It was the first time since Sisi's accident that he looked at his child carefully.
The two little guys have lost a lot of weight. The areas around their eyes are black and blue due to lack of sleep. Their usually rosy and fair little faces have turned sallow and have lost any look.
Lu Youting felt so guilty that he knelt down and held them tightly in his arms, his voice hoarse with a strong cry.
"Xiaobai, Yueyue, I'm sorry... I won't, I won't let you worry anymore..."
After half a month, Daddy finally spoke to them.
Lu Yanbai and Jianyue cried loudly, their little arms tightly hugging Lu Youting's neck, their little shoulders twitching.
"Daddy, although Mommy is gone, we will always be with you and will never leave you... Please don't be sad anymore, okay?"
"Brother Xiaobai is right. Although you no longer have a mommy, you still have me, brother Chenbao and brother Xiaobai... we will always be with you..."
Lu Youting hugged them tightly, wishing to rub them into his heart. He knew in his heart that he could not go on like this.
Even for the sake of the children, we must cheer up.
"Daddy will always be with you from now on..."
Jianyue and Lu Yanbai cried with joy, but the tears fell even more fiercely.
He was really happy to see his father stand up again.
Lu Youting let them go, wiped the tears from their faces, and asked, "Where is brother Chen Bao?"
Lu Yanbai said worriedly: "Brother Chen Bao has been shutting himself in his room these past few days without eating or drinking. If his godfather and godmother hadn't forced him to drink some soup, he would have collapsed."
Jianyue nodded her little head vigorously.
"Brother Chenbao blames all the mistakes on himself. He feels that he failed to protect mommy and failed to save mommy. He blames himself and is punishing himself. Brother Xiaobai and I persuaded him for a long time, and he
I just can’t listen.”
Lu Yanbai said again: "Daddy, I'm so worried about my brother."
Lu Youting could understand Chen Bao's mood, and he forced a smile: "You guys wait for me here, I will go and get him."
"Um!"
The two little guys nodded at the same time.
Lu Youting let them go and went to Jian Sichen's room.
The room was pitch dark, with the curtains drawn tightly, not a trace of light coming in. Jian Sichen's small figure curled up on the sofa, completely immersing himself in the darkness.
Lu Youting walked over and sat down next to him.
The sofa was dented due to his weight.
Without saying anything, he stretched out his long arms, hugged Jian Sichen into his arms, patted his back gently, sighed, and then said slowly: "I dreamed about your mommy!"
This short sentence successfully attracted Jian Sichen's attention.
He looked up at his father, feeling guilty and remorseful, and a glimmer of light gradually gathered in his lifeless eyes.
Feeling his gaze, Lu Youting continued: "Your mommy said, let us live well and let me take good care of you..."
At this point, his throat rolled, and he continued: "If you don't want mommy to worry about you until her death, you should cheer up quickly."
God knows how much his heart hurt when the word 'death' came out of his mouth.
This is a word he has never been willing to admit.
Now I have to say it myself.
This is undoubtedly equivalent to him taking a knife and cutting his own flesh with his own hands.
Even if it hurts like blood, you still have to continue.
The expression on Jian Sichen's face gradually changed.
Even though the surroundings were pitch dark and they couldn't see each other, Lu Youting could still clearly feel the changes in him. He held his arms tightly, suppressed his crying, and spoke in a voice as hoarse as a knife.
"This matter has nothing to do with you, it's not your fault! Your mommy is alive in heaven, and she doesn't want to see you like this! Lu Xiangxiang did this just to make us sad. For mommy's sake, we can't fall into her trap! Chen
Bao, Daddy believes in you, you can definitely do it."
After listening to his words, Jian Sichen's small shoulders began to shrug.
First once, twice, three times, and then more and more frequently.
"Daddy knows you can figure it out. I know you won't eat or drink for a few days. I will wait for you in the restaurant. Xiaobai and Yueyue are also waiting for you to come out to eat! No matter how long it takes, we will wait!"
After speaking, Lu Youting stood up and left without looking back, leaving him alone in the room.
He knew that Chen Bao needed space and time to release.
Only when he has cried enough and vented his anger can he come out completely.
The moment the door closed, sad and painful cries came from inside.
The cry echoed through the sky, and the whole house seemed to be echoing with his sad cry.
For more than ten days, he had neither cried nor made a fuss, sealing himself in a small space. Now, he finally released all the emotions he had suppressed for more than ten days.
Lu Youting stood at the door, listening to his pitiful cries, his heart felt sad, his hands clenched into fists, and veins popped out on the back of his hands.
After a while, he took a deep breath, adjusted his mood, returned to the room, cleaned himself inside and out, shaved his beard, and applied skin cream on his dry and cracked skin.
The whole person takes on a new look.
At the dining table.
Luk Youting sat in the main seat.
Gu Yuchen and Shen Xiuyi sat on his left and right sides.
Lu Yanbai and Jian Yue sat next to Gu Yuchen and Shen Xiuyi.
There are nine dishes and one soup on the table.
None of the five people moved their chopsticks.
Just sitting quietly at the dining table, waiting for Jian Sichen.
Time passed minute by minute.
As time went by, everyone's eyes gradually dimmed, and the hope that was finally ignited was dashed again.
Chen Bao, after all, still can't get out.
Luk Youting is just the opposite of them.
As if he was sure that Chen Bao would definitely come out, he sat there quietly, not in a hurry, not in a hurry.
as expected.
sunset.
The sunset shines through the glass window, reflecting a beautiful rainbow.
The door of Jian Sichen's bedroom opened.
As footsteps approached, Jian Sichen appeared in everyone's sight.
At this time, he had already taken a shower, put on a set of clean clothes, and stood there with his still red and swollen eyes, looking at him with guilt on his face.
"I'm sorry for making you worry..."
Lu Youting's eyes were slightly red, but he couldn't hide the joy and pride in his eyes: "I know, you can definitely do it..."
Jian Sichen slowly raised the corners of his mouth and smiled——