"So when I heard about it from other people, I knew that the day I guessed had arrived, and it was not a big surprise."
Although on the surface he still looked as quiet and peaceful as before, with a calm and calm face, Malashenko still noticed the fleeting trace between the eyebrows of his lover who he had been watching quietly.
A hint of sadness and worry.
Obviously, Natalia is not as strong as she expressed in her own words.
Malashenko can naturally guess the reason why he wants to portray himself as a slightly different image in his words. If it weren't for the fact that he loves so deeply that he can't extricate himself to the point that he would rather sacrifice himself for the sake of his lover,
There is absolutely no reason for a woman who is 3 years older than me to do this.
"There is no need to ask again and again about this matter and what kind of results we want to seek. I never had such an idea from the beginning."
"Since I was a child, I have experienced countless tragedies and pains. I don't even remember how many. If I were not strong enough, I really wouldn't be able to get to where I am today. But fortunately, I have always had you by my side.
Beside me, my dear."
"Besides you, I have no one else I can trust. I... I will even be afraid of this country and those people, who will do to us what we did to my parents again. I have nightmares more than once
I have seen this scene in my dream: Soldiers with guns took my father away by force, punched, kicked and cursed the housekeeper and servants."
"I don't even know where my mother went in the end. After she was forced to separate, I never saw her again. Even if she is dead, I don't know where she is buried. I can only pass
This is something to express my condolences."
With tears hanging in the corners of her eyes and her voice full of tears, Natalya trembled slightly and took out a string of metal pendants from her clothes, holding them in her hands to show Malashenko.
Malashenko remembered this thing, having seen it more than once in his inherited memories.
It was the only relic left by Natalia's mother to her: a pendant with very simple workmanship, far from luxurious and gorgeous, just like an ornament worn by ordinary people, with a embossed metal flower embedded in it.
Small carved flowers.
This was something Natalia's mother had owned before she met her father. At that time, the beautiful girl was just an ordinary person, not a noble.
The origin of this pendant is that a servant who was finally released after being imprisoned for a long time had to go through all kinds of hardships to find Natalia and give it to her.
It is said that it was Natalia's mother who asked the servant to give it to her only daughter as a token.
With it, even if the daughter's appearance has been forgotten after many years and the child has grown up, the mother can still find her child with the token and confirm her identity.
Now, Natalia no longer hopes to find her mother with this thing, maybe she is already dead.
The preservation of this thing to this day is more of a reflection of the grief of my loved ones.
Malashenko could understand Natalya's feelings and knew how important this small pendant was to his wife. Haunted by deep guilt and love, Malashenko couldn't help but
He held his lover tighter in his arms, closer to his chest.
"I know what I have to face, and I can bear it. I have already been prepared for it."
"I just hope this won't separate us, my dear. You have been the only one who has always existed in my world since I was a child. I lost my parents, my home, and the people who loved me and what I once had."
Everything I love and have, I really can’t bear the pain of losing you anymore!”
"As long as I can always have my place in your heart, I will be satisfied. I only remember the home in my childhood as a happy and harmonious one. I have always believed that you will be a more powerful person than my father."
You will do better than him, and I just want to be by your side to witness the happening and arrival of all this. This is the only thing I want to say."
From smiling and speaking softly at the beginning, to now crying into a ball.
Natalia's huge changes in just a few minutes were like the ups and downs of her life experience, reappearing again.
When she was a child, Natalia once had the purest and most beautiful happiness, but it was torn into pieces and completely lost in a sudden change.
The subsequent stories are full of misfortune and sorrow. Fortunately, when Natalia was very young, a "similar" friend who also lost her biological parents stayed with her and never left her.
When she was discriminated against and no other children wanted to play with her, it was the little boy in ragged clothes who quietly hid behind the tree and looked at her. After mustering up the courage, he finally came to her and stretched out his hand to take out his
Use the wooden toys carved out by your newly learned carpenter and invite her to share the joy of making the toys with her own hands.
When she was bullied, looked down upon because of her poor background and lack of parents, and was pushed around like a rag doll by urchins in the mud and water. She was the one who was only 12 years old and over 1.7 meters tall.
"Giant Boy" stood up in the pouring rain, using his fists as big as sand bowls and his tall and unshakable body, he beat the group of urchins until their noses were bruised and their faces were swollen, and they fled in embarrassment.
That day, we were warming up under the dilapidated wooden shed to hide from the rain, hanging clothes to ward off the cold, and the laughter was probably the happiest thing in Natalia's memory as a girl, even though it was a girl who was three years younger than her.
of boys.
A girl's most ignorant first love and love sprouted and were born at that time.
"Do you still remember the scene of taking shelter from the rain and drying clothes under the shabby hut of Uncle Ivan's house? I still haven't forgotten it."
Just like Natalia had just cut the topic, Malashenko also chose to use the same method to lead the topic to common memories.
"Of course I remember. That is a day I will never forget. Why do you ask about this suddenly? My dear."
Just like it has not cleared up after the rain, but the first ray of sunshine has broken through the clouds in the sky and sprinkled on the earth. The important memory that Malashenko believed was enough to make Natalia stop crying and
Sadness jumps from unfortunate memories to memories that are completely opposite to them.
Looking at my lover who still has tears in his arms, but a smile has once again appeared on his face.
Malashenko, who was convinced that he could accurately retrieve the unique first-born emotion from the memory he inherited from that day, spoke again.
"Maybe many years have passed, but I still clearly remember that at that moment, I made the decision to accompany this girl throughout my life. I am very happy to see that I have not changed today, and I can still
Stay with her quietly like you are now."
Between true lovers, there are always some shared memories that are worth remembering forever, which is what people often call beautiful.
It is fortunate and inevitable that there is indeed such an unforgettable moment between Malashenko and Natalia.
There was no oath of love, and there was no exchange of promises between each other, but the most ignorant and innocent you looked at me, and I looked at your shyness and silly smile, but it became a love between the two of them in the patter of rain and the warmth of the fire.
A shared moment that can never be erased.
"I hope I can hold your hand all the time, no matter what happens, and witness the equally beautiful tomorrow of our love and your future."