But in my heart... I can't tell what it feels like.
Afraid that Gu Jingchen would continue to ask questions, she hurriedly changed the subject and asked, "What about you? Are you happy?"
"I?"
Gu Jingchen was startled when he heard this, his expression suddenly became a little deep, and he looked straight into Su An's eyes, as if he wanted to see the other person hidden under the mask through those eyes.
Su An felt a little uncomfortable being stared at by his eyes, and suddenly became nervous. Just as she was about to avoid his eyes, she heard——
"Happy, I haven't been this happy for a long time..."
Gu Jingchen actually answered, with a hint of sadness in his tone.
Su An casually fiddled with the strands of hair beside her ears, and suddenly felt that this seemed like a good time to chat.
After a while, she tentatively asked, "Are you...unhappy all the time?"
Gu Jingchen paused in his steps.
The two people happened to be standing at the entrance of an alley, and the afterglow of the setting sun formed an obvious boundary line on the ground.
Su An waited nervously for Gu Jingchen's answer.
Her question did not cross the line. It depends on whether Gu Jingchen's answer is perfunctory or whether he chooses to actively cross the line and tell the person in front of him what is in his heart.
Every second seems to be stretched extremely long.
Just when Su An finally couldn't help but plan to skip this topic——
"Um."
Gu Jingchen actually responded!
There were still incomprehensible emotions in his eyes. He fixed his gaze on Su An and continued, "It's not that I'm unhappy, it's just... I haven't gotten over some things. I used to
…I did a lot of wrong things…”
As Gu Jingchen said, he couldn't help but be cautious in his eyes.
He wanted to apologize to An An.
Want to make up for An An.
But these words can only be expressed in this way now.
Can she...understand?
The two people looked at each other silently.
Su An naturally understood what he meant.
In other words, through this period of time together, she has seen and felt that he is stuck in the past.
only……
But she didn't want to pursue that much.
The love has passed, and all she thinks about now is the little guy who is still far away in the hands of others.
Her children are now the entire focus of her life.
Other things will eventually fade away over time.
Just like Gu Jingchen.
I will also fall in love with "Xia Xiaomo", but I just feel guilty about "Su An".
So, what should "Xia Xiaomo" who should only focus on Gu Jingchen do?
Su An thought, with a smile on her lips.
The hands held by Gu Jingchen also became clasped, and then he spoke softly with temptation and a little "temptation", "What if... someone wants to pull you out of those memories?"
Her smile was so warm that it made Gu Jingchen's heart tremble slightly.
only……
If the person in front of him didn't have the face of "Xia Xiaomo", he would almost really think that he was forgiven by An An.
Gu Jingchen smiled bitterly in his heart and read some expectation from Su An's eyes.
What is she expecting?
Are you looking forward to using the identity of "Xia Xiaomo" to start over with him?
No matter what she wants to do, he is willing to cooperate...
Gu Jingchen's eyes dimmed and he suddenly led Su An towards the alley aside.
The two of them crossed the sunlight and came into the shadows.
The next second——
The tall man suddenly turned around, protected the back of the woman's head with one hand, grabbed her slender waist with the other, and kissed her directly!
Su An's eyes suddenly widened.
The familiar scent came overwhelmingly, occupying all the senses instantly.
Gu Jingchen's kiss came suddenly, but there was nothing aggressive about it. It seemed to be just a test.
But it was like fireworks exploding in Su An's mind. There was uneasiness, trembling, and surprise, but they all merged into one emotion in the end.
That is...
The opportunity she has been waiting for has finally arrived!
Su An closed her eyes, tightly grasped the hem of Gu Jingchen's shirt with her fingertips, took the initiative to point her toes, pushed herself up, and deepened the kiss.
Gu Jingchen's eyes suddenly darkened, and finally he no longer concealed his raging desire, and he freely conquered the city between Xiao's soft lips that he had thought about for a long time.
He thought about the smell of a woman in his arms for too long...
At this moment, he just wanted to indulge in the feeling of holding her in his arms.
I don’t know how long has passed——
Gu Jingchen finally let go of the man whose breath was unsteady in his arms.
The lipstick on Su An's lips had already smeared, and she was slightly out of breath, but she looked at the person in front of her with bright eyes.
so……
Is the relationship confirmed?
Gu Jingchen would not kiss a woman for no reason...
She wanted to ask about their relationship.
But he hesitated a little, and finally chose to stay safe before he could figure out what Gu Jingchen meant.
After all, what some men hate most is women asking for a solid relationship from them.
It’s best not to say anything…
As long as she can get pregnant successfully, she can leave.
Su An thought, suppressed the words that came to her lips, and just looked straight into Gu Jingchen's eyes.
Gu Jingchen did not hide away, but also looked back at her.
For a long time——
"Go back..."
Su An held Gu Jingchen's hand again and gave him a gentle smile.
It seemed to be telling him that there was nothing to say.
The two people walked out of the shadows and stood under the sunset.
Gu Jingchen lowered his eyes and looked at the hands held by the two of them, his expression dark and unclear.
so……
Is it what An An wants?
He moved his mouth, but in the end said nothing and swallowed it back.
Although he really wanted to tie the person to him like this and wanted to propose again, he didn't dare.
He dared not bring up any idea that might bind the person in front of him.
Afraid of her leaving again.
Just wait and see what happens.
She took the initiative just now... He was very happy, but... also very worried.
The only thing that can be done now is to take good care of her and see what she wants to do.
A few days later——
The two people seemed to have entered a sweet "love" stage.
Hugging and holding hands no longer seem to require any cover-up or reason, but are the most natural actions.
A few days before the show, the two of them didn't have any work.
We spent almost every day together and visited every corner of this city.
Every night when we say goodbye, we exchange a sweet kiss at the door of the room.
Even though their residences are only separated by a wall.
But no one went further.
Su An was afraid that going too fast would arouse Gu Jingchen's suspicion.
Gu Jingchen was afraid of scaring people away.
What was also submerged was the "relationship" that the two never mentioned.
Whether it was a lover, a girlfriend, or something else, Su An never asked a word.
Gu Jingchen didn't even mention it.
Only those extremely natural intimacy bring the two people closer and closer.