Chapter 285 Don't want to be bound by her because of the child?
Her appearance that day not only prevented his suicide and saved his life, but also gave him his first sense of responsibility and commitment in life. She said she wanted to marry her.
Even though it was just a child's words, it cleansed his soul and made him feel that there was still something he missed in this world.
Later, he was mentally and physically abused by Pei Suqing, and was found by his biological father. He learned that he and his biological mother were abandoned people, and that his biological mother was trampled to death in a car accident. He even went to the Huo family and grew up in an indifferent environment...
It all relies on such a small amount of warmth to cheer me up.
Therefore, his feelings and yearning for that soft and waxy little fairy are simply incomprehensible to people who live a smooth life.
Of course, when he asked Fang Ruiheng to find a little fairy two years ago, he had not yet married Su Mi, and Su Mi did not exist in his life at all.
If I had been married at that time, and if I and Su Mi were like now...
Will he still look for the little fairy?
His black eyelashes twitched, he raised his head and glanced at the closed door.
He doesn't know.
Maybe not.
But, there is no if in this world.
Now, he only knows that the existence of the little fairy is not only a person, but also his belief.
Therefore, he must find her.
Never give up.
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In the bedroom.
Su Mi locked the door behind her and leaned her back against the door leaf, dazed for several minutes.
It’s not that I don’t want to cry.
I just can't cry.
There seems to be a very secret pain point deep in my heart.
I can't scratch it with my hands, I can only endure the pain with my eyes.
It's not a severe pain.
It's just faint, like ants, it overflows all over the body.
It made her feel uneasy all over.
She thought that after her rebirth, she performed very well emotionally, at least much better than in her previous life.
She believed that with her own efforts, she would be able to win his sincerity and grow old together with him.
I can't stand it, giving birth to a little fairy is such a variable.
In the eyes of that man, a marriage that lasted less than a year was nothing compared to a dazzling cinnabar mole that saved his life when he was young.
Of course, she also re-examined herself. Could it be that she was overthinking?
The little fairy was only a little girl of about five years old when she met him.
It is not an exaggeration to say that he is still a half-grown baby.
For a little baby, there should be no love between a man and a woman...
But if there is really no special relationship, will a mature and calm man who never does meaningless things spend his energy on searching for two years?
She didn't want to lie to herself.
Besides, the little fairy now is no longer a little girl.
She has grown into a young and graceful girl.
She could not imagine what kind of different emotions would be aroused when he met the grown-up little fairy with his special feelings.
Maybe it's because she doesn't have full confidence in her relationship with him yet.
It always feels like fine sand between your fingers. When you squeeze it tightly, it can last a lifetime, but when you let go, it can slip away at any time.
But, how did he ever give her confidence?
From the time he wore the mask for many years without taking it off, until he brought the Jin family subordinates to Country J to rescue him, and finally when he concealed the fact that his biological father was Jin Fengtai...
Of all his secrets, how many did he tell himself personally?
She mostly discovered it herself.
A large part of a woman's self-confidence in a relationship is given by a man.
Rather than being angry that he was secretly looking for the little fairy and fearing that his relationship would change after finding the little fairy, it was better to be angry that he was so attentive to another woman.
It's been so long and he hasn't even come to knock on the door to look for me.
It seems that he has firmed up his mind.
Little fairy, he must continue to look for her.
She suddenly remembered that ever since he knew she had a low chance of getting pregnant, he had always said there was no rush and that he was not interested in being a father.
Yesterday I saw her drinking Chinese medicine soup, and I even asked her not to drink it again.
When she listened to it, she felt very sweet and felt warm in her heart.
Now that I think about it carefully, my back feels cold.
Is he really not in a hurry and not interested in being a father?
Or, he just doesn't want her to have children for him?
Don't want to be tied up by her because of the child?
When you think about it, it's true.
Even when Huo Qidong was still alive and before he seized power in the Huo Group, he never thought of letting her have children to consolidate his position.
She was still on birth control at that time, and she had sex with him many times, but she never got pregnant, and he never said anything.
Thinking about it now, he didn't care whether she was pregnant or not, and he probably didn't even want her to be pregnant.
because--
In his heart, he still wanted to meet and develop with that little fairy again.
The person he really dreams of sleeping beside should be the girl who once saved him and was the only light in his dark life.
Once he has a child with her, there will be more involvement and more troubles.
It was even a relief for him to learn that she was currently suffering from physical problems and had a low chance of getting pregnant.
Maybe he just used his ability and the backlash came.
Her heart was experiencing cramping pains, and her head was a little dizzy and confused.
He leaned his back against the door, grabbed his collar with his hands, and rubbed it several times.
Finally, he walked towards the bathroom like a zombie.
Want to take a bath.
Get rid of this bad luck.
She walked in confusedly and changed into the slippers in the bathroom.
Maybe the tiles were too slippery, or maybe she was still dizzy. She accidentally missed a step and stumbled forward. Fortunately, she held onto the edge of the bathtub with both hands in time to avoid falling. However, after such a pull, her calf fell.
There was a burning pain in the area.
The pain was so intense and sudden that she collapsed on the ground and burst into tears.
With the tears welling up, she simply sat on the ground, leaned against the bathtub, hugged her knees and cried silently.
I don't know if it's because of pain or catharsis.
After she was reborn, she often told herself not to cry again.
If you want to cry, you also want to make those who hurt you cry!
Except for filming, Su Mi, you can only shed tears once a year at most!
After a long while, she wiped away her tears and wrinkled her red nose.
Su Mi, you have spent your only share for the whole year.
Don't cry anymore.
Taking a deep breath, she rolled up her pants and discovered a bruise on the white skin of her calf.
Obviously there was no wrestling or collision just now.
Maybe it was accidentally bumped into the wall in the garage before.
I didn't care about it after that.
She didn't want to go downstairs to get medicine for fear of bumping into Huo Shenxiu again.
At this moment, she didn't want to see him at all.
She got up, took out a cotton pad, dipped it in some 75% alcohol, and disinfected the area around the bruise before turning on the hot water and taking a shower.
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That night, Su Mi tossed and turned, half asleep and half awake, and almost never fell asleep.
It was late at night and I managed to fall asleep.
But just after dawn, I woke up again.
There is a play only this afternoon, so there is no need to go to the set in the morning.
She just continued to lie on the bed playing with her mobile phone and chatting with Bai Xiran, not wanting to go out.
I want to wait until Huo Shenxiu goes out before going out.