After trying your best, even if you don't get the best result, please let yourself go.
Wang Shishi found it difficult to accept this fact, and was so heartbroken that she almost fainted.
She woke up from a dream and saw Xu Yanqing sleeping next to her, holding her in her arms.
At the door not far away, a slender figure was leaning against her. Yuzhi was staring at her, as if he was afraid that she would suddenly seek death again.
Wang Shishi looked at the bedside table and saw that the jar was still there.
She patted Xu Yanqing's shoulder. She was not sleeping deeply and woke up suddenly.
"I'm fine, you can go back."
Xu Yanqing sat up and said, "Get some sleep."
"I want to be alone for a while."
"Okay, but don't do anything stupid."
Wang Shishi was so weak that she could only nod her head.
Xu Yanqing walked outside. She stood on the corridor, listening to the gentle rain. There were two lotus leaves in a ceramic jar, with thin poles holding up the huge round leaves, and the rainwater inside was swaying.
The ground was covered with mud stains and trampled dead flowers and leaves, which was a pity.
Xu Yanqing saw a poncho hanging on the wall. She walked over and put it on herself, and picked up all the flowers and trees that were still alive.
Yu Zhi tried to pull her away, "You don't need to do this kind of work."
"I can't sleep anyway, and I don't plan to sleep today." Xu Yanqing pushed him back to the corridor, "Just keep an eye on her, so that nothing happens to her."
Wang Shishi walked to the window, pushed open the window with one hand, and saw the man leaning outside.
She smashed all the flower pots, so Xu Yanqing picked up a piece of green onion in the corner and planted all the roses in it.
Wang Shishi leaned there helplessly, her whole body was as weak as a sick young man.
The two of them just looked at Xu Yanqing's busy figure, and Yuzhi smoked another cigarette. His expression was swallowed up, and a deep mark was carved on his face by the light falling from the cornice.
"I seem to know what exactly you like about her..."
Wang Shishi crossed her arms tightly, shivering from the cold, but she was reluctant to go back to bed, "Just like me, I am afraid of silence and death at this moment. Only when I see her vivid appearance, I
Only then did I feel that I was alive. Yuzhi, are you like this too?"
Yu Zhi said nothing, his eyes following Xu Yanqing.
"This girl is really nice. I like her too. I like her from the bottom of my heart."
Everyone has the moment of collapse, but she is stronger than anyone else.
Xu Yanqing tidied up the yard inside and out, but Wang Shishi couldn't bear it anymore, so she went back to bed and fell asleep again.
At the door of the private restaurant, there was a sign saying it was temporarily closed. After Xu Yanqing finished his work, he squatted in front of a water pipe and prepared to wash his hands.
Yu Zhi came over and rolled up her sleeves. He turned on the faucet and let the water wash over Xu Yanqing's fingers.
There was mud between her fingers, Yu Zhi had a cigarette in the corner of his mouth, and his teeth were clenched. He had not slept all night, so he looked very lazy and a little bit naughty.
"I can do it myself." Xu Yanqing shrank back.
Yu Zhi didn't let go and applied hand sanitizer to her again.
She looked up and saw bloody fingerprints on his white shirt, which were all made by Wang Shishi.
He washed carefully until a pair of white palms were exposed, and then he let go.
There was no one nearby who was wiping her hands, so Xu Yanqing shook her hands twice, and Yuzhi took her shirt out of her waistband and wiped her hands with the hem of his clothes.
"Let's change clothes."
"It's okay. Do you dislike me?"
Xu Yanqing shook his head, "I'm just looking at Tai Shen."
Wang Shishi woke up and fell asleep, crying and fussing. Xu Yan felt like crying while listening.
She moved a small bench and sat on the corridor paved with bluestone slabs, watching the rain fall and listening to the wail of a woman mourning her lover.
No one can help her, so be tough.
Xu Yanqing raised her hand and wiped the corners of her eyes. One day, if something like this happened to her, she would definitely get over it.
Yu Zhi came to her side and squatted down. The bench was too low, and the knee of his right leg could only press on the ground.
"What are you looking at?"
"Watch the rain."
"What's so good about rain?"
Xu Yanqing's voice was colder than the rain, "I don't want to talk to you."
"Huh?" Yu Zhi wrapped his arms tightly around her waist, and the cold air on his body was swept away.
He kissed her cheek, which was tender and smooth, like the tenderest white tofu.
The two of them stayed here all day, and the rain stopped at night.
When Wang Shishi came out of the bedroom, she had a fever. Pei Ren had come during the day and treated her wounds.
She sat down on a mahogany chair, leaning on the handle, as if she was about to fall down at any moment.
"You go back, I won't do anything stupid again."
Yu Zhi folded his sleeves at his elbows, with a stern look on his face, "Now can you tell me, how do you know where A Yue's ashes are?"
Wang Shishi closed her eyes, her heart still ached terribly. "I received a call. It was a man. The number was unfamiliar."
"What did he say?"
Wang Shishi's lips trembled and her voice was broken, "He said I was a fool and the person I waited for would never come back. He asked me if I dreamed about Ayue in the middle of the night?"
Killing people and killing one's heart is nothing more than that.
Before Yu Zhi left, he asked Jiang Huai to arrange for many people to be here. He must not let anything happen to Wang Shishi again.
Back in the capital of Jiangnan, Xu Yanqing ate a few mouthfuls of food and then fell asleep. His body was almost too tired to hold on.
When she got up the next morning, she didn't see Yu Zhi's figure, so she must have gone out.
Xu Yanqing went to the bathroom and was about to brush his teeth when he felt a little uncomfortable in his stomach.
It doesn't hurt, it just feels blocked and makes me want to vomit.
She had a bad premonition in her heart, so she counted her aunt's period, which took about a week.
This situation has happened before. The possibility that Xu Yanqing wants to get pregnant should be very small. After all, she is still taking birth control pills.
On her way to work, she stopped at the drug store.
After Xu Yanqing arrived at the company, he went to the bathroom immediately.
Upon first inspection, I was almost shocked. Although the second rod was not deep, I could see it clearly.
She is actually pregnant!
She returned to her seat in a daze, feeling confused and almost without thoughts all day long.
In the evening, when Xu Yanqing returned home, the lights in the house were on.
She changed her shoes and wanted to go back to the room, but she was stopped by Yu Zhi, "Come here."
Xu Yanqing walked slowly, her previous promise to Yu Zhi still ringing in her ears, but this child...
She was a little distracted until she walked in front of the man.
Yu Zhi reached for her bag and put it on the table.
Xu Yan heard the sound of the zipper being opened. She followed it and saw Yu Zhi picking up the bottle of medicine.
He stared at Xu Yanqing closely, then unscrewed the cap of the bottle and poured out the pills.
"As you said before, this is a vitamin, right?"
Xu Yan listened to Yu Zhi's tone and seemed to be holding back a surge of anger. He suddenly stuffed the medicine into his mouth.
Xu Yanqing stretched out her hand to stop him in fear, "What are you doing!"