As usual, I write an essay on my birthday every year. When I am thirty years old, I have no idea what to write. Until this morning, I don’t have anything to write, but there is too much to write. Not long ago, I told someone
, When people are ten years old, you are the self who is ten years old, when you are twenty years old, you are the self who is twenty years old, and when you are thirty, you will find that you are ten years old,
The twenty-year-old self and the thirty-year-old self all stood together. They left so many traces that they could not separate them.
Then, I have thirty years to write about.
In the past, I wanted to write something as easy or pragmatic as possible, which is not difficult to understand, but then I think about it, at the beginning of today, let’s write something metaphysical and fake.
When talking about three concepts and combining them, perhaps most of the me, there are some strange things in the middle and second place. If you continue to look at them, you will understand the reasons.
One:
At the end of 2014, I went to Beijing Luxun College of Literature for two months. One of the classes was taught by Professor Dai Jinhua from Peking University. During this period, Professor Dai Jinhua mentioned a concept, she said, in the process of origin of the text.
In this article, Chinese characters express meaning, while European characters express sound. This is the difference between the two.
Teacher Dai Jinhua did not study language at Peking University. She studied films, mass media and other directions. When it comes to this concept, it should be because the content is slightly touched and the past is casually spoken. I have heard of this concept in the past, and after the lecture is over
As usual, there was a time to ask questions. I first arrived at Luyuan and raised my hand to ask questions. The question was probably: The basic meaning of the existence of words is to convey thinking. Immediately, the invisible thoughts in my mind are to convey them to others, so that others can receive them.
In "The Three-Body Problem" and many science fiction works, it has also described a group similar to the Ant Family whose entire race is ruled by a mother, and it is believed that it is a way for organisms to evolve to a high point. Our text is expressed directly in graphics
Meaning, while Western characters first turn the meaning into syllables, and then use icons to express the basic syllables. After entering the brain, they interpret it through a set of conventional methods. Is it going through another process? The differences between these two developments,
Are there any objective factors and the inevitability of development?
This question is a bit messy, because it has nothing to do with Professor Dai Jinhua's course content, and he just chose a topic on the scraps to extend it. Professor Dai Jinhua was stunned for a moment and then said: This may not be inevitable.
I asked: Maybe it was just an accidental difference?
She said: Yes.
I have a lot of ideas about this issue later, but I won't discuss it here. The reason why I said this is because, this question seems casual. But to me, it is so important that I
It's in my mind anytime, anywhere.
For me, the most charming thing is the transmission of thinking.
I was thirty years old and did not go to college. I still can’t be considered truly recognized by society. Of course, I went to Lu Academy to study and attended several meetings, but I didn’t attend.
Writers Association. My grades are only spread in a small range. I am just an online novel author who is neither up nor down, but if you ask me seriously: "What exactly are you doing?" I might answer:
"I do the transmission, the transmission of thinking."
There is a myth in the Bible. Old Testament. Genesis. I have always liked it very much. In ancient times, because humans had no language separation, were extremely powerful, and worked together to build the Tower of Babel together, trying to seize God's authority, but God was not destroyed.
They just made all of them start speaking different languages, and then humans fell into mutual suspicion and war, and could never unite again, and the Tower of Babel collapsed.
This is really a very simple and profound philosophy. All human differences and problems almost all come from the opacity of each other's thinking. In my essay at the age of twenty-seven, I wrote about the relationship between wild boars and morality, in terms of interests, morality, and deception.
On the triangle, deception comes from this, and thus a colorful human world has been born, all comedy and tragedy, all rules and status quo.
Language and writing are the most important way to make up for human beings. They are used to convey the ideas and intentions of others and carry the wisdom of others. Whether it is the understanding of scientific laws or the perception of life, we can accumulate and pass it on to
Later generations allow them to grow rapidly, but they may not need to experience it one by one. Therefore, when they experience the same challenges, they may make better choices and have a better life.
Human society has thus achieved evolution.
After I first came into contact with the concept of "words have limits and cannot express all thinking" in Haruki Murakami's book when I was in my early twenties, I almost felt enlightened. In the next ten years - probably not
In the past ten years, what I have been thinking tirelessly is how to transform my thinking into words that are as accurate as possible. I throw away the gorgeous unnecessary styles that I don’t even understand, leave simple branches, and then turn the leaves into
I have to flourish and then trim it again and again. Now, now that I continue to trim this style of writing, I am thirty years old.
Some people think my writing skills are good, while others don’t. Of course, each has its own reasons.
Second:
Talk about my personality. As far as I am concerned, I have great personality flaws.
Such personality defects originated from the fact that they went through the wrong order and made the wrong structure when they were receiving education. During the enlightenment, my grandfather taught me a very correct and upright way of thinking. Later, when I was studying Lu Xun and studying
,I imitate Lu Xun's writing style in composition. My writing style is not good, and the teacher said that my thoughts are not good. I was wondering, I was criticizing bad things, why is it me who thinks badly? After thinking through it,
, This is the initial disagreement and incompatible - each of us, more or less, has experienced these.
What I went through next was an era of rapid change. A reader once said in a book review that I had witnessed the afterglow of that era. Indeed, when I was a child, I had witnessed the afterglow of that era when the change was not yet severe.
Then there were drastic changes, the impact of various concepts, and the worldview I established myself was out of place with the world. Then, due to family difficulties, I gave up on university. When I gave up on university, knowledge was in my mind.
There is no longer weight in the room, and without weight, there is no awe. I dismantle everything at will, and all orthodox knowledge has lost its meaning.
I often tell people that the so-called "meaning" comes from the "feeling of ritual". When we were young, we played houses seriously. Everyone discussed how to place the bowls and chopsticks, how to sit and feed them. We visited the tombs on the Qingming Festival and knelt on our knees.
How to kneel down and kowtow several times - For pure materialists, are these related to ghosts and gods? No, they are only related to ourselves. When we do this seriously, "meaning" will be produced.
weight.
In the simplest explanation: When we make great efforts for a thing, we will automatically convince ourselves that what we do is meaningful.
So later, when some book friends who don’t want to study come and ask me if I want to go to college or continue my studies, I will advise them to continue, not only for knowledge, but more for them to enter society.
Feel the efforts they have made, the heavy thing, and then they tell themselves: "I'm ready."
I entered society without being prepared, and then I lost all the awe. I thought everything could be structured with basic logic, and my brain was still working. When I encountered something, I
The brain will automatically go back thousands or even tens of thousands of years ago, from the original social construction logic, and then push it one by one to the present, looking for all the causes of this matter. If you can find the cause, your brain can
In the past, as I told the story of wild boar three years ago, the cause of morality.
For a while, I suspected that I might have some kind of mental illness called Asperger's syndrome. Such patients use logic to build emotional thinking. During the period when I was the least good at communicating with people, I even tried to form it with logic.
A set of guidelines for talking to people...
There is no doubt that I tasted the bitter fruit.
If there are only the above problems, maybe I wouldn't have written something like I am now. Half a year ago, I saw a sentence, which was probably like this: The most important quality of an excellent author is sensitivity, and others still have some things.
They didn't feel any pain. They were already in great pain. If they wanted to endure the pain, they had to be humorous...
I often tell people that I have no literary talent, but I probably have sensitive qualities. Sometimes I see that we born in the 1980s and after entering society, I don’t know what to do, change our three views and distort our spirit
, In the struggle, no one knows what is wrong with these, until one day - most people - regard money rights as the criterion for everything, as the criterion for success, constantly pursue, and those who pursue it, feel that
Not satisfied, I always feel that something has fallen out. People begin to miss their youth. When they are young, it has led to a large number of popular "Soon of the Year". But looking back, even if money and power cannot satisfy themselves,
I had to continue pursuing it. Some of them are sing high-profile here, right?
Sometimes when trying to deconstruct yourself, deconstruct the entire human race, put it on the time of the entire earth and even the universe, and then you can see the wind and sand rolling up, and in an accidental moment, you draw a beautiful pattern, and we produce the so-called wisdom, and we adapt.
The world, change the world, and finally destroy the world, will eventually perish... I can't find the meaning of eternal existence - I'm a secondary school student again, right?
If I think of these things when I was eighteen and my three views were not yet complete, it would be a secondary second-year mood that could be changed. When I was thirty, I would go back to this issue, and it would be serious.
This passage may be about the ultimate nihilistic proposition, and I don’t really want to discuss it with others. In ordinary cases, it hits the second time and has a shame. I mentioned it to enter the third point.
After declaring these two points, we enter the third point: Tell us about online articles.
I have been writing online articles for many years. Although when I went to Luyuan, I insisted that there was no distinction between tradition and the Internet in literature, in fact, there are indeed some. Some call them traditional literature and popular literature, and some call them traditional literature.
We think there is such a separation between elite literature and popular literature.
I write books very seriously, and I still dare to say this with confidence to anyone. I once had a dream of a writer - but the definition of a writer is a little different.
Two days ago, Hunan Province held the sixth Youth Writers Conference, which is said to be once every five years but only lasted ten years later. I went to attend it. It happened that the reporter from Hunan Economic Video interviewed him and there was no draft or preparation at that time. I was
When it comes to online literature, I said that online literature today may not be the future of literature, but its middle contains the most important part that traditional literature is missing in the current difficulties.
They are: attraction, persuasiveness.
I used to define literature. Habitually say this: Traditional literature focuses on the exploration and thinking of self-spirit, while online literature focuses on transmission and communication.
In this definition, traditional literature digs deep into itself, and its depth determines the height. Even if many people cannot understand it, people with high ideological realm can see it, and they communicate in a very high place.
, I don't think they have no value. On the contrary, these ideas can be said to be the most shining treasures in human development, and I am convinced.
What online literature cares more about studying is how something in our mind can be transmitted to readers' hearts. In the years of online literature development, we have accumulated a lot of experience and techniques. Of course, there are good things and whether it is better or not.
OK. There are benign and bad ones. Online literature is still a discipline with varying quality.
While studying at Lu Academy, one day, I accidentally met a teacher on the road and talked about topics about differences. The other party was a good teacher. But after all, I didn't know much about online literature, so I talked about some things.
It seems to be said: I have seen many authors who cannot make money and are forced by life. When they want to make money with words, they will go into the most extreme direction of the past and draw their original thinking.
All gave up. People will go to extremes like this.
The other party said: But we do have many authors who are sticking to the declining trend of society. They are not for money, they try their best to resist the influence of social trends. Their thinking is, for society,
Very important, it cannot be without...
The first thought that popped up in my mind at that time was: the impact of reform and opening up over the past 30 years has led to the decline of spiritual civilization and the impact of more than one billion people, can we explain it by saying "do your best"?
Perhaps there are such persistent authors, one or two, who are respectable, but over the past thirty years, aren’t there any responsibility for the weak and powerless literary circle?
Literature is the beginning of spiritual civilization!
I didn't dare to say it.
In the interview the day before yesterday, I mentioned the best literature and asked, what is the best literature? I actually don’t have a very specific concept. I said: It can really make people’s spirits perfect, when we said: “
You shouldn't be just for money and power in your life." People will truly believe that it can have real persuasiveness, it can educate and infect the people of the most, rather than letting people feel like they are singing after they finish speaking.
High-profile, it can reshape a person's views and truly leave the experience of his predecessors to future generations...
I said something, but it was not so organized at the time, and I'm afraid I can't see it in the news.
Science and technology will continue to develop. In science and technology, there is a difference between theoretical science and applied science. Theoretical science stands at the top and it cannot make much money, but it can win the Nobel Prize. When they make breakthroughs, applied science--we
Everything in life can be derived.
The spirit will not develop significantly. The vertex of the spirit, or the state of infinitely approaching the vertex, appeared thousands of years ago. Confucius said: At seventy, you can do whatever you want, without breaking the rules. It is such a thing, when we understand the world
Many things on it and understanding with the world, our spirits are harmonious, no longer painful, and can be peaceful and happy, but not negative numbness. That is the pinnacle of the spirit, but in every era, what we encounter is different,
In every person whose life is only a few decades, the ways in which weaving and shaping their views may be different. There may be very few who can finally reach this state, but in each generation, this may be the pinnacle of our pursuit.
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There is also a culmination type in literature, which is theoretical literature. We explore the use of each brushwork, explore every novel way of writing, inspiring techniques, and explore spiritual shaping. Such things can
Win the Mao Dun Literature Prize or the Nobel Prize in Literature. Under this, apply literature to their foundation and inspiration, explore its own spiritual depth, shape it with words, and pass it on to others. Traditional literature and online literature are both here
There are high-level speculatives in the category, but there are too few researches, but the explorers and transmitters of online literature often lack speculatives.
This is already a big country with 1.4 billion people studying. Before that, we experienced a lot of problems. I used to be a person who tended to be public-knowledge thinking, and I yearned for a state of democracy. In the past two years, I
I think that in such rapid development, I will maintain this country. Return to the second stage of the world. If we look at it from a historical perspective, this period of time may be an unimaginable prosperity. A part of my heart will be
At first I felt proud of this country, and some states returned to the 50 cents position. At least some of them were certain, but I still yearn for democracy. But my yearning for democracy has become more complicated. The people are incapable of being independent. What should I do?
democracy?
But no matter what, spiritual development is still at a low point.
Of course, there is also a saying. There is a set of methods to correctly shape a person's three views. In ancient times, the Confucian method lasted for many years, and they had a lot of established experiences - let's not talk about the ultimate goodness of Confucianism.
Bad. But if we want to cultivate a certain person into a certain state, their methods have been going on for thousands of years. After the May Fourth Movement, we broke down the framework. If we cannot establish a new framework, how can we cultivate a person? There is no mature system.
Just like I learned from Lu Xun, I did see some people who are bad and bad. Why did I point them out and I became the one who has bad thoughts? The teacher will certainly say. I will do it for your exam and
The future is good, but in this way, there will be problems in the process of shaping the spiritual system.
We often encounter all kinds of things that are out of place in society.
We laughed and regarded it as normal. One day, these things will penetrate into the details of your spirit bit by bit. Once I was chatting with a friend on a plane. He was a rich man, but said, "I have been the most for a month,
The income is 4.5 million, but I still feel uneasy. I can only make more money, but how much can I earn to be at ease?"
Four million and five million a month, but still not at ease. For some people, this is a whining without any reason? Is it pretentious? But I think this must be no problem with money. He may not know it, but he can only continue
make money.
Whether poor or rich, I think there must be a lack of all kinds in our generation. We pursue something, but in the end, the pursuit of something cannot comfort ourselves. Only in the end, we
Feel the stress of anxiety and life.
I want to attribute my own problems to the powerlessness of the literary circle and the spiritual circle over the past thirty years. In the best expectations, the environment I live in should give me a harmonious spirit, but I really can't blame them for every
I can't even blame the literary circle for a person because our previous damage was so great. But if we put it here, when the traditional literary circle continues to be poor and shrink, the truth they talk about is becoming increasingly untouchable, and we only say "
Someone sticks to it and "does his best", how to explain the sacrifices of the next generation?
Since you have so many good things, why not study and study entertainment and transmission, and try to infect more people without compromise?
Some time ago, I didn’t know whether Tsinghua University or Peking University, a professor who studied online literature led a student on the website. After a while, only a few hundred clicks were clicked, commonly known as the "slap". They were very surprised. Some press releases said, "I can't do it."
The attitude of writing a low-level thing like online articles - of course, it may not be the performance of the students themselves, and it is possible to raise trouble with the press release. But their basic attitude was originally wrong, if the university could truly bring entertainment and
Connotation is regarded as a literary factor of 50% importance each - I am talking about sincere propaganda. Perhaps in less than ten years, the current online literature circle will no longer exist.
However, for the upper class, this is another dangerous thing. It may be very common to stand on the side of entertainment or on the side of connotation. Only those who stand on the doctrine of the mean may be the most important
Vulnerable to blows.
However, this is a society of 1.4 billion people, and 1.4 billion people are mentally impoverished. People laugh at the housewife for watching soap operas, but never take the initiative to change her - they think this cannot be done. People with high-end spiritual levels are above them, as if waiting.
Is it possible that one day these housewives suddenly fall in love with their things? After people leave school, there is no compulsory learning. They can live their lives even if they are mentally impoverished. One day, they suddenly feel that something is missing.
The world has just become worse. On the other hand, even schools are almost zero in shaping the mandatory nature of people's spirit.
How much contagious is the moral article in textbooks for today's students? One day I helped my friend read a paper (my friend is not the author). One paragraph is as follows (no need to read it carefully):
"Higher education is at the highest level of education and plays a guiding role. The scale and level of development of a country's higher education often become a symbol of measuring the scale and level of education development in the country, and is also a symbol of the country's science and technology, civilization level and comprehensive national strength.
.The material civilization of a country depends on the country's scientific and technological level. Similarly, the key to the country's scientific and technological level lies in the scale, level of education development in the country, especially the scale and level of higher education development. Therefore, to improve the national higher education
The quality and level of education…”
I'm not trying to say how big the issue is, but there is something that makes me care a lot. This may be just the author's negligence, but... where is spiritual civilization? Why do we focus on material civilization when we talk about higher education?
, There is no mention of spiritual civilization?
If I use such a paper to generalize it from a side point, I would be too much. But one thing is actually obvious. The shaping of spiritual civilization by higher education... is not as high as we imagined.
My friend studied the subjects related to education. When I talked to him about this, he said that our education is probably in the biggest problem in history. The popularity of knowledge has not actually led to the improvement of people's education level.
Because in ancient times, the word education was to shape the outlook on life and teach children how to be human. Now, the flood of knowledge has led to the disappearance of authority. A ten-year-old child said a second-second sentence and put it on the Internet.
Ten thousand people of the same second-tier people came over and hugged each other to keep warm. Authority disappeared, and correctness disappeared. No one's concept during the growth process would get the opportunity to correct it. A disagreement view, where do people want to sit?
Just sit there, without thinking, there will inevitably be ten thousand people accompanying you. What will happen to such a person when he grows up?
And the second half of my growth was the same.
Schools can only impart knowledge. Without the power to shape the outlook on life, society will be even less. The thinking and experience that could have been used to shape people are suspended at the highest point. Why can't they be added to the entertainment part and put them on
It’s like adding bait to attract people?
So later, I no longer want to be a traditional writer like that. I still admire theories who study theory, but in other directions, I think that the direction of this life can be decided here, so I will
Be a kitsch online author for life, and do this thankless combination exploration...
If thirty years later, some people say that my spirit is shaped like this by the world, you have a responsibility. I can only say that as one in 1.4 billion, as a writer who wants to learn from Lu Xun
, I tried my best.
After saying such a long pile of nonsense, many people are getting annoyed, or are already annoyed. But no matter what, at the age of thirty, these things that are either second or stupid or whimsical have become my thinking root.
, is something I want to stay at the node of thirty years old.
Back to the beginning.
I am thirty years old, and my life is good and bad. I still live in that small town. I often rack my brains and often card scripts. But because of the tolerance and support of my book friends, life is finally acceptable. My body is not counting.
OK, occasionally insomnia and tossing and turning. If you are in the Kaven period, your life will often lose its regularity due to anxiety. The house prices in the town are not high, so I saved a lot of money and bought a house by the lake a month ago. Twenty-five
The building overlooks the beautiful scenery. After a year, I hand over the house and move in, my younger brother doesn’t have to squeeze into the original balcony of the house to sleep.
I occasionally go out for a walk, and when I write smoothly, I can run and exercise. Sometimes I have one or two friends, sometimes not. The most common pastime is to go to the cinema alone to watch newly released blockbusters, although it is open.
The most lively pedestrian street in the town, but the cinema is often reserved. Fortunately, I am not interested in horror movies. Since the whole life circle is only within a 15-minute walk, I can’t drive and I don’t plan to learn to buy a car.
Then, that's it.
I often cannot be sincere to my friends because I have too many thoughts in my mind, I use my brain too much, and I often forget that someone called me to wish me a happy birthday. I have already talked to me many times.
He didn't save his phone number and forgot his name. This may not be the first time. Sometimes he greeted him when he met, and went out to meet and asked again: "Who are you?" He often felt embarrassed, and he felt that he was always
I think the most sincere way is to make fewer friends, so I have to narrow down my life circle. If you are my friend, please forgive me.
Of course, there are also friends who have a stronger relationship. Sometimes they go out to travel together, relax and relax, but they never catch up with the attractions and are unwilling to rush.
In this way, it seems to be the whole of my life.
Compared to the era when I grew up playing with mud and breathing the smoke and dust of the cement factory, many things are getting better. I often miss and think of the damaged life and the bad habits I developed in extremeness and paranoia.
, but none of this can be changed.
So, instead of sighing and pitying yourself...
Why not do something.
Sincerely
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salute
Angry banana.
In the early morning after my 30th birthday. (To be continued, please search for Astronomy, novels are better, updated and faster!