Thinking of this, Gu Beisheng did not look at the letter in his hand first.
Instead, he looked at Fu Xizhou first. Fu Xizhou put his arm around her, let her lean on his shoulder, and looked at what Bai Hui gave him with him.
His well-articulated fingers moved gracefully and slowly when opening the envelope.
Gu Beisheng raised his eyes and looked at him and asked, "Did your other self see anything about your mother when you were hypnotized?"
Fu Xizhou nodded and spread out the letter completely: "Well, the consciousness of the other self has always been with you. I know everything that happened to you."
Hearing this, Gu Beisheng's heart moved slightly, and she held his hand a little tighter.
As the envelope unfolds, the elegant yet powerful words inside are laid out like a copybook by a famous teacher. The paragraphs are arranged in order, which is very pleasing to the eye.
Gu Beisheng suddenly remembered Fu Xizhou's handwriting. His handwriting when he was a child had his own personality.
The words are like the person, and maybe it has something to do with Bai Hui's teachings.
I have to admit that although Bai Hui did not give him normal love, in terms of teaching, he helped him find his own style very early.
Gu Beisheng blinked and focused on the content.
It begins with the words "I'm sorry", which seems to clarify the theme of the letter.
The content is that she wrote down in detail every incident that she did not fulfill her responsibility to Fu Xizhou when she was a child. Because of her literary skills, no matter how many incidents she had, she could describe them in concise words.
What is somewhat surprising is that it turns out that Bai Huijiang clearly remembered everything he experienced in Xizhou.
She actually knew the times when Xizhou was in pain because he didn't feel love, and it was also uncomfortable.
There were times when she hesitated whether to make up for it.
But it seems that every time I want to get close to my child, my inner demons appear, and instead I behave more out of control, become more indifferent, and even cause greater harm to him.
The words don't mean what you mean, and the words don't convey the meaning.
Gradually, even she began to feel numb, believing that she didn't seem to have much feelings for Xizhou.
The second half of the envelope is her self-examination after she wakes up, a deeper apology and reflection.
[Xizhou, although my purpose in giving birth to you was not pure, it was not pure love like your brother.
But after all, you are my child, the child who came out of my belly.
It was my fault as a mother that I did not give you a wonderful childhood. I lived in the hatred and pain of the past, and instead forgot about the beauty around me.
If I could face it earlier, even if your father and brother were not around, maybe we, mother and son, would have had a tender moment, and both you and me would be better off.
I'm not trying to shirk responsibility. If I didn't do it well, I didn't do it well. If I made a mistake, I made a mistake.
How my life will turn out in the future is all my fault, and I can't blame anyone.
I have been resentful for most of my life, and I am tired of it.
Therefore, before leaving, I have no desire or desire after hearing the news that you are safe. I only hope that God can bless you two children and that no more suffering will come to me.
There are also some things that you may have never seen before. They are all gifts that I didn’t have time to give. They should have been given to you when you were a child, but they are all given to you now.]
When Fu Xizhou was reading the letter, he did not avoid Qin Huaichuan. After reading it together, Qin Huaichuan moved the box outside the door in and placed it next to the bed.
Fu Xizhou raised his eyes and saw a frame of toys, some of which were Gundam models. They were toys that he once envied other classmates. He could not remember whether he asked his mother for them.
"There are also photos." Qin Huaichuan flipped through the things inside. Most of the thick stack of photos below were slightly tilted, indicating that they had been read many times.
Gu Beisheng's brows furrowed slightly, thinking that the photo Xiaozhou had found was probably in it.
Sure enough, when she stretched out her hand to twitch, she saw a photo similar to what she had just come out of the delivery room. Bai Hui's face was stained with sweat, but her eyes were full of contentment and a smile. It seemed that at this moment, there was only this newborn child in her world.
"Xizhou..." She turned her head sharply.
All I could see was that his lacquered eyes were locked, and even the light and shadow reflected in them showed no sign of trembling. It was like the thick night was fixed in his eyes, and no one could try to see his thoughts clearly.
All I know is that all the paranoia about maternal love and the eyes that gave birth to claws and claws are gone.
Gu Beisheng couldn't help but hold his breath and looked at him distressedly, fearing that he would break into pieces and not daring to speak any more.
a long time.
Fu Xizhou stretched out his hand towards the frame, but he did not want to take the things inside. Instead, he put the letter Bai Hui gave him into the frame, and turned to Qin Huaichuan: "Please help me deal with it.
Drop it."
Qin Huaichuan's pupils trembled slightly and he raised his brows in confusion: "Don't you take a look?"
Fu Xizhou let go of the paper, raised his hand and hugged Gu Beisheng tightly in his arms, as if he was satisfied, his eyes full of satisfaction and nostalgia fell on her eyes: "Childhood, the truth of the past, did Bai Hui love me?
These issues are not important."
If you always care about the pain that has happened, you will step into the endless abyss. Bai Hui is the most realistic example.
If you are blind and ignorant, when you lose your attachment to events, you will also lose the beauty you have in front of you.
What he saw and learned in this letter can be applied now.
"I know what's important."
As he spoke, he kissed Gu Beisheng's cheek gently. The deep affection in his eyes was as thick as silk water and could not be melted away: "Let's stay here for a few days. When you have a good rest, we will go home."
Gu Beisheng lowered his head and looked at the letter Bai Hui gave her. Although it had not been opened yet, she had already guessed the content inside.
She didn't have much interaction with Bai Hui, and she actually understood Bai Hui, so Bai Hui didn't need to apologize to her. The rest was probably Bai Hui entrusting Xizhou to her.
But she doesn't need anyone else's entrustment. Xizhou itself is her only one. She will do the same even if no one comes to entrust her.
Therefore, she casually put the letter in her hand into the box, and then hugged Fu Xizhou empty-handed.
Qin Huaichuan looked at the frame that had not been touched except when he turned over it, and then looked at the two people hugging each other, no one else in the world.
I have been holding back my words since I walked in, but still haven't said them out.
Do you want to see Ms. Bai off?
It seemed that there was no need, Bai Hui let go, and Fu Xizhou was completely relieved.
The best outcome is for no one to interfere with anyone and live your own life.
"Okay." Qin Huaichuan let go of the breath in his chest, and said with some helplessness and some relief: "No matter what, at least you have read a letter. It's not in vain. I will deliver the last letter.
Come on."
As he spoke, he picked up the basket and turned over the last letter in his hand, which read Yu Chu's personal letter.