Xiaozhou blinked his beautiful eyes and said, "You and Uncle Shi Qing said it yourself."
Fu Xizhou's heart ached: "Did you hear that?"
"Dad, although I am mentally retarded in your eyes, I am not deaf. I can hear."
Fu Xizhou's eyes darkened: "Who said you are mentally retarded?"
Xiaozhou said unhappily: "If you didn't think I was mentally retarded, why would you find a doctor to see me?"
For the first time, Fu Xizhou felt that he had been wronged. He really was not the one who summoned him.
My heart felt empty and there was some pain, but I didn't know how to soothe it.
"Xiaozhou..."
Xiaozhou was a little excited, and his watery eyes were full of complaints: "Now that you see that I am a retard, are you satisfied?"
Fu Xizhou suddenly realized that he was a little hurt by suddenly calling a psychiatrist to see Xiaozhou.
Xiaozhou called him: "Dad."
"Um?"
"You called the doctor to see me before. Are you afraid that I will get better?"
Fu Xizhou's chest suddenly sank, and the pain as if being torn apart became clearer and clearer: "I'm sorry..."
It turned out that his behavior when he was two years old hurt him.
That's why he closed the windows and squatted in the corner alone, doubting life.
Xiaozhou looked at his pale face and thought of some things that had happened before: "Dad, do you hate me very much?"
"How could it be, little..."
Xiaozhou tilted his head and looked at him, his eyes red with sadness: "If you don't hate me, why do you say you like girls?"
Fu Xizhou was stunned. He rarely saw Xiaozhou with tears in his eyes.
In fact, he had no memory of saying such a thing.
"Xiaozhou, did you misunderstand something?"
Xiaozhou looked at him angrily: "You still don't admit it!"
Fu Xizhou: "?"
This time, Xiaozhou completely selflessly vented all the grievances in his heart: "On your third birthday, you personally said that if you gave birth to a daughter, you would name her Sheng'er and love her well. What about me?"
Fu Xizhou's pupils suddenly dilated and he looked at him in disbelief.
Did he really say that?
Sheng'er...
He suddenly remembered that when he woke up one morning in Myanmar and Vietnam, this name was like poison, floating in his heart, as if to remind him of something.
Xiaozhou lowered his eyes in despair, full of sorrow, pretending to be strong: "It's okay, you and aunt are together, in the future, there will be a chance to give birth to sister Sheng'er."
Fu Xizhou was stunned again: "Xiaozhou, do you know what you are talking about?"
Xiaozhou nodded and said very seriously and firmly: "Just now, I saw you take auntie into the next room."
Fu Xizhou felt that his mind was completely blank.
Didn't Shi Qing say that he was the one who helped him back to the room?
Xiaozhou didn't look like he was lying.
Xiaozhou continued: "When my aunt came to see me, her mouth was swollen. It must have been you."
Fu Xizhou: "..."
For a moment, it was impossible to refute.
I was also surprised to find that Xiaozhou’s logical thinking was completely beyond that of five-year-old children of the same age.
Xiaozhou turned into a judge at this moment, and wanted to sentence him to death, so he added: "Only lovers bite their lips."
Fu Xizhou: "..."
He had forgotten what he wanted to say when he came to Xiaozhou.
Xiaozhou looked at him with burning eyes, waiting for his response.
Just now, he was just wondering why his father pushed his aunt into the room.
I didn’t understand until I saw my aunt’s mouth was swollen.
Although he didn't understand it very well, he vaguely felt that his father was going to have a baby sister, Sheng'er, with his aunt.
Fu Xizhou heard too many messages in these few minutes.
On Xiaozhou's third birthday, he mentioned Sheng'er.
But in his memory, he was very drunk that night, had a splitting headache, slept through it, and nothing special happened.
He never even spoke to Xiaozhou.
And just now, he himself brought Gu Beisheng into the room, but his memory was blank, only the vague kiss.
Once may be by chance.
What about twice?
He believed that Xiaozhou would not lie, and at his age, he could not tell a flawless lie.
What's more, Xiaozhou usually doesn't like to talk.
Today, I asked him sentence by sentence and told me all my memories from when I was three years old. It was obviously very hurt.
He suddenly remembered that Xiaozhou always wore women's clothes.
It's probably because of what he said...
He subconsciously puts on women's clothing and pretends to be his daughter, so that he can get more fatherly love.
Once, the doctor even said that he had gender disorder.
In fact, it was all caused by him.
Why would he say that?
He breathed slightly, reached out to touch Xiaozhou's face, and pinched it gently.
Xiaozhou didn't resist. He directly grabbed Xiaozhou and held him in his arms. He used a little force and said, "Xiaozhou, I'm sorry."
Xiaozhou bit his lower lip, blinking and blinking, as if he was trying his best to control something, tensed his little body, and said nothing.
"Dad may be sick and that's why he said that, but that's not his true intention. I know very well that you are my son. Dad is very satisfied with you and doesn't need sister Sheng'er."
Xiaozhou's long curly eyelashes fluttered, he frowned, and said aggrievedly: "But, you are always thinking about Sheng'er in your dreams."
Fu Xizhou: "..."
He and Xiaozhou slept very little together.
The last time was when he was four years old.
Who is Sheng'er?
Why did he call that name in his sleep?
He actually had no memory.
He didn't want Xiaozhou to continue to get hurt because of this, so he lied: "You always dress up as a girl. That may be the name your father gave you when you dressed up as a girl."
Xiaozhou: "..."
He was stunned for a moment before asking: "Really?"
"Um."
He needed to ask Gu Beisheng if he had any special conditions other than fainting when he got sick.
Xiaozhou reluctantly believed him, his red eyes finally dissipated, and asked again: "Then are you and Aunt Shengsheng together?"
Fu Xizhou looked at him with doubts in his eyes. One day, Xiaozhou would know. He opened his thin lips and said, "I'm sorry, dad shouldn't hide this from you."
Xiaozhou thought for a while and asked: "Do you like Aunt Shengsheng?"
Fu Xizhou was stunned. He had never thought about this problem.
Xiaozhou frowned: "Dad, if you don't like it and bite her in the mouth, you are acting like a hooligan."
Fu Xizhou: "..."
He was sure that his son was really not autistic, and was even so smart that it was almost overwhelming.
"dad?"
"Yeah, I like it." He said.
After Xiaozhou got the answer, he was not sad, but calmed down a lot, and asked again: "Then you want to have sister Sheng'er with Aunt Shengsheng?"
Aunt Shengsheng gave birth to sister Shenger...
Fu Xizhou suddenly felt a headache: "Even if I give birth to a sister for you, she won't be called Sheng'er. Doesn't she have the same name as your aunt Shengsheng?"
Xiaozhou nodded, it seemed to make sense.
Huh?
Same name?
He suddenly asked in surprise: "Dad, did you have a crush on Aunt Shengsheng when I was three years old?"
Thank you for your concern, baby. I have noticed that my health is getting better. You should also keep warm. Good night~