Chapter 190: How nice it would be to die in a snowy day
In winter when the wind is cold, my husband would always light a stove to warm himself by the fire. At that time, there was not only my husband in the south garden, but also a Taoist priest who often meditated and was his apprentice.
The red fox would lie down in front of the stove and sleep all day long, while the husband would often read and rarely talk.
"You taught me a lot that year, but at the end of the spring of the next year, you said you wanted to go on a far journey, and you would be away for more than two years."
"At that time, I thought you wouldn't come back. Who would have expected that in the summer, you would take young Yuxuan back to the Taoist temple."
Chen Changsheng thought deeply and asked, "Yuxuan..."
Hu Yu said: "It was you who brought her to Nanyuan to become your disciple."
After hearing this, Chen Changsheng began to think and murmured in a low voice: "So, it was me who found her back then..."
Hu Yu opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but after a second thought, he changed his mind and continued.
"You often go out to travel, but you also come back often. You usually return to Nanyuan in early spring to catch up with the best season. After returning to Nanyuan, you rarely go out, and it will be early spring soon."
"At that time, I often lay at the table and looked at you, but you only had books in your eyes, and you would read them for days without knowing how to rest..."
Things in the past were particularly dull, but for Hu Yu, this was the most comfortable day in her life.
Spending time with her husband always makes her feel at ease.
"There are no years in the mountains, and I don't know how many years have passed in the blink of an eye. After Zhao Yuqing saw the Taoism, he went down the mountain. Only me, Yuxuan, and you were left on the mountain."
"Yuxuan is a stupid girl who can't learn anything, but you are always willing to spend time teaching her. I have a better understanding, so you rarely care about me. At that time, I felt very uncomfortable.
"
Hu Yu smiled and talked about what happened at that time.
"I just pretend to be stupid and know how to do it, just to talk to you more."
"With these two visits, a period of sixty years has passed."
"Yuxuan is already standing tall and graceful, and I have also transformed. But that day you suddenly found us and said you wanted to go out."
"She and I both thought you were just traveling for two years like before, but it turns out you never came back to Nanyuan."
Everything was very peaceful, but it was this tranquility that both Yu Xuan and Hu Yu remembered for a long time.
"Yuxuan came down the mountain to look for you, and I was waiting in the South Garden. The wait lasted for a while. Seeing that Yuxuan didn't come back, I simply went down the mountain."
Hu Yu looked at Chen Changsheng and said, "I am luckier than Yu Xuan. I found you in Nanminghai Mountain the second year after I came down from the mountain."
"But you seemed to have forgotten a lot of things at that time. You forgot everything in the past, and you yourself became a blank."
After hearing this, Chen Changsheng paused and asked, "It's blank?"
"My magic power and cultivation are gone. I am just like a mortal."
Hu Yu said: "It was only later that I found out that you became like that after practicing the Purana Sutra."
"The Purana Sutra..."
Chen Changsheng frowned and thought, did he forget everything before, could it be related to the Purana Sutra?
"I know what you want to ask."
Hu Yu looked into his eyes and said: "But what I can tell you is that the reason why you don't remember anything now is definitely not because of practicing the Purana Sutra."
After hearing this, Chen Changsheng was stunned for a moment and asked, "That is..."
Hu Yu looked at him and said: "Although the Purana Sutra is incomplete, even if there are errors, after reincarnation, people and events will remind you of some memories of previous lives."
"I brought you from Nanminghai Mountain to the human world. During those years, I accompanied you to travel in the human world. Every time you passed by, you would think of something."
"Like a piece of blank paper, you are no longer as taciturn as before, and that favoritism also fell on me. But one day when you suddenly mentioned the name 'Yuxuan', I was scared...
…”
"So, I avoided all people and things related to Yuxuan. You will not think of Yuxuan or Nanyuan. You will only remember me, so that I can always be with you. That preference will also
Belongs to me alone.”
Hu Yu's voice suddenly dropped, and she couldn't help but sigh: "But there are no absolutes in this world."
"You finally met her."
"Just one look and you remember everything."
"Everything seems like yesterday's dream, gone forever, and you have become the taciturn Mr. Chen again."
"But even if you know that I was with you that year, those memories and the past still haven't changed your view of me. In your eyes, I'm just a little fox."
Hu Yu gave a bitter smile and said, "I am the only one who is self-righteous."
Chen Changsheng asked: "Have you never asked?"
Hu Yu raised his head and said: "I asked, but you didn't answer at that time. You avoided the question. I probably guessed the answer, so I left Nanyuan. Since then, I have never gone back.
Pass."
There was sadness in her eyes, and she continued: "Those years seemed to be very peaceful. In fact, at the beginning, I couldn't tell whether I was attracted to you or not. You were just a blockhead, you only knew how to read and sit quietly, but
After you go out, I will think of you unconsciously."
"I think of you picking me up on a snowy night, of what you taught me, of how I often lay on the table looking at you..."
"Open your eyes and close your eyes, it's all you."
Hu Yu lowered his head and said, "It wasn't until later, when I decided to hide it from everyone, that I was sure of what I was thinking."
She raised her head and looked at Chen Changsheng and said, "This is the unresolved fate between you and me."
Chen Changsheng was silent, digesting all the past that Hu Yu just said.
It was not as enthusiastic as imagined, but seemed a bit dull, but it was in that dullness that it became what it was.
Chen Changsheng raised his head and asked, "Chen, can I ask what kind of question you asked back then?"
Hu Yu looked at him and said, "I asked two questions."
"The first question is nothing more than love or not, and the latter one is asking you to make a choice."
"Choose one between me and Yuxuan."
Hu Yu said: "Neither Yu Xuan nor I made a choice, and you didn't answer the first question either."
"If you choose Yuxuan later, maybe I won't miss those years so much."
She sighed softly and murmured in a low voice: "Now that I think of that year in the world of mortals, it is like the bright moon in the water. After all, it is just an emptiness."
Chen Changsheng was in a confused mood. He was silent for a long time, not knowing what to say.
Hu Yu smiled sadly and said, "If you can't say it, don't say it. I know clearly that you are not him now."
"I was just thinking..."
"It would have been better if I had died in that heavy snow day."