Chi Ying squatted on the ground, curled up into a ball, his face was as pale as paper, and his figure was so fragile that he seemed to fall over if the wind blew.
She covered her lips and coughed twice, her eyes filled with despair: "When I was pregnant with me, my mother ate a lot of weird things in order to give birth to a son, and she struggled for a long time. Unfortunately, not only did she not give birth to a son, but she also died because of the food she ate.
I ate too many things and got fetal poison, which made me look ugly.
Everyone said that I was a monster and an ominous person. No one loved me and no one wanted to get close to me. Although I was the granddaughter of the second elder of the Hua family, my life was not as good as that of a servant.
Growing up, I lived in a dark, windowless servant's room, ate leftovers, and had to do a lot of hard work every day. When I finally grew up, I was tricked into becoming a saint and forced to plant golden poison.
insect."
Speaking of this, she smiled miserably and turned to Lu Xixin: "Miss Lu, if you had felt my pulse, you should know that I don't have many years to live.
Maybe in three years, maybe in five years, I may be exhausted."
Chi Ying lowered his head, feeling extremely lonely. It took him a long time before he mustered up the courage to look at Lu Xixin and said in a sad tone: "Miss Lu, I never wanted to harm you. I was just too eager to be free.
Do you know? I have never left Hua's house in my life. I don't know what it's like outside. I wanted to see the outside world, so when I saw your blood glowing with a faint golden color, I accidentally changed my identity with you.
I really never thought about letting you replace me, I just...just wanted to delay for a while..."
Chi Ying's voice gradually dropped: "Miss Lu, I beg you, please let me go? Aren't you the most tolerant and the greatest? You are kind and beautiful, and you have the best of everything in this world.
Look at me again, I have nothing, I am just a poor and humble woman, please show some kindness and let me go, I beg you!"
Lu Xixin said nothing, her eyes were deep and complicated.
After a while, he spoke: "You are indeed very pitiful."
Chi Ying felt happy in her heart, and her eyes shone with anticipation.
She knew that young ladies like Lu Xixin, who had never experienced suffering in the world, were the softest. They were like the Virgin, because they lived a good life and everyone around them was kind to her, so they thought the world was beautiful and innocent.
However, Lu Xixin's next words broke Chi Ying's fantasy.
"I won't let you go." Lu Xixin leaned down, held her chin in her hands, and arched her eyebrows, but the words she spoke were like sharp swords: "It's useless for you to pretend to be pitiful, no matter how miserable your life experience is.
It has nothing to do with me, you are miserable, yes. But it is not caused by me. Why should I pay for your miserable life.
In front of me, you no longer need to pretend, everything you have ever done will have to pay the price!"
"You——" Chi Ying's eyes were about to burst, his eyes were bloodshot, filled with crazy hatred.
Chi Ying kept trying this trick of pretending to be pitiful, but she didn't expect that she would hit a wall with Lu Xixin.
Since there was no point in pretending to be pitiful, she simply stopped pretending and showed a pair of eyes full of hatred: "Miss Lu, why do you have to do things so absolutely!
You already have everything in the world, including Shen Jiayao who loves you deeply, your grandfather who loves you dearly, and your mother who has carefully greeted and cared for you several times.
You have everything, you live such a happy life, and everyone loves you, why can't you share a little with me?
I don’t want much, I just...just want to feel it for a while longer."
Chi Ying really couldn't bear to leave, not only Shen Jiayao, but also her grandfather, Aunt Banxia, Uncle Yuanhu, Zhu Xiaoxiao...and Mother Lu.
Every one of them is so nice, they love her and care about her.
Occasionally when he was in a trance, Chi Ying would even have the illusion that he was Lu Xixin.
How she wishes she was Lu Xixin. If she were Lu Xixin, with so many people who love her and so many resources, she would definitely do better than Lu Xixin.