. In a month, he established the operation of the entire system, and then
Most of them actually let them take care of themselves..."
"In that kind of environment, it is difficult for people to pretend and lie wholeheartedly. Everyone starts to listen to stories and rush to say what they have done wrong and why they have done it wrong. Even if they are pretending, they also say that they regret it."
As I spoke, I couldn’t control my sincerity
I thought about it, because there, admitting mistakes is a kind of honor... People will not let themselves live in an environment that they do not agree with. Either change the environment, or... you have to change yourself. This is what Li Heng once said
It seems to be tearing syndrome or something."
"... It seems that a group of robbers kidnapped a group of people. At first, the group of people were afraid of the robbers. After a long time, they became more likely to like the robbers. If the robbers were friendlier to them, they would be more likely to feel that this group of people had been kidnapped.
People are good people...not because they really feel that way, but because people have to lie to themselves and cannot let themselves live in a background of fear. They can only give themselves a reason to feel that the environment is not bad...
···”
"Then in the second month, after Li Heng left, things became more and more intense. Those who confessed became more and more sincere, but those who felt that it was dangerous began to secretly tell others not to do this, and then they started to
There were several riots. My people and people from Zhujiazhuang went there several times, but in fact most of the actions were suppressed by them internally. Those who confessed and felt that they had done something wrong stopped others from doing so.
people……"
"At that time, the small leader selected by Ning Yi was the team leader. One of the team leaders incited others to cause chaos because his subordinates wanted to kill people and escape, so he stopped them. Even after he stopped them, he did not allow others to do anything. He said that
It was also his own fault that his subordinates were so stubborn that they finally committed suicide in front of that person..."
"By the third month of this whole situation, more than a hundred people had been sent away, and more than thirty people had died, twelve of whom committed suicide... In just three months, the entire camp at that time
The situation here is that everyone feels that they are guilty all day long, and some of them just a few months ago
The man who was doing the killing was in tears. Everyone wanted to do something good, but as an outsider, it seemed... very scary. Fortunately, Li Heng started to stop at this time and sent in more than three hundred people.
Children, learn skills from them and pass on them as masters and apprentices..."
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