There is no light source in a completely enclosed room.
Gu Beisheng needed to get very close to see his sharp outline, and he wanted to look up his forehead to see what the temperature was.
But she was held by his big hand, as if he didn't want her to know more or worry more.
"I'm fine. I'm feeling much better."
The low and hoarse voice, in the darkness where the vision is lost, is simply so charming that it makes people's hearts tremble slightly.
Gu Beisheng was very worried about him, so out of his instinct to learn medicine, he still wanted to check his forehead temperature.
Unexpectedly, he moved his finger slightly and was bitten by him.
The warm breath instantly enveloped her fingertips, and her heart skipped a beat. Her fingertips and ears were extremely hot. His breath became extremely hot, and the temperature in the entire room continued to rise.
.
Half of her heart was in the sea, worrying about Fu Xizhou's condition.
Half in the flames, the hot love and his embrace left her at a loss.
"Don't try to distract me." She stubbornly withdrew her hand, forced to calm down her inner emotions, and held his face with great concentration: "Tell me honestly, how do you feel now? I don't want you to let me go."
I was worried and locked myself in the room alone."
As she spoke, her eyes gradually turned crimson, and in the darkness where no one noticed, her heartache for him was like a wanton flower, blooming all over the room.
"We are husband and wife, we have three children, you and I have become one, your past pain is my pain!
It's because I'm not good enough. I've discovered your psychological problems a long time ago, but I didn't put them in a priority position. I kept letting you suppress the pain. I was self-righteous and thought that as long as I was by your side, you wouldn't be tortured. I thought
You have already developed in a good direction..."
When she said this, her voice started to choke obviously. Ever since she visited Fu Xizhou's childhood room and then heard her grandma's story, her heart had been broken for a long time.
When he encountered an attack of illness again, she would only feel full of self-blame and guilt. At this moment, in his arms, her emotions could not stop breaking down.
"But how could those injuries that have devastated you for so many years have completely changed for the better just because of my company over the past few years? I should know this well, and I should be better to you. I can obviously do a lot for you.
But I didn’t do anything, I...well..."
Words that contained too many emotions, before completely overwhelming her, his kiss fell without warning, sweeping over like a violent storm, with a sense of reckless destruction of everything.
He leaned over and pressed her to the cold floor. The hot kiss on his lips, accompanied by his gradually heavier breathing, was more like clusters of flames, igniting her completely and invisibly dispelling the low mood in her heart.
After a while, in the dark room, the only sound left was their gasps after kissing passionately with all their strength.
His cold fingertips gently rubbed her earlobe, but the temperature of her earlobe became even hotter.
The low and seductive voice also became extremely lustful: "Don't be like this, I don't want to see you like this. You bring me unprecedented happiness, and I hope to give you the same feeling."
In other words, the warmth Gu Beisheng gave him was the only light in his dark world.
Gu Beisheng raised his chin, took the initiative to kiss his lips gently, and his emotions after being confused by lust were soothed and slowed down a lot.
She pushed Fu Xizhou away, and the two of them lay flat on the floor, looking at the dark ceiling.
But they were as relaxed as if they were lying on the grass holding hands, bathing in the gentle sunshine. The shadows of the trees were thick, moving with the rustling of the wind, falling on them.
"No, I don't want to only see the good side of you. Just as you love me, I love you too.
My love is not shallow at all. I love your gentle side when you are cold to others and treat me alone. I also love your broken and weak side after being injured, so..."
She turned her head, and even though she couldn't see his face clearly, her eyes were still shining and unwavering.
She held his hand and said word by word: "Tell me, what exactly have you experienced."
The moment she finished speaking, she clearly felt that his palms suddenly turned cold, indicating an extreme resistance to the past and even a hint of irritability.
But instead, she held her tighter. No matter what, she would not fear or escape.
Therefore, she sincerely hopes that Fu Xizhou can cast a shadow.
He felt the softness coming from the palm of his hand, like a jellyfish in the deep sea, glowing faintly, but it was enough to soothe his heart and make him willing to look back.
Fu Xizhou raised his eyes, his dark pupils were unfocused in the darkness.
Most of the images that occupied his childhood nights were like this, dark and void of anything, as if they were in the mouth of a monster.
The feeling of uneasiness can turn into an inescapable nightmare that lasts for a long night.
"Ever since I can remember, I have often suffered from insomnia. When I wake up, I am faced with endless study materials. At that time, I longed for someone to be with me. Even if I just say a word or two, I might be able to sleep peacefully."
He didn't speak much, but the loneliness he expressed in his few words was heartbreaking.
Gu Beisheng stared at him and analyzed it moment by moment: "I guess the origin of your misogyny is because when you were very young, you lacked close maternal love. During sleepless nights, you hoped in your heart that the person by your side would be your mother.
, is a woman.”
Therefore, because his inner needs have never been met, the unbearable uneasiness in insomnia at night was all experienced by him alone.
Coupled with the repressive environment that Bai Hui created for him, it is easy for him to have inner problems. From the initial desire for companionship, he turns into aversion to companionship.
The longing for my mother's touch turned into aversion to the touch of all women in the world.
Before she could finish her analysis, Fu Xizhou who was beside her suddenly turned around and held her in his arms: "It doesn't matter anymore. She is just a stranger to me, because Xiaozhou still lives with her and will always be with her."
It reminds me of bad memories.”
Gu Beisheng's eyes moved slightly, and he realized that although he didn't mention it before, he was also Xiaozhou's father, so he would definitely be worried.
That’s why misogyny, which had improved, is getting worse again.
She hugged him back as if she had made up her mind: "I will pick up Xiaozhou tomorrow and I will explain to him clearly your worries about him."
People who have this idea are not limited to Gu Beisheng.
There was also Fu Qingyu who was in another room. He brought the children back, and when his grandmother told him about Fu Xizhou's illness, he frowned and never let go.
Qi Feng, who was standing next to him, spoke calmly and restrainedly: "I have talked with my junior sister about the second young master's condition. It is most likely because Xiaozhou is still at his grandma's house and has touched the abyss of the second young master's heart, which has led to his dissatisfaction.
Stablize."
Hearing this, Fu Qingyu just raised his eyes lazily: "You go and negotiate."