In ordinary times, I long for extraordinary things and dream of traveling around the world that can exist in fantasy. I use extraordinary power to do what I want to do, make friends with the people I like, break all unfair things, and feel so charming.
But when you are really extraordinary and are in a fantasy scene, you realize that things are not as simple as you think. When you want to do what you want to do, there are always all kinds of obstacles blocking you
before.
Fighting with them may not necessarily win, and they will definitely be injured, and it will be painful. You have to endure the pain and swing your fist. When the wound is torn apart... it hurts so much that I feel like I am going to die.
I mustered up my courage and tried all my strength to finally overcome the death barrier and collapsed on the ground, but the result was not necessarily good. I might still be very painful in the end. I clearly felt that I had tried my best, but I still didn't hold on to anything.
Looking at the tragic situation in front of me, no matter how painful it is, no matter how uncomfortable it is, what else can I do besides crying sadly for it?
I am still so powerless...and it is even more painful than before.
When you are frustrated, you start to escape. You want to think that all this is fantasy and does not exist. Everything has nothing to do with yourself. As long as you manage yourself well, you don’t have to worry about anything else.
Physical and mental blows are enough to make people recognize their own shortcomings and limitations, and then escape from fantasy to reality just like before.
Since you will feel pain for this, then don’t want it. Is there any problem with this? Isn’t it human instinct to seek benefits and avoid harm?
Enjoy a peaceful life, and then... I feel relieved that makes me feel disgusting.
How great would it be if someone could help settle all this at this time.
However, this is also an escape.
"...But I'm really happy to know each other like this."
This was the first time he had revealed his truth to others, but it was inexplicably easy, as if he had removed some burden.
Even though he knew that everything in front of him did not exist and the "false" relationship, Yuji and Shana still laughed naturally.
At least they are convinced that the feelings that are growing now are real.
"To be honest, I didn't expect that the things I used to reject were not as bad as they looked...at least I feel very happy now!"
When she said this, Shana saw Yuji's meaningful smile, and couldn't help but bulge her cheeks, and the volume of her speech also increased. But these combinations on Shana, in the current situation, she would only
It makes people feel...
So cute...
It was like a dream, he was hesitating before, but when the two looked at each other and smiled, the so-called gap had disappeared.
"I would have like this all the time," so he also expressed his thoughts, "I had always wanted to protect the people who were caring for me, and for this, I used any means to kill the people who were in the way, and also killed many innocent humans...
…”
The sadness revealed in it made Shana hold his hand, while Haoqing looked at him gently and listened to all his words. Even if they were thousands of miles apart, they could only communicate through mobile phones as media.
Also take it seriously and accept it completely.
"...It's beautiful here, there are no more apostles, humans don't have to be swallowed, and Shana doesn't have to fight, but I...these sins I have committed are just written off in one go, is it really good?"
Even through the screen, Haoqing felt the deep guilt on the young man.
"I originally planned to fight for the goal of coexistence between people and disciples. Whether it is being scolded and hunted or lingered for a long time, these are all the punishments I deserve, but now, I really don't know what to do.
What to do."
After so many things, Yuji Sakai has become a realist in his actions, but here he has lost his goal of atonement and cannot convince himself with general actions to help others. Therefore, he is confused.
but……
"So Yuji, that's what he thinks?"
Yuji felt the pain in his hands and smiled bitterly for this, but he still said truthfully: "Yes, because I will become very happy with you, so it cannot be considered a punishment!"
"But you can't do it."
At this time, Yuji felt the pain in his hands disappear, and the two of them were still holding each other, but they were much looser than before.
"Because I won't let you go," he turned his head and saw the girl's smile. What he spoke from her mouth was cut to the limit, representing the words of determination, "I, more than anyone else
Everyone should like Yuji. I want to be with you forever."
"Shana..."
Yuji barely suppressed the urge to cry and hug Shana.
He was about to give the girl words and said it again without thinking.
"Shana, I like you. I love you to the point where you want to change the world for you."
Haoqing, who was watching from the side, smiled with his aunt on his face, moved his cell phone away at the right time, leaving the space for the two of them, and then looked out the window.
From here, you can see the streets, pedestrians on the road walking on the road, smiling at the passing people, children playing with each other, and laughter and joy all over the street.
It's so good. Everyone has their own wonderful life. Without those irreversible tragedies and irreconcilable contradictions, all that is left is laughter and joy.
But... I always feel like something is missing.
Maybe it's not suitable for him here.
He stood up and walked out the door. He passed by the phone's position and paused for a moment, but soon raised his foot and placed it behind him.
It was his own choice, and...he didn't want to bother them.
The emotions accumulated in the past and now are prompting him to do so.
When did it start? I began to accept all this, knowing the consequences and my powerlessness, I still challenge myself to take unnecessary responsibilities and act on my own. Even if I fight to the death, my life will be
If you lose it, don’t give up. Do it like a fool.
Why exactly?
He doesn't understand those complicated things very well, but when he sees those abnormalities, even though he knows that a person's power is limited, he always feels from the bottom of his heart that he must do something about it.
He acted for this and did something to do it, which made him feel a sense of reality in his somewhat empty heart, and he felt that he was actually alive.
Although he was also eager for peace, hoping that this pain could be stopped, and he also gave up on himself, questioning himself, and feeling that everything he did might be meaningless.
It is so contradictory to be excited about this and decadent about this.
Then, admitting is.
He wants to go back to the original world with failure, setbacks, and sad experiences.
Walking to the street and looking at the passing pedestrians, he once again clarified his thoughts and smiled indifferently about it.
He was completely relieved.
“Buzz ~”
When this thought turned into a determination, Haoqing felt a sudden murmur flowing into his mind.
His head was so stinging that it was almost fainting, but despite this, he still supported himself and looked ahead.
From the moment the noise was generated, everything Haoqing saw began to become hazy... and then faded.
Whether it is the street or the pedestrians on the road, they are gradually disappearing and turning into blank space.
"Do you know what you did?"
Haoqing heard a questioning voice appear behind him. But strangely, he was obviously questioning, but the man's voice was so calm.