She wanted to say she didn't believe it, but there was another voice deep in her heart saying that these were all true. This was not the first time Lu Shiqian had mentioned it, but he had never said it in such detail as he did today.
Lu Shiqian saw that she was silent and smiled bitterly, "You should know that the reason why you agreed to Si Xue's confession was because of a misunderstanding."
"I can understand this."
Gu Nian answered the question and looked up at him.
"But what I don't understand is, since you had feelings for me so early, why do you still treat me like that even though we are already married?"
Their marriage lasted for three years. If Lu Shiqian really liked her, how could he be indifferent except to take care of her life?
Later, when his Bai Yueguang came back, he showed his impatience towards her.
Thinking of this, Gu Nian actually smiled.
"I didn't notice at all that you had any romantic feelings for me. On the contrary, I thought you had been waiting for Si Xue."
Lu Shiqian frowned, he didn't expect Nian Nian to misunderstand him so deeply.
But when I think about my previous self, I did ignore a lot of things about Nian Nian, and I never understood who the person she cared about was, so I couldn't see how much she cared about him.
"I always thought the person you loved was Huo Huaijin."
He chuckled, suddenly feeling that the two of them were somewhat similar in some aspects.
"So I want to get close to you but don't dare. I force myself to stay away from you. I don't want to see you so close to other men."
Gu Nian saw that he was admitting so generously, his eyes were full of emotion, and there was no trace of lying at all.
Is this really the case?
But why couldn't he ask her directly?
"But everything is just your imagination. Huo Huaijin is just my brother." On the contrary, he treated Si Xue very seriously.
Lu Shiqian moved closer to her, hesitated for a moment and finally reached out to hold her shoulders.
"Nian Nian, give me some patience and listen to what I have to say, okay?"
Gu Nian originally wanted to remove his hand, but after hearing the words, he paused and made no move.
"It was all my fault back then. I didn't dare to express my feelings to you for fear of being rejected by you." Lu Shiqian thought about the past, flashing before his eyes like a movie, "I regret it."
"I regret it every day now."
If I had known earlier...
"If I had known that our cowardice would have caused us to miss so much, I would have expressed my love for you from the moment I met you at the age of eighteen."
Gu Nian looked into his eyes, which were filled with sparkling water and reflected her appearance. No one knew that there was a tsunami in her heart.
"I……"
"It's not that I haven't thought about giving up."
Seeing that she didn't speak, Lu Shiqian continued: "I have thought about it."
"But when I think about it, if I really give up, there will be no future between us." The bitterness at the corner of his mouth seemed to extend to his heart, "I can't help not seeing you, and I can't help not loving you."
"so what?"
Seeing him like this, Gu Nian smiled bitterly.
Does saying this mean the past can be wiped out?
Even though none of what she had experienced was done by him, it was all because of him.
Who knows if it will happen again in the future?
Gu Nian said without hesitation this time: "Your feelings are to allow people around you to hurt me again and again."
"sorry."
Lu Shiqian could no longer control his emotions and pulled her into his arms, "I'm sorry Nian Nian."
"It was never my intention to hurt you. I will make it up to you in the future, or you can punish me however you want, as long as you... don't leave me."
He buried his head on Gu Nian's shoulder, his voice choked with sobs.
"There is also the matter of my mother. I promise you that it will not happen again. I will definitely protect you."
Gu Nian stood still, his hands hanging naturally on both sides.
Her calm voice seemed to be just explaining the facts, "You said it nicely, but if it happens again, can you be so cruel as to send your mother to the police station?"
If you do something wrong, you have to pay the price.
Even if that person is Du Yanqiu, it is no exception.
Lu Shiqian was silent for a moment, then said with difficulty: "Yes."
Gu Nian was shocked. She didn't expect that he would actually say this word.
After all, that person is his biological mother.
So is Lu Shiqian sincere?
Can she still trust him now?
But……
Scenes from the past are flashing through my mind, so how can I just let them go?
But Yaobao and Yubao's attitude towards him has also changed. If she doesn't think more about it, she's afraid...
Gu Nian felt the temperature on the man's body, and it felt like there were two strands of hemp rope in her heart, each exerting force in opposite directions, tearing at will, and no one wanted to give in.
She felt like she was about to be torn in half.
Lu Shiqian let go of her, his eyes lingering on that face. He saw struggle and pain in her eyes, and he suddenly understood.
"Niannian, are you because of that child?"
"……What?"
Gu Nian raised his eyebrows in surprise.
Lu Shiqian moved his fingers, and after a moment he said, "Are you worried about the child you have with Lin Yichen?"
He doesn't even care about this now.
As long as she can come back to him, he can accept anything.
"If you are really worried, you can bring that child over to live together. He and Yao Bao Yu Bao are about the same age, so they should be able to get along very well."
Gu Nian almost didn't realize what he said, and after being stunned for a while, she almost didn't laugh out loud.
He hadn't even realized that there was no such child.
Should I say he has a big heart or... care is chaos.
Thinking of this, she turned serious, but felt happy in her heart, "Well, you're right."
"I'm just worried about that child, but since you said so, then I..."
"Think about it."
After Gu Nian finished speaking, he casually put his hands on his back, lifted one foot and rubbed the floor idly, his eyes wandering and not looking at his serious expression.
Lu Shiqian couldn't believe his ears, and the ecstasy that followed.
"Nian Nian, you finally agreed?"
"Just thinking about it."
Gu Nian reminded mercilessly, "As for the result, let's talk about it later."
Even so, it was enough for Lu Shiqian to be ecstatic.
He kept staring at her for a long time, feeling that every vivid expression of the woman in front of him happened to fall on his heart. After a while, he smiled and said, "Okay, you think about it."
At least it's better than a merciless rejection.
After everything was said, the atmosphere between the two seemed to be more relaxed, and even visiting the exhibition hall together did not feel so awkward.
After looking around, Gu Nian glanced at the time.
Since Yao Bao and Yu Bao were at home, she was a little uneasy.
"That's almost it. Let's go back today, shall we?"
Lu Shiqian had achieved what he wanted, so he naturally had no objections, "Okay."
The two walked out of the exhibition hall side by side. Gu Nian stopped in front of the parking lot, turned to look at the man behind him, raised his hand, "I'd better return this necklace to you first."