Chapter 175 Prison Chapter (Main Story) 64: Controlling the Battlefield
After Shen Wu failed to kill the dog, he clearly felt that everyone in his family was avoiding him.
Except for my eldest brother, no one else even wants to talk to me.
Shen Wu was indeed a little confused at first, but he didn't care about it for too long. They were just unimportant people, and their attitudes had nothing to do with him.
Just like the elder brother said, he has to start learning to live alone, and he can live well alone.
First, you just need to find something that interests you.
In order to find such a thing, Shen Wu came to the study room at home, ready to look for inspiration from books to see if there was anything he was interested in.
But when he arrived at the study, he found that there was already someone here, it was his fourth brother, Shen Jize.
Shen Wu didn't know much about this fourth brother, and he didn't want to know much about it, so he ignored Shen Jize who had his eyes on him, and went to the study room to look for the missing interest through the names of the books.
But after looking around, all the books were similar, bland and boring, just like his current life.
When Shen Wu was about to leave, his eyes suddenly saw "Human Anatomy" on the top of the bookshelf.
Speaking of which, he now only understands the structure of dogs, but has never understood the structure of humans.
If he knew what parts a person is made of, wouldn't it be easier for him to understand what happens to him?
While Shen Wu was thinking about writing, he reached for the book on the top.
It's a pity that his height is still far from the top. Even if he steps on the stool, he can't get the book.
Just when Shen Wu decided to give up, a very weak voice suddenly came from the side, with a hint of hesitation, "Which book do you want to get? I can help."
Inexplicably, Shen Wu heard everything Shen Jize said clearly, and then nodded.
Shen Jize continued in a low voice, "Then you come down first and I will step on the stool to help you get it."
Shen Jize was taller than Shen Wu, not too much, but it was still enough to take the book. After getting the book, Shen Jize became serious. He stretched out his feet and moved down tentatively, cautiously. He got off the stool and breathed a sigh of relief until his feet touched the ground.
Shen Wu felt that his fourth brother was strange and his attitude towards him was different from others, but he didn't know what was different about him.
When taking the book from Shen Jize's hand, Shen Wu felt as if his nails had accidentally scratched something. At the same time, Shen Jize, who had been fine just now, suddenly shed tears in front of him.
Shen Wu doesn't understand.
But he thought that the fourth brother should cry because he disliked him just like the others, and he had to leave quickly.
With this thought in mind, Shen Wu had just raised his feet to leave when he heard a choking voice coming from behind, "Yes, I'm sorry."
Shen Wu's feet stopped.
According to his understanding, the words "sorry" should not appear in this situation.
According to usual experience, Shen Jize should yell at him not to come over at this time, or yell at you to leave. This is common sense.
So Shen Wu stopped and asked Shen Jize, "Why did you say sorry to me?"
Shen Jize's tears kept falling like broken beads, but he still choked with sobs and answered Shen Wu's words intermittently, "I must have scared you by crying suddenly, but... I'm sorry, I couldn't control it."
And, it really hurts.
Shen Wu was stunned and stood there for a while holding the book before saying, "I was not scared."
After saying this, the only sound left in the study was Shen Jize's crying.
Shen Wu stayed aside quietly, not knowing what he was thinking, until he saw the blood beads oozing from Shen Jize's fingers began to gather into a drop of blood and fell to the ground, hitting the floor, making a faint but clear sound. After hearing the response, he came back to his senses, endured the awkwardness and asked his aunt at home for a first aid kit, and returned to the study.
Shen Jize is still crying.
Shen Wu thought that he had wanted to cry before, but he quickly suppressed it, so he moved next to Shen Jize and taught him his experience, "You can ask yourself what there is to cry about. Then you will realize that there is nothing to cry about."
Shen Wu's inexplicable words successfully made Shen Jize stop crying for 2 seconds, and then the tears could not help but continue to fall.
Shen Wu was silent for a moment and realized that not everyone could stop crying in this way, so he could only close his mouth and silently start to help Shen Jize stop the bleeding.
The wound on Shen Jize's hand was actually very small. It was just a trauma caused by the nail scratching the flesh just now. Under normal circumstances, it wouldn't matter if he didn't care.
Shen Wu didn't know why, but since he saw the inconspicuous opening gradually dripping blood, he felt that he couldn't leave it alone.
But all he could do was take a medicated band-aid and put it on Shen Jize's wound.
"Thanks."
Shen Wu stayed by the side for a while, and then left after Shen Jize completely stopped crying.
In the next week, Shen Wu finished reading the book on human anatomy, and when he went to the study room, he met his fourth brother again.
This time, he was still crying.
Shen Wu walked over without squinting, put the book in his hand somewhere casually, and then started looking for the next thing that might be of interest to him.
He didn't expect Shen Jize to talk to him.
"Are you hiding here too?"
"No, I just came here to look for books."
After that, Shen Wu never heard Shen Jize speak again. It wasn't until he found another book and was about to leave that he heard Shen Jize saying to himself as if he was sighing, "I really want to be like you."
Like me? Why?
Shen Wu felt that his life was not worthy of expectations.
"Why?" Shen Wu wanted to know the answer, the reason why Shen Jize was looking forward to it.
"I think you are very strong. Even if you are sad or in pain, you won't show it. But I can't. I always cry. I can't stand it, so no one wants to get close to me."
Shen Jize didn't seem to need to answer, he just said to himself, "If I could control myself, I wouldn't be hated."
Only then did Shen Wu realize that it wasn't that he wasn't interested in anything, but that he didn't dare.
He listened to his elder brother's words and became strong and wanted to live alone, so he restrained himself and everything.
"I'm sorry, did I disturb you? You don't have to worry about me..."
"Fourth brother."
Shen Wu interrupted Shen Jize's apology and suddenly said to him, "I saw in the book that everyone has things they are good at and things they are not good at. If you are not good at restraining yourself, there is no need to force it."
Shen Wu meant well, but he didn't know if his tone and expression were too cold, which made Shen Jize feel that he was mocking him, so he couldn't hold it back and cried again.
Shen Wu looked at Shen Jize who was crying and didn't know what to do. He could only stand aside and watch until Shen Jize stopped crying and then left.