She was thinking, if she had not saved that person at that time, would her brother not have died?
If she doesn't save that person, she can save her brother.
When her mother found out, she saved others in the same place where her brother drowned.
Her mother slapped her twice and asked her why she wanted to save others instead of her own brother.
Her father, who always loved her, also beat her with a wooden stick, breaking two wooden sticks in succession.
How can you save others but not your own brother?
Her parents kept repeating these words, locking her throat tightly like a curse.
She also asked herself why she wanted to save others instead of her own brother.
My younger brother is only twelve years old, and my younger brother is still so young.
But she really didn't know that her brother secretly followed her to the beach.
She didn't even know that her brother drowned after she rescued others, but no one rescued her brother.
My younger brother died like this. He was only twelve years old.
Amid the blame from her parents and deep self-blame, Shen Wanying suffered from severe depression.
She didn't go out all day and hid at home every day. She felt that she could see her brother's shadow in the dark, and she wanted to say sorry to her brother.
She became increasingly haggard, as if she were an empty shell, an empty shell without a soul.
The parents who originally blamed her, but after seeing Shen Wanying's haggard appearance and the persuasion of her eldest son, the parents who lost their child gradually couldn't bear to blame her anymore.
But Shen Wanying herself couldn't get out.
She often thinks that if she didn't go to the beach, she would be fine. Why did she go to the beach that day? It was because she went to the beach and followed her secretly that something happened to her brother.
If she didn't go, her brother wouldn't go either;.
Or if she didn't save that person, she could save her brother.
She fell into a circle of self-blame and couldn't get out.
No matter day or night, she found it difficult to breathe. She felt like a hand was grabbing her breasts and suffocating her.
But she would not struggle to resist, because this is how her brother felt before he died.
Brother, I can't breathe.
Brother, it's very painful.
When Shen Wanying's eldest brother looked at Shen Wanying, he was greatly hit mentally, in a trance, and even had the tendency to commit suicide.
His brother is gone and he is very sad.
He didn't want anything to happen to his sister, otherwise how could his parents survive.
And no one wants to be surprised.
He took Shen Wanying to see a psychiatrist, and even hired a hypnotist to hypnotize Shen Wanying, so that Shen Wanying could gradually forget the past.
She knew that her brother was dead and had drowned at the beach. But she forgot that she also went to the beach. She forgot that she had saved others but not her brother.
No one mentioned in front of her again why she saved others but not her own brother.
Her life returned to normal, and she became the same person she was before the accident.
However, from that day on, she never swam or went to the beach. She was even more afraid of water.
A corner of my memory is missing, but the pain is engraved in my bones.
She has been afraid of water ever since.
Three years later, she married Fu Xuantuo under the arrangement of her parents.
She fell in love with Fu Xuantuo at first sight, and she thought they would start a happy life. She loved Fu Xuantuo with all her heart and soul, and gave birth to two sons for him.
She hoped to get Fu Xuantuo's love, but she was never in Fu Xuantuo's heart.
Just train her to be a qualified Mrs. Fu.
After the divorce, Fu Xuantuo told what happened when he was rescued.
Only then did she realize that Fu Xuantuo was the man she saved back then.
What is hypnosis? It’s just deceiving yourself.
The discomfort was so extreme that my brain automatically overwritten the painful memories.
But when it comes to it, I still can’t lie to myself.
If she had not saved Fu Xuantuo back then, she would have been able to save her brother, and her brother would not have died.
As a result, she saved that person, the person who had caused her pain for most of her life. She suddenly felt that she was so ridiculous and pathetic.
Stupid, these two words cannot describe myself.
Tears were uncontrollable and she slapped herself twice.
Shen Wanying, why are you so stupid? Why are you so stupid?
You saved a person who has caused you pain for half your life, but you didn't save your brother.
What are you saving? What you are saving is not a thing at all!
Just when Shen Wanying was about to slap herself again, her hand was caught in mid-air.
She raised her head in surprise. The person in front of her was actually Fu Xuantuo.
She frowned and said, "What are you doing here?"
Shen Wanying drove him away and even threatened to call the police. Fu Xuantuo left angrily, but he still couldn't let go of Shen Wanying.
Especially when she said she was stupid, her sadness made him feel like he couldn't breathe, and he was always afraid that something would happen to her.
So, he secretly waited outside the cake shop, silently wanting to look at Shen Wanying.
But Shen Wanying left not long after, and he was worried so he followed quietly.
Unexpectedly, Shen Wanying came to the cemetery and even slapped herself twice in front of the cemetery.
"What's wrong with you? Why do you do this to yourself?"
Fu Xuantuo looked at the tombstone and the name written on it.
This person is also named Shen.
"What is the relationship between this person and you?"
"My brother?"
"This man is your brother. Why have I never heard of you?"
Shen Wanying comes to pay homage to her brother every year, and on this day she will neither eat nor drink.
Hypnosis made her forget specific things, but the sadness engraved in her bones could not be changed.
She comes to pay homage to her brother every year to this day.
She was in great pain on this day every year, but Fu Xuantuo never noticed.
"It's none of your business, just go away."
"Why is it none of my business? Your brother is my brother. I should pay tribute with you."
Shen Wanying smiled.
"I have been husband and wife with you for more than 20 years. Every year on this day I come to pay homage to my brother, but you don't even say you want to pay homage to my brother with me. It should be said that you don't even know. It's really ridiculous. I did." You've been here for more than 20 years and you don't even know it. It's ridiculous, have you ever cared about me? How can you have the nerve to ask me to look back?"
Fu Xuantuo was deeply hit by Shen Wanying's words.
Shen Wanying was right. He had never cared about her in the past twenty years. He didn't even know that she had a deceased brother.
She came to pay homage every year, but he didn't realize that maybe he was really indifferent to Shen Wanying in the past twenty years. Fu Xuantuo suddenly felt deeply guilty.
"Wanying, I'm sorry. I cared too little about you in the past. From now on, I promise you that I will be kind to you and take good care of you. You will only be yours in my eyes and my heart."