Yun Zishu said nothing and looked at the scenery outside the window quietly.
In the evening, Sicang came back from the military camp early. After returning home, he went directly to Qifeng Hall and said, "Your Highness."
Yun Zishu turned to look at him. Sicang's expression looked the same as usual. Only by looking closely could one find a layer of nervousness hidden in his eyes: "His Royal Highness entered the palace today?"
"Yes." Yun Zishu nodded, looking out the window again, "I took a trip to Tianlu Pavilion and met Concubine Gua there."
Sicang sat down beside her.
"Concubine Gua is different from what I imagined." Yun Zishu raised her lips slightly, "I thought she was a sinister woman who had evil intentions and harbored evil intentions. However, after meeting her, I discovered that she does not seem to be such a person."
Sicang pursed his thin lips slightly and remained silent.
"Sicang, have you seen her before?"
Si Cang closed his eyes and was silent for a moment, then slowly shook his head: "Never."
"Are you not curious about her at all?" Yun Zishu turned to look at him, her eyes dark and clear, "After all, if she hadn't existed back then, the emperor and the empress might not have abandoned you, and you wouldn't have endured so many years of suffering.
.”
Sicang shook his head, put his hand around her waist, and said in a low voice: "I have never resented anyone because of my experience, whether it was Concubine Gua or the emperor and empress, because in the past twenty years in Dayong, I have never felt that I
Wronged."
As long as he stays where she is, it is his belief. Compared with the satisfaction in his heart, the pain and suffering he endures are nothing.
Yun Zishu raised her lips: "When you say this, it makes me feel like a troublesome person."
"No." Sicang's voice was gentle, "I know His Highness feels sorry for me. From the perspective of a father and mother, they have indeed neglected their duties. I don't complain or hate, but that doesn't mean they can erase their cold-bloodedness."
To him, the emperor and the queen were just two strangers without feelings. If the queen did not provoke him, he would not retaliate. His experiences from childhood to adulthood did not cause him any resentment.
What happened these days was entirely the fault of the Queen and the Situ family. By provoking Zishu, they had offended Sicang's rebellion, and they must bear all the consequences themselves.
As for the emperor, the relationship between them was purely a transaction. Sicang had never resented Emperor Wu before, and would not be grateful to him now.
A pure transaction is more reassuring. There is no need to talk about blood, and there is no need to involve too many false emotions.
You don't even have to spend time repairing family ties, it saves both of you trouble.
"Don't you ask me why I came to the palace today?"
Sicang pursed his lips, his eyes fell on the tables on the side, and he casually picked up the Secret History of the Queen that Yun Zishu had just put on it, "Why would Your Highness think of reading this book?"
"Before now, you have always said that you want to be named regent queen. I find it strange. I want to know if there is any precedent for regent queen in the history of Dongyou." Yun Zishu smiled, with a calm expression, "I didn't expect that there was such a thing.
A queen regent."
Si Cang narrowed his eyes: "This queen is amazing?"
"Really?" Yun Zishu seemed to be interested and sat up slightly, "How much do you know about her? Tell me about it?"
"I have read records about her before." Sicang's tone was calm, revealing a bit of suppressed emotion, "She was the empress' teacher who taught the young emperor. She was a legend in her life, but in the end..."
"What finally happened?"
Si Cang was silent for a while: "Her family is too prominent, and her own abilities are too powerful. She outshines the king. People often think that the dynasty is named Wei, and even the emperor thinks she is too dazzling."
"So you ended up being feared by the king?"
Sicang shook his head slowly: "It's probably not entirely fear, but maybe more of a psychological pressure."
Yun Zishu was silent for a moment: "Do you think Emperor Wen ever loved Queen Dongshu?"
Sicang was slightly startled, and there seemed to be a layer of mist-like luster between his eyebrows, "It's not like I've ever loved you."
"Um?"
"I have always loved, loved deeply."
"How do you know?"
"I have read the official history and the miscellaneous history." Si Cang smiled and wiped away the fleeting emotion from his brows, "Whether a man really likes someone can be judged from some detailed descriptions."
Yun Zishu took a sip of tea: "The emperor's love is destined not to be too pure, it is mixed with a lot of involuntary love."
Si Cang lowered his eyes and focused on her face: "Does His Highness think he is hateful?"
"who?"
"Emperor Wen."
"I don't know." Yun Zishu shook her head and leaned lazily on his arm, with a hint of sleepiness on her brows, "I don't know the inside story, so I can't make a judgment easily."
"Your Highness, if you want to know more..."
"I don't want to know." Yun Zishu yawned, turned her head and smiled at him, "Sicang, other people's affairs have nothing to do with us. No matter what happened to them, it will not affect us. We are not the story.
Zhongren, does knowing so much help?"
Si Cang pursed his lips.
Yun Zishu closed her eyes and her voice became a little lazier: "If the fault lies with Emperor Wen, we can certainly scold Emperor Wen for being heartless and heartless, but we can only do it when there is no one around. After all, they are our ancestors.
As a descendant of the Dongyou royal family, I shouldn’t be too disrespectful to them.”
After saying that, she sighed helplessly: "Besides, what's the use of scolding? Things in the past are long gone. No matter whether there are regrets or resentments, they can't be made up for. So just let them go."
Sicang didn't say anything. He picked her up and walked to the inner room without saying a word: "Sleep for a while first, and get up later for dinner?"
Yun Zishu hummed: "Just close your eyes for a while."
"I'm here with you."
Yun Zishu said hello, closed her eyes and fell asleep. She was not really sleepy, she just didn't want to continue discussing Emperor Wen and Queen Dongshu with Sicang.
She could see that Sicang had a lot to say, but from Yun Zishu's point of view, no matter how much Emperor Wen and Queen Dongshu were involved with them - even if it was just like the ridiculous idea that emerged in her mind, she didn't want to go into it.
.
Yun Zishu is not stupid. On the contrary, she has sharp senses that are far better than ordinary women.
What Sicang and Concubine Gua said, their reactions to the matter, the tone of their words, even the subtle changes in their expressions when they spoke, as well as the images and sounds she dreamed about at night, were all pointing her toward a certain truth.
Guide above.
But Yun Zishu didn't want to be controlled like this and passively accept a memory that shouldn't belong to her, even if this person was Sicang.
Thinking of this, Yun Zishu suddenly felt no longer sleepy. She opened her eyes and slowly sat up from the bed: "Sicang."