Li Hanxue kept calling Gu Xiyu's name in his heart. The guilt, pity and self-blame in his heart came like a tide, making him breathless and almost unable to breathe.
The suicide path also collapsed at this moment, and the white murderous intent turned into black, constantly devouring Li Hanxue's body.
However, Li Hanxue seemed not to feel the pain at all. He only had Yuehuang Holy Land in his eyes, and that delicate and graceful figure that always occupied his head was always there.
Li Hanxue never knew that he cared about her so much. Even though he knew that there was hope for Su Xiaoya's resurrection, he couldn't help but miss her.
But in normal times, his reason has been steadily suppressing his emotions, preventing him from overstepping the line of defense of reason at all.
This time, his emotions defeated his reason, making him crazy and rushing towards Yuehuang Holy Land desperately.
Maybe this is just an excuse, but it doesn't matter anymore.
Li Hanxue didn't even think clearly about what to say when he went to Yuehuang Holy Land, how to face Gu Xiyu when he saw her, and what kind of attitude he should use to explain everything that happened in these years.
For a cautious person like Li Hanxue, if he does not think about any cause and effect before doing things, and does not consider the pros and cons, it is no different from losing his mind.
In this life, he has only experienced it twice, once when he learned that Su Xiaoya and Li Qi were killed, and the other time is now.
But all this is no longer important. He just wants to see Gu Xiyu now and can't wait to see her. No matter what the outcome, he wants to see her.
Li Hanxue used the fastest speed to reach Yuehuang Holy Land in less than half a day.
At this moment, Bai, who was far away in the Southern Barbarian land, was helping Li Yixin practice. He suddenly felt shocked and had an inexplicable look on his face.
"Bai, what's wrong with you?" Li Yixin put down the sword in his hand, a little surprised.
The white hair quickly withered, losing all its luster, like a dead grass.
Bai said: "Maybe I no longer have the meaning of existence."
"Why?" Li Yixin asked in confusion, "Has your time limit come?"
Although Li Yixin had a cold temperament, Bai still loved him deeply. If he died like this, he wouldn't be sad, but he would still be gloomy for a while.
Bai said: "No, Li Hanxue seems to already know the truth."
After Li Hanxue entered Yuehuang Holy Land, he went straight to Dreamless Peak. At the same time, he separated a clone and went to various places in Yuehuang Holy Land to find Qingluo.
On the Dreamless Peak, the moonlight is hazy.
Suddenly a strong wind arose, making the bamboo forest rustle.
Li Hanxue appeared in front of Gu Xiyu's dormitory door and called: "Ayu!"
"Ayu!"
Li Hanxue called several times, but no one responded for a long time. His spiritual power was dissipated, and Gu Xiyu's aura was not sensed.
"Isn't she in Yuehuang Holy Land?" Li Hanxue felt very disappointed.
At this time, the Dreamless Saint came over from the corridor. When she saw it was Li Hanxue, she smiled and said, "Li Hanxue, why are you here?"
"Senior, where is your disciple Gu Xiyu? I have an urgent matter with her." Li Hanxue said.
The Dreamless Saint said: "Xiaoyu is not here."
"What? She's not here?" Li Hanxue asked, "Then where did she go?"
Saint Wumeng said: "She and the leader are going to the Central Holy Realm to see the Holy Lord."
"The Great Central Holy Realm!" Li Hanxue looked confused, "What is that place?"
Saint Wumeng said: "Everyone in the world knows that there are four realms outside the sky, but few people know that there is a world in the center of these four realms, and that is the Central Holy Realm."
"Who is the Holy Lord?" Li Hanxue asked.
"This person's name is Murong Ling. He is a descendant of the first generation of the Moon Emperor and the real ruler of the Central Holy Realm today." Saint Wumeng said.
"Then when will Gu Xiyu come back?" Li Hanxue said anxiously. "I don't know. Maybe it will be three or two months, maybe three or two years, maybe two or three hundred years. This time she will go to the Central Realm Saint
, is to prepare for becoming the next Moon Emperor." Dreamless Saint said, "So it takes a very long time.
"
"Impossible." Li Hanxue said, "The previous Moon Emperors of your Yuehuang Holy Land must be perfect before they become enlightened. Gu Xiyu does not have such conditions."
"Li Hanxue, what do you mean by this?" The dreamless saint's expression suddenly became extremely cold.
Li Hanxue met the eyes of the Dreamless Saint and said without fear: "Ayu and I are married, how can she still be perfect?"
The Dreamless Saint's eyes flickered and she stared at Li Hanxue for a while, and the cold expression on her face gradually softened.
"So you already know." Li Hanxue said: "Back in Sanwen Cave, after my suicide path collapsed, I lost my mind, and Ayu lost all control of his cultivation because he was poisoned by the Heavenly Lord of the Heaven Gate.
Unable to control my lust, I forcibly had sex with her. When I woke up
, didn’t know that this kind of thing had happened between me and her.”
"You should have noticed it, you are too slow." The Dreamless Saint said.
Li Hanxue said: "Perhaps the authorities are obsessed with it, and they are blind because they care about it. I also had a guess in that direction, but Ayu has always denied this, so I can't be sure. In the end, I can only believe that there was no such relationship between us.
"
"Xiaoyu has always been a self-loving and arrogant child. If your attitude is vague, how can she take the initiative to admit it?" Saint Wumeng said, "What are you going to do now?"
Li Hanxue said: "I want to find her and explain to her everything that happened in these years."
"Then you have to go to the Central Great Holy Realm to find her." Dreamless Saint said, "Do you need me to show you the way?"
Li Hanxue hesitated immediately. He really wanted to go to the Central Holy Realm, but the people at Xiuwu Pavilion were still waiting for his rescue.
If we go to the Central Holy Realm now, we don't know how long it will take. If this mission fails, there will be consequences. I'm afraid Li Hanxue cannot afford it.
Li Hanxue thought for a while and said: "I can't go to the Central Holy Realm. I have other things to do."
"So Xiaoyu still only has such a small status in your heart." Saint Wumeng said dissatisfied. "No." Li Hanxue said, "I care about her, but I can't lose Xiaojun and the others. The Central Great Sacred Realm is a descendant of the Moon Queen.
She has a deep friendship with your Yuehuang Holy Land. She must be safe by then, so I want to save the emergency first.
.”
The Dreamless Saint was a little helpless: "Li Hanxue, you are always able to maintain your absolute ideals no matter what time. Perhaps men like you are what women fear the most." Li Hanxue said: "Even if she follows me now,
She is also under the control of others. I don’t want her to suffer these hardships with me. Senior Wumeng, if Ayu comes back one day, tell her to wait for me and wait patiently for me. I will definitely give her a
explain."
The Dreamless Saint said: "I understand."
"By the way, do Ayu and I have a child? His name is Li Yixin?" Li Hanxue said.
"You also know this?" The Dreamless Saint was a little surprised. Li Hanxue said: "Ever since I found out that Ayu and I were married, I felt something in my heart. At first, Ayu wasted a condition and said that he would give Qing
When I was choosing a name for my spiritual child, I felt a little strange. Now that I think about it, I finally figured it out.
I understand why she would be willing to waste a condition."
"That's right, you and Xiao Yu do have a child, and his name is Li Yixin." The Dreamless Saint said, "This silly girl kept it secret from you. Maybe she wanted to give you a surprise after you confessed to her, but she didn't expect it.
I suffered so much because of it.”
Li Hanxue asked: "Is the child a boy or a girl?"
"male."
"Where is he now? Can I see him?" Li Hanxue suddenly felt a little uneasy and guilty.
Think about it, more than 20 years have passed since Li Hanxue named the child, and the child has already grown up.
And Li Hanxue has been practicing in the Western King Realm for more than 20 years, and has not fulfilled any of the responsibilities that his father should have.
There will definitely be too many shortcomings in that child's childhood, and these shortcomings are just like the lack of maternal love. No matter how much money, how much power, how high the status and strength, they cannot make up for it.
In the future, even if Li Hanxue showed him ten times and a hundred times more care, it would still be difficult to compensate, and even Li Yixin would not accept it at all.
Li Hanxue has not had a mother since he was a child, so he also understands this feeling.
The Dreamless Saint said: "That child is no longer in Yuehuang Holy Land."
"Is he with Ayu?"
"No, I don't know his current whereabouts either." Dreamless Saint said, "But I think it's best for you not to look for him now?"
"Why?" Li Hanxue asked puzzled.
"He is a son of disaster and will bring endless disasters to the people around him. Anyone who comes close to him will not end well." The Dreamless Saint said.
"Why is this happening? Is there no way to resolve it?" Li Hanxue said.
"No." The Dreamless Saint sighed.
Li Hanxue didn't believe it, "Senior Wu Meng, I have some important things to do, so I'm leaving. When Ayu comes back, please be sure to answer what I said to her."
The Dreamless Saint nodded.
Then Li Hanxue quickly left Yuehuang Holy Land, but his clone still stayed in Yuehuang Holy Land and found Qingluo.
"Damumu, why did you suddenly come to see me when you were free?" Qingluo put down the sword in her hand, with a smile on her face.
"Qingluo, do you know the whereabouts of Yixin?" Li Hanxue asked.
"Yixin?" Qingluo said in surprise, "Damumu, do you know?"
"I know, I know everything." Li Hanxue said.
"I haven't seen Xiao Yixin for too many years. He may have grown up by now." Qingluo said, "Sister Xiyu and I rarely see each other now, and I don't know anything about their mother and son."
Li Hanxue showed a hint of disappointment, but his clone still stayed here and listened to Qing Luo talk about a lot of things about Gu Xiyu.
From the time he left Sanwen Cave to the past few years, Li Hanxue heard everything in his heart word for word.
"Damumu, Sister Yu has suffered so much for you, you must not let her down. Otherwise, I will not forgive you." Qingluo said.
Li Hanxue nodded, and his true self was already on the way to the Green Snake Valley. "When all this is over, after getting rid of the Human Emperor, and Ayu hasn't come back, I will go to the Central Great Sacred Realm to find her." Li Hanxue thought in his heart.