In her previous life, her biological parents were indifferent to her, Tang Zihong abused her, and the Li family imprisoned her, all of which made her live in bitterness every day but had nowhere to complain.
Unexpectedly, Zhong Chen's childhood was even more difficult than hers.
Ru Yue endured the pain in her heart and hugged Zhong Chen tightly: "Okay, I listen, I'm here."
Zhong Chen looked at the wintersweet flowers, stroked Ru Yue's hair with his hands, and said in a calm voice:
"At that time, no matter what my father did to me, I had no complaints against him. But as I grew older, I gradually felt that something was wrong. Regarding my mother's death, I began to hear different versions. My grandmother and my father quarreled.
, saying that my father had no conscience because he met another woman outside and treated my mother badly, which made my mother so angry that my father completely cut off all contact with my grandmother’s family and was not allowed to mention it to me;
My sister secretly confessed that she should not have gone out with her classmates that day and left my mother alone at home, which would have caused her to fall and give birth and be unable to be saved. My grandfather always looked at me with sad eyes. I found a letter written under his bed that said
I can clearly remember a letter with my mother's name on it, with the words "after death" written on it, but then I couldn't find the letter;
Also, when I lacked anyone to discipline me, I sneaked out to play, and I caught me. My father was talking to other women about love, and his face was extremely happy. At that time, I seemed to be only five years old, and it was my mother.
It’s only been five years since he passed away, hehehe, hehehe, it’s interesting!”
Zhong Chen laughed.
He stretched out his hand and shook the wintersweet branch he had been staring at.
The snow fell in droves, falling on his arms and on his black coat. He ignored it and just stared at the plum blossoms on it:
"At that time, I began to feel that the world was false and human emotions were false. I felt that life was meaningless. Most importantly, I began to learn resistance, disgust, and hatred."
Ru Yue's heart ached with pain.
She didn't dare to make a sound, so she reached out and grabbed Zhong Chen's coat tightly.
Zhong Chen didn't notice, his thoughts were immersed in the distance:
"I began to hate my father as much as he hated me. But I was too young to compete with him. I stopped pleasing him, which made him even more dissatisfied. He began to constantly find reasons to deal with me. He dealt with me.
He was very skillful. He would find an excuse to make me stand. If I didn't, he would have a reason to hit me. While beating me, he would say, 'Let's see if you dare to disobey me. Let's see if you dare to disrespect me again.'
.
No one saved me. Everyone knew that I was stubborn and rebellious at a young age and deserved to be beaten. If I didn’t get beaten, I wouldn’t have a long memory. These people sometimes included my grandfather and sister; if he was outside, he wouldn’t
He would hit me and just say sadly, 'This child is not like me, I don't know what to do with him' or something like that."
Ru Yue took a deep breath to reduce the oppressive pain in her chest, and then she was able to ask: "Why did he do this? Is it really because of your mother's death? I'm afraid not."
"You are so smart. Ru Yue, you are so smart." Zhong Chen patted her back gently, as if he was soothing her, but more like soothing himself:
"Not long after, I heard rumors from outside that my father often traveled on business at that time. I don't know where this child came from. Ruyue, you are so smart, you will definitely know the consequences of this.
Alright?"
Ru Yue nodded in Zhong Chen's arms:
"He slandered your mother? Actually, it's because he doesn't want to maintain the persona of a loving husband anymore, right? After all, it's not easy to maintain such a persona."
Zhong Chen's hand on Ru Yue's back paused: "Character? What is that?"
"That's the meaning of the character setting in the script. Your father's previous behavior was not like a real person, but like acting. He may have needed to make people feel that he was very affectionate and pitiful, and that's why he treated you like that. His kind
Isn't the way he behaves just like managing a movie character? Then if he treats you in a different way, I think he's probably going to be with another woman."
Zhong Chen murmured: "You are so smart, you guessed it right away. So do you think I won't hate him? That's impossible. If he really caused my mother's death because of my birth
, and hate me because of it, I will never hate him in this life, no matter what he does to me, I will never hate him, but as I grow older, I feel more and more that he is a hypocrite, a disgusting hypocrite
!nausea!"
Zhong Chen's eyes became filled with resentment, but deep inside the resentment was pain.
His body trembled.
Ru Yue felt so uncomfortable that she really couldn't do anything except hug him: "Brother Chen, hate is so corrosive to people's hearts and will hurt yourself. I think you must have found a way to let go of these things over the years.
Alright?"
Zhong Chen remained silent and closed his eyes.
For a long time, he took a deep breath and then exhaled: "It has been difficult these years, I have always hated him. However, before my grandfather died, I promised my grandfather that I would not pursue him again in the future... That's all.
"
Ru Yue felt relieved, and the pain in her heart also eased a little: "Oh! That's good. I know, if people from their side dare to come here again, I will scold them bloody and give them a bloody blow."
You take it out!"
Ru Yue said and raised her fist.
Zhong Chen tried his best to smile: "Ha, idiot, no, they probably won't come. I told Luo Shenqin a long time ago that Zhong Guangyao is very shameless. He knows that I won't give him a good face, and he won't come here."
Mine, if he comes to me, I guess he is going to die and needs to repent."
"Then it probably won't happen. Because generally speaking, people who do evil will only feel that they are not evil enough and will never feel the need to repent."
Zhong Chen held her hand again: "That's good. Very good, right? Ru Yue, it's great to have you. In fact, there are many things I haven't told you, but today I will share the old things with you.
, I feel more relaxed."
Ru Yue held hands with him and tried her best to smile happily: "Actually, I have another way to make it easier for you. Do you want to listen to it?"
"OK."
"Then, if we really talk about it, the things that happen in your family are boring compared to our family. Our family is more bloody than yours. The disputes in our family can be traced back to two generations and two families. From bad to bad
From the parent-child relationship to the broken relationship between husband and wife, oh, I can talk about it for a long time just about my grandma controlling my dad. Not to mention my adoptive mother taking care of me, it’s just a whole list, but I still want to talk about it.
How can I fix them? Let me first talk about how my father and my adoptive mother could get divorced..."