Su An burst into tears, and there was only despair in her eyes.
"Lele..."
She looked at Zhu Zhile in a state of collapse and begged her countless times.
"Please, let me accompany my senior... I'm in so much pain... so much pain..."
She was panting heavily, and it seemed that even breathing was extremely difficult for her.
"An'an..."
Zhu Zhile's tears also fell. She hurriedly bent down to pick up the letter on the ground, but inadvertently scanned the last few lines of the letter and froze suddenly.
After seeing clearly what was written on it, her eyes lit up instantly and she hurriedly sat down next to Su An!
"An'an, have you read this letter?"
Not sure whether Su An had finished reading, Zhu Zhile once again spread the letter in front of her eyes and said excitedly, "Did you see what Senior Lu wrote at the end? He said he hoped you would be safe and happy, and live a hundred years without worries...
"
"No...I don't deserve it!"
Su An's emotions suddenly broke out, and tears fell down again, "Lele, senior, he is no longer here! He died because of me! How can I deserve happiness... I am the most damned person in the world!"
"But this is his birthday wish!"
Zhu Zhile thought about the last short line of the letter, as if grasping the last straw.
She held Su An's shoulders and forced her to look at her.
"An'an! This is the senior's birthday wish! Do you understand the meaning of the birthday wish? This is his last birthday... If he knew in heaven, your reaction after seeing this letter, since you want to die! Then
How can you let him feel at ease? Are you really not even willing to fulfill his last wish to stay in this world!"
Zhu Zhile's emotions were stretched to the limit.
For so many days, neither she nor Gu Jingchen could change An An's mind.
What if it was Lu Ziting!
What about the wishes written by Lu Ziting himself?
She looked at Su An nervously, waiting for her answer.
As expected, Su An became quiet because of her words.
She stared blankly at the letter in Zhu Zhile's hand, as if thinking about what he just said.
A glimmer of hope suddenly ignited in Zhu Zhile's eyes, and he hurriedly continued, "An An, I know, you are definitely not willing to let him down, right?"
"I……"
Su An opened her mouth, spit out a broken syllable, shook her head gently, and whimpered.
"I... I owe my senior so much... I owe my senior's family so much... How could I..."
"you can!!!"
Zhu Zhile knew that her determination had been shaken by him, so he hurriedly pursued the victory.
"An'an, let's put aside those pessimistic thoughts. What do you think... what if the senior didn't save you that day? If you were the one who had the accident that day, would you be willing to see him give up his life for you!"
"No……"
Su An shook his head subconsciously.
"Since you don't want to, how can you make him feel at ease now?"
Zhu Zhile continued to ask, pointing to the last two sentences at the end of the letter.
"His wishes are already in front of you. Even so, don't you want to live? I don't know if the Lu family said anything to you, but you have to believe that even if everyone in this world wants
You are responsible for Lu Ziting's death, but they are not qualified!"
"Because the person who loves you the most wants you to live well and live a long life! Just take his wishes for you and live well, and it will be regarded as fulfilling his wish, isn't it good...
…”
"Lele, I..."
Su An burst into tears and her mind went blank.
This letter from Lu Ziting really had a huge impact on her.
Or, it's redemption.
It seemed as if she had transcended time and space, dragging her out of the darkness.
If the senior’s last wish is for her to live well...
The next second——
"Lele, I'm sorry..."
Su An suddenly hugged Zhu Zhile and burst into tears.
But compared to her previous depression, her cry this time was more like a release.
"It's okay, there's nothing to be sorry for. Just be okay...just be okay...promise me not to do stupid things again, okay..."
"Um……"
Su An finally nodded gently.
Although the response mixed with the crying was very small, Zhu Zhile still heard it.
She patted Su An's shoulder gently, and her heart, which had been hanging on the edge of the cliff for many days, finally came back.
After crying for a long time, Su An finally regained her composure.
His eyes are no longer like before, like a pool of stagnant water.
Zhu Zhile wiped away her tears, looked at her red and swollen eyes, and stood up.
"I'm going to get you some ice packs to put on your eyes, okay?"
"Um."
Su An nodded gently.
Although she still looked a little dazed, she responded to Zhu Zhile faster than ever.
Zhu Zhile was overjoyed and asked hurriedly, "Then... I will make some sweet soup in a moment, and you can have a small bowl, okay?"
"good."
Su An agreed again.
Even if there was only one word, Zhu Zhile was instantly overjoyed!
An An is willing to take the initiative to eat!
She really changed her mind!
"An'an, you rest for a while, I'll do it now!"
Zhu Zhile said, hurriedly turned and went downstairs, quickly fetched an ice pack and handed it to Su An, then plunged into the kitchen again, wanting to make some soup to replenish Su An.
The sound of her clanging in the kitchen quickly attracted Gu Jingchen.
"What are you doing?"
Gu Jingchen stood outside the kitchen door, looking at Zhu Zhile in confusion.
Then I heard her reply excitedly, "An An is willing to eat! I'm making soup for her!"
"What?"
Gu Jingchen was stunned for a moment, seemingly unable to respond to what he said.
After two seconds, he confirmed again in disbelief, "You said An'an..."
"She wants to eat!"
Zhu Zhile repeated it again.
Gu Jingchen stood there, wondering if he was dreaming.
An An... suddenly changed his mind?
"How did you do it?"
He was also a little excited and stood beside Zhu Zhile in two steps.
The movements of Zhu Zhile's hands suddenly paused for a moment.
Naturally, she would not tell anything about Lu Ziting.
But, how to explain...
After thinking for two seconds, she said.
"I was trying to persuade An'an just now. I couldn't help but cry as I was talking. Maybe I cried too hard. She suddenly started crying too, and then... she hugged me and said sorry. Maybe it was because she looked at me like this.
I’ve been too mentally and physically exhausted for a while, so you don’t want to make me sad. Anyway, it’s a good thing that she’s willing to eat!”
Zhu Zhile was afraid that Gu Jingchen would find something, so he quickly finished the reasons he had thought of in one breath.
As soon as the words fell——
Gu Jingchen suddenly turned around and said, "I'll go up and see her..."
"Wait a moment!"
Zhu Zhile immediately spoke to stop him, and a flash of panic flashed through his eyes.
An An might still be reading the letter from Lu Ziting upstairs.
It's best not to be discovered by Gu Jingchen!
She thought and spoke hurriedly.
"It's hard for An'an to be willing to eat now. If I see you in a bad mood and suddenly don't want to eat, my efforts will be in vain! If you really care about her, why not... stay and help me!"
In order to prevent Gu Jingchen from going up to see Su An secretly, Zhu Zhile simply kept him behind.
"good."
As expected, Gu Jingchen agreed immediately, rolled up his sleeves and went to wash his hands.
Zhu Zhile breathed a sigh of relief.
After simmering the soup quickly, he blocked Gu Jingchen from the door again with the same reason, and went back to the room alone to find Su An.
Two days in a row.
Su An did not refuse to eat again.
Although I have a bad appetite, I am still willing to start eating.
Zhu Zhile and Gu Jingchen were both very happy and cooked food for her in different ways almost every day.
only……
Su An was still unwilling to talk to Gu Jingchen.
Even if he saw Gu Jingchen standing outside the door, he would only glance at him briefly and then ignore him.
Afternoon——
Zhu Zhile took Su An to sit by the window and combed her long hair.
"An'an, can I braid your hair? It's a very popular style among girls outside recently!"
Zhu Zhile wanted to make Su An happy. As he spoke, his skillful hands started to move.
Su An nodded and said nothing.
Within a moment, Zhu Zhile was pushed to the mirror.
"Look! Isn't it beautiful?"
Zhu Zhile asked with a smile.
As a senior stylist, this simple braiding of hair is easy for her.
In the mirror, Su An's originally loose long hair was gently pulled up by two strands, braided into thin braids, passed around the top of her head, and hidden in the long hair behind her, making her look younger.
He looks a lot like a student who is still in college.
University……
These two words reminded Su An of Lu Ziting again.
If the senior was still here, if they were really engaged, he would definitely hold her hand and walk around the campus all over again...
Su An blinked, her eyes began to feel sore again, and an idea suddenly came to her mind.
"Lele..."
She called Zhu Zhile softly.
"Huh? What's wrong?"
Zhu Zhile responded with a smile.
Then I heard Su An say——
"Can you do me a favor?"
"Crack!"
The comb in Zhu Zhile's hand fell directly to the ground.
The smile on his lips also stiffened.
"An'an... you... you..."
She stammered and didn't understand why Su An had the idea of committing suicide again!
Wasn't it fine just now?
Seeing that she looked wrong, Su An knew that she had misunderstood, and hurriedly explained, "Lele, don't be afraid, I...I didn't mean what I meant before..."
"Then what do you mean..."
Zhu Zhile asked blankly, really afraid of this sentence.
Su An sighed, held her hand again, and then continued.
"I'm sorry, Lele, I know the words I said before scared you... I promise you, I won't say those words again. This time, I want you to help me get out of here..."
"leave?"
Hearing that she was not seeking death, Zhu Zhile breathed a sigh of relief and looked at her in confusion.
"Yes, leave."
Su An nodded and said, turned back to the bed and carefully took out the letter he had hidden under the pillow.
"In the senior's letter, he wrote about many places he wanted to go with me. I wanted to go and have a look on his behalf, and then choose a suitable place to settle down, and never come back again. Just think... I'm with him.
Live there."
"Are you sure you've thought about it?"
Zhu Zhile took a step forward, thinking that almost all the places mentioned in the letter were abroad, and looked vaguely worried.
"Um."
Su An nodded, her voice light and airy, but her eyes were full of determination.
She has already thought about it.
Since there is nothing left to miss in this place, why not live in the place that the seniors long for.
Her life was left for him.
Therefore, she has to do everything she wants to do for him.
Su An looked at Zhu Zhile, thinking that she didn't want to help, so she said again, "Lele, you..."
"Okay, I promise you."
Zhu Zhile suddenly spoke and agreed directly without waiting for Su An to finish.
She thought clearly.
As long as Su An no longer thinks of committing suicide, maybe it would be a good thing for her to live in another place!
only……
"If we leave like this, Gu Jingchen will definitely come looking for you, right?"
Zhu Zhile asked hesitantly.
Su An also paused after hearing this, and then nodded gently.
That's right.
If he left like this, Gu Jingchen would definitely come looking for him.
Maybe someone will be secretly sent to investigate her whereabouts...
Su An thought, and then heard Zhu Zhile say, "How about... we sneak away while he is sleeping at night?"
"No."
Su An shook his head and said softly, "Neither you nor I can guarantee when he will wake up. I don't want to take risks."
If you fail to leave once, it will be even more difficult to be found by Gu Jingchen again and want to leave.
She really doesn't want to have anything to do with him anymore, she just wants to spend the rest of her life quietly by herself...
So find a time when Gu Jingchen is not around, and then run far away.
So far away that by the time he reacted, the two of them would never see each other again in this life!
This matter can only be discussed in the long term.
The air was quiet for a moment.
After a while, Zhu Zhile said helplessly, "Then we can only wait. Gu Jingchen doesn't seem to go out much recently. His assistant comes to report everything in person, but..."
She was mid-sentence, hesitated for two seconds, and then continued, "But I seemed to hear something once. It seemed that the Gu family's mother was angry because he hadn't been home for so long?"
"Yeah?"
Su An's eyes lit up, and hope instantly ignited in her eyes.
Qiu Shuya...
How could she forget that there was Qiu Shuya!
"Lele."
Su An took a deep breath and said hurriedly, "Gu Jingchen always listens to his mother's words. Since his mother is angry, he will definitely find a time to go home."
"Really? That's our chance to leave!"
Zhu Zhile also became excited instantly.
Both of them thought that the opportunity to leave was just around the corner.
But after waiting for three days, Gu Jingchen still showed no sign of going out.
Su An couldn't help feeling a little discouraged, and her desire to leave became stronger and stronger, making her a little anxious.
Zhu Zhile could only try his best to comfort her while keeping an eye on Gu Jingchen to see if he showed any signs of going out.
Until the fourth day——
As soon as Zhu Zhile got up, he saw a message from Gu Jingchen on the screen.
She opened it in a daze, looked at it twice, and then sat up suddenly!