"Believe that it is not my sin and abandon it, how can I forget it day and night?" [Chapter 9·Sorrow]
"Lang Jun brought a few old soldiers, and he just wanted to break in, but I couldn't stop him. Fortunately, my wife sent someone to give him the golden seal of Marquis of Yangcheng and called him over." Lu Chang said word by word with lingering fear.
"Sure enough, the world is in chaos and people are disrespectful." Liu Yan listened quietly to Lu Chang's story, as if he was talking about nothing about their family. He simply commented: "A few pieces of dead gold and silver are more important than filial piety!"
Lu Chang's duty as a human being was that he should not speak ill of Liu Yan's son in front of him, but today's incident really irritated him, and he felt indignant, so he had to say: "How can a man be different from an animal if he is ignorant of etiquette?"
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As soon as he finished speaking, he felt something was wrong. He was about to explain, but he saw Liu Yan's expression was normal and agreed: "Yes, it is no different from an animal."
Lu Chang didn't want to continue talking, so he started another topic and said, "Thanks to my wife's help this time, otherwise the matter would have been even more embarrassing if the husband had really barged in."
"Thanks to her, I was able to see clearly the heart of this wolf when I was dying." Liu Yan suddenly felt relieved when he said this, but his expression looked very painful.
As the most trusted person around him, who had witnessed Liu Yan's whole illness plan behind the scenes, how could Lu Chang not know what the dying old man was thinking. This time was Liu Yan's last chance to give his incompetent son, if
Liu Mao was restless, so he simply gave him the seal he wanted and let him do whatever he wanted. In the end, he would have been left to die alone to save the entire Liu family. But if Liu Mao had come to ask for permission and visit in peace, it would have been another ending.
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Liu Yan was not worried about how to save this rebellious son, but he felt disappointed instead. On the contrary, he was very relaxed. After all, after he had made up his mind to abandon Liu Hao and no longer planned for him, the choice Liu Yan faced was already easy: "Zhang
Lu went to Bajun?"
"Wei, I heard that the seven surnamed Yi kings of Bajun, Du Yi, Pu Hu and others, seemed to be secretly conspiring with Duke Zhao of Jiangzhou." Lu Chang couldn't help but worry and said: "If it hadn't rained these days,
Flash floods have washed away the roads, and I think they can't wait any longer."
"Pei Mao is still outside Baishui Pass. Zhang Lu and others only need to capture Jiameng, Jiange and other passes, but they can still defend them despite the danger. The transition between Guanzhong and Shuzhong is difficult, and this battle will not last long. They have survived this
For a while, he can still dominate and follow the story told by Gongsun." Liu Yan's voice was erratic, and he breathed out softly and said: "Zhao Wei has always been in harmony with me, and I am sure that he is not someone who is inferior to others.
, I never thought that I would be associated with rice thieves. The Brazilian Zhao family has always been inferior to that of Shu County, and it is rare to have a big official, but now it is expected to be decadent."
"Speaking of the Zhao family in Shu County..." Lu Chang glanced at Liu Yan and said, "Now that your character is like this, in my humble opinion, there is no turning back, so you might as well make a decision."
"Yes, it's time to make a decision." Liu Yan suddenly choked up, and his cloudy eyes shed two lines of clear tears like a spring. He seemed to still remember that when he entered Shu, Liu Hao clamored to come at a young age.
. What he said was, "Aweng is not afraid of difficulties and takes advantage of dangers. How can a son not take care of him?" At that time, Liu Hao was so well-behaved, sensible, smart and filial. It was just from the inside out.
Outside, he looks like him everywhere, so why does he seem to have changed his appearance in the two or three years since he came to Sichuan?
Lu Chang stood aside silently, with his hands hanging down. Being a parent, nothing is more sad than this. Liu Yan had to endure such a blow before his death, which was unbearable in Lu Chang's eyes.
"You can go and find Gao Yu yourself. We have been friends for many years, but luckily he still believes in me." After Liu Yan finished speaking, he slowly closed his eyes and became silent again.
Lu Chang stood aside for a while, and when he saw that Liu Yan made no move, he was about to retreat and leave, following the previous plan of the two of them. Just as he took half a step back, Liu Yan closed his eyes and called out to Lu Chang.
Said: "Tell me, did I do something wrong?"
"It's enough for you to take care of both your country and your family, and be considerate in every aspect." Lu Chang frowned a little and said.
Liu Yan raised his hand slightly, as if he wanted to raise his arm and swing it, but he didn't have the strength, so he had to move it slightly: "No, I mean that I listened to the alchemist's words and planned to enter Shu.
Although the Yellow Turban was destroyed at that time, its power still existed. Emperor Xiaoling continued to favor eunuchs and did not think about changes. He thought that he could live as he pleased and have fun as long as he was alive for one day. Even if he died in the future, he would not be able to change his mind.
It’s nothing more than leaving the world behind.”
Lu Chang muttered a few times and said, "But I heard from Laijun that Emperor Xiaoling actually wants to cheer up."
"Who did you listen to when you came to Jingda?" Liu Yan was silent for a while, and then said: "Even though there are policies such as re-establishing state pastoral care and building the Xiyuan Army, and they have the intention to solve the problem, they are just patchwork.
It's just a plan." He paused and swallowed the phlegm in his throat with difficulty: "So I thought at that time, since the politics was declining, the royal family was troubled, and the world was about to be in chaos, why didn't I avoid the chaos and die? It happened to be in Guanghan.
Dong Gong told me before his death that the Yizhou branch had the spirit of an emperor. At this time, I was moved. Emperor Guangwu inherited Zhongxing from Yuanzong, and the previous emperors such as Xiaohuan and Xiaoling also succeeded to the throne as vassals. I am also the Liu family.
My dear, why can’t I serve Guangwu again?”
Lai Min naturally came from the imperial court. Most of the deeds the emperor had done since taking office were introduced to Liu Yan's ears. Although Liu Yan was surprised by the emperor's young talents, he was quite disdainful of some of the emperor's actions.
, such as coercing ministers to agree to a salt and iron monopoly, such as insisting on using force to bring peace to Kanto...
If Liu Yan had sat in that position, or if the emperor did not have the ability to govern personally, or even if his intention to enter Shu was not so rebellious...
Lu Chang didn't speak. These were the clichés Liu Yan said every day these days. It seemed that every dying person would look back on this short life with regret, pride, relief, and all kinds of emotions. But Lu Chang watched Liu Yan appear.
However, for the moment, he couldn't tell whether the other party was regretting that he had entered Shu to separatist rule because of the "Emperor's Qi", or whether he was proud of his courage to enter Shu and his decisive method of killing in Shu.
Perhaps there is a deeper level, but it is one that Lu Chang has not yet grasped.
That is regret.
"I've been having the same dream these days." Liu Yan seemed to be talking in his sleep. Amidst the sound of the rain rustling like mulberry leaves outside the house, his tone became vague and uncertain: "I dreamed of myself when I was a child.
I was walking barefoot on the small road in Jiangxia. It was drizzling in the sky, and the fields were full of green rice fields. My feet were stained with mud and my body was drenched in rain, but I still walked leisurely, with a few words in my mouth.
Humming country tunes that only a shepherd boy would hum."
Lu Chang felt moved in his heart and deliberately said in a relaxed tone: "I didn't expect that your Majesty once had such a childlike spirit."
"It's not childlike, I never did such a thing when I was a child." Liu Yan suddenly opened his eyes, his eyes were bright and bright. He hummed softly, wondering if it was the ditty he was talking about, and gradually
Yes, a pleasant smile appeared on his face: "I have only seen a similar scene on a carriage. Do you know what I was thinking when I saw that child walking happily in the rain?
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"No, I don't know." Lu Chang looked at Liu Yan's expression getting better and better, and his eye circles suddenly turned red.
"I'm thinking." Liu Yan's voice became softer and softer. If you didn't hold your breath and listened, it would be almost nothing. The light in his eyes was like a candle, emitting the last dazzling light before burning out, just like this old man.
The last sigh at the end of his life: "Why doesn't he wear shoes?"
Suddenly a sob came from the quiet room, as if the old man was still unconvinced and said: